Jessica Jurbala
Dr. Stuart
Paper One
February 17, 2013
Word count: 1003
Trey
When a boy tells you they love you, you’re going to believe them. They’ll
mean the world to you, more than they did before. They’ll make you feel special, a
kind of special that no one has ever made you
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feel before. Like you’re ten feet off the ground,
floating. That’s exactly how I felt.
Every day, for three months I would be
spending at the school practicing for the play.
That’s where this relationship started. Two
During play rehearsals at the very start of our
relationship.
strangers that just happened to start talking because they were bored at practice. I
really had no idea that he would become such a huge part of my life.
We saw each other every day. And most weekends. We spoke every chance
we had. We didn’t have that much in common but we both tried new things for each
other. He ended up being the first boy I truly fell in love with.
As the play passed and the set was torn down, we stopped seeing each other
as much because school and sports got in the way. Everything was going good until
one day, he changed his mind.
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Wednesday during lunch, he was out in the hall so I went out but tried
to avoid him because I knew what was going to happen. I had heard what everyone
was saying and I just wanted to try and put it off until after school. He was going to
break up with me. Just like that. He wanted to throw away our whole relationship. I
guess I just didn’t realize how fast someone
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could change their mind about something. He
stopped me and simply said: “ I can’t let this go
on any longer.”
Just like that it was all over. With just
eight small words, everything we had would be
gone and nothing between us would be the same.
Everything seemed to change after that. I
A picture of us just days before we broke up.
stopped talking to most of my friends and stopped smiling in the halls at school. I
felt like every one knew what happened and they were all staring at me . They knew
he was okay but I was still lost and upset about what happened.
Every now and then I would get a message from him asking how I had been. I
would answer with short, one word responses and then not hear anything back
from him for weeks. I wanted to go back to how I used to be but I knew that after
something like this, it was going to take some time.
I tried to hang out with old friends again but they would bring him up and
ask me if I had talked to him. There were a few of them who left him out of all of our
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conversations and I was grateful for that. They were the friends that had gone
through something like this so they knew. They were the ones I turned to the most.
They would all say that same things. It
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hurts like hell at first and you feel like you’re
not going to be happy every again until one
day. You’ll see that you can smile again and be
happy again.
A text message from a friend after everything
happened.
I took these words very seriously. I
started to act like my old self again and even when he would try and talk to me, I
would give more than one word answers. Things were starting to go back to normal
and I was completely okay with that.
We became friends again and realized that we were better that way. We
would hang out every now and then but never like we used to. It was all okay until
he found a new girl and started dating her. Our “friendship” fell apart just like our
relationship did.
I was right back to feeling like things were going all wrong and nothing was
going to be okay. But then I realized that he was just one of the many people who
was going to walk out of my life. He wasn’t meant to stay in my life forever, it was
just temporary. Seeing it this way helped me get through the pain of losing him
again.
We still would find time to talk but since he and his current girlfriend are
very close, we wouldn’t talk as much. Maybe, if I was lucky, it would be every two
weeks or longer. It was sad to think that someone that was such a huge part of my
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life for so long was just got. It was like a bad magic trick. One minute there, the next,
poof.
I’ve come to terms with that fact that he and I probably won’t be close again.
That’s okay with me. Knowing that I had the chance to know someone that was as
sweet as him is all I need to be okay with everything that happened. It still gets me
when our old songs will play but, now I can sing along and remember what we were
doing and where we were when that song first played.
Our conversations have dwindled down to nothing now. Not even a random
one every three weeks. It’s sad to know that we probably won’t talk again but it’s
something that was going to happen anyway. The way I see, he was juts a stepping
stone along the way in my life and this relationship has taught me a lot about myself.
He has helped me grow into the person I am. Sure, I don’t let people in my life that
easily but anyone would be like that. Once you’re hurt, that fear is always there. It’s
like sticking you’re hand on a hot stove. Do it once and you’ve learned your lesson.
We all remember that first person that we fell in love with. Look back at
those memories and see where you can grow instead of being bitter about it. You’re
supposed to learn from your past, not repeat it.
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