Emily Coughs: A fictocritical exploration of the self via social media. Emily Naismith, B.Comm (Media) Submitted in partial fulfilment for the requirements for the degree of Bachelor of Communication (Media) (Honours) Dr. Jenny Weight School of Media and Communication, RMIT University October 2009 Emily Naismith 1 2 labsome 2009 Thankyou To my supervisor, Jenny Weight for supporting me throughout the year with your guidance, knowledge and encouragement. You helped me to produce the best project that I possibly could. To Adrian Miles for originally introducing me to fictocriticism. To Rachel Wilson for always providing confidence in my ideas and being a source of motivation throughout my four years at RMIT. To my Dad for printing this beast. And finally, to the Labsome 2009 group for your helpful suggestions, ideas and cupcakes. Emily Naismith 3 4 labsome 2009 Statement of authorship This thesis contains no material which has been accepted for the award of any other degree or diploma in any tertiary institution, and that, to the best of my knowledge and belief, contains no material previously published or written by another person, except where due reference is made in the text of this thesis. Signature Emily Naismith 5 6 labsome 2009 CONTENTS Abstract 8 Introduction 9 theme of interruptions 10 background on cystic fibrosis 15 background on fictocriticism 16 background on social media 21 writing fictocriticism 24 My Fictocritical Writing Style 29 The Online Environment 36 Identity In Online Environments 36 Reading And Writing Online 38 Twitter 40 Facebook 45 Blogging 46 Flickr 48 Google Maps 49 Conclusion 51 Appendix 54 Bibliography 60 Emily Naismith 7 ABSTRACT An interruption is something that breaks continuity or stops something from happening. Interruptions can make our lives interesting and more engaging by introducing unpredictable elements but they can also dispense disturbance and irritation if the interruption is unpleasant. There are multitudes of ways we deal with interruptions throughout our lives: embracing them, ignoring them, searching for them, opposing them and acknowledging them. This project explores the theme of interruption on three levels. The three interruptions I will be exploring and using in this project are Cystic Fibrosis, fictocriticism and social media. These three interruptions together make up the content, method and medium of my project. As a writing practice, fictocriticism has allowed me to explore the interruptions Cystic Fibrosis imparts upon my life (most notably my constant cough) in a creative and experimental way. The interruption of coughing was my departing point for the theme of interruption. Through using social media as an instrument to write more personally, I have attempted to explore my personal relationship with Cystic Fibrosis, a chronic condition I have lived with my whole life. This journey of selfexploration is an attempt to acknowledge this interruption that I have for the most part ignored previously. Through fictocriticism, I will contemplate my capacity to “write the self”. The aim of this project is to gain a greater understanding of my self and my relationship with Cystic Fibrosis through writing myself on the page. 8 labsome 2009 Introduction I was diagnosed with Cystic Fibrosis (CF) when I was two years old. I have never known a life outside of CF. I remember my Mum pouring the contents of capsules onto apple puree for me to eat before I learnt to swallow tablets and I’ve always been aware that I cough a lot more than others. But what does this actually mean? I can’t escape CF and examine it from the outside. It is a part of who I am. So it’s from this unique vantage point, where I am observing myself through my own eyes that I examine my relationship with CF. I want to give myself time to contemplate how it has shaped my personality and outlook and also consider questions about CF that I have never thought to ask. In this exegesis I will firstly introduce the theme of interruptions that runs through this project. I will then provide a background on the three main areas of focus: CF, social media and fictocriticism, also exploring how these three areas relate and fit together. Then, I will delve deeper into the world of fictocriticism, first providing an overview of how to write fictocritically and then how I went about attempting to write fictocriticism and how my style has developed. The focus will then move to the online world where I will discuss issues of identity that crop up when using online environments and also how writing online differs to writing offline. I will individually explore each of the social media websites I used in my project: Twitter, Facebook, blogging, Flickr and Google Maps. My conclusion will address the struggles I have faced in the production of this project and provide insight as to whether I have gained a greater understanding of myself and my relationship with CF through the production of this project. Emily Naismith 9 Theme of Interruptions Our lives have always been filled with interruptions: some wanted, some unwanted, some surprising and some bland. An interruption is something that breaks continuity or stops progress. In this light, interruptions are seen as slightly negative: they stop us doing what we want to do. But interruptions can also be positive. The three types of interruptions that I will be drawing parallels between in this project are the interruption of CF, the interruptive nature of social media and interruption of writing fictocriticism. Even though I’ve had a cough as long as I can remember, I still see it as an interruption. My cough will interrupt movies, lectures, conversations and even sleep. It is a natural for me to cough and my cough is a part of me, but it still interrupts my everyday activities, sometimes for the better, but mostly for the worst. Having said this, I can’t imagine not having a cough. Coughing actually helps me to clear my lungs so I can continue to do more things. It is a necessary interruption. CF is an interruption on a larger scale than just having an interrupting cough. It invades and takes over aspects of my life frequently at the most inconvenient times, for example, in the two weeks before all coursework is due for the end of the semester or just as I step foot off a plane on a holiday. However this interruption theme does run deeper. It is most likely that one day CF will decisively and ultimately interrupt my life and cut it short. This is a theme that I attempt to deal with in my project. Social media is an interruption on two levels. Tweets, status updates and new blog post notifications interrupt our day, whether we are at work or sitting on a tram. We may not ask to know whether an old high school acquaintance prefers Froot Loops to Coco Pops, but through participating in these social 10 labsome 2009 networks we will get the answer. One factor that makes this kind of interruption different from an interruption like a cough is that we can tailor what interruptions we receive. From subscribing to certain RSS feeds to organizing the people you follow on Twitter into groups, we are tailoring our interruptions to suit our needs. The other way that social media sites act as interruption is in the form of procrastination. When you are struggling to write an article to a close deadline or have a presentation due in the next few hours, suddenly it seems like a great idea to look through the travel pictures of a friend of a friend’s trip to Greece. This is a form of interruption that we actively seek. Sometimes we crave an interruption to break the monotony of work and other times we feel bombarded with interruptions. Social media balances on this line very carefully. Writing can also be an interruptive process. We can blur genres and the codes and conventions of writing styles to produce new hybridized texts. Fictocriticism is a writing practise that enables you to blur these boundaries. Fictocriticism differs from academic writing and also from fiction. It can take elements from both academic writing and fiction writing, and use them to create something else. The hybrid nature of fictocriticism disrupts our habitual reading traditions. This interruption prompts the reader to question the text and delve deeper into what we are reading. Trying to garner a greater understanding of the self through writing can be an interruptive process. Thoughts jump from one topic to the next often only prompted by a faint memory and joined only by a few words. But it is from within this interruption that it’s beauty lies. Raw and powerful expressions of self can be nestled alongside questions of who we really are. It is the desire to explore the self through writing and engaging and tuning into this interruption that can produce interesting fictocriticism. Emily Naismith 11 Fictocriticism does not dictate that you must write about yourself as subject, but inevitably, because it is such a close and personal kind of writing, even if unintended, the self will always slip through. I was drawn to fictocriticism as a writing practise because it allows a deeper and more involved process of writing and allows you to engage in multiple spheres of writing at the same time: personal, theoretical and experimental. This is not the first time I have engaged with CF through writing. I have written about my friends with CF in a half imagined, half truth-based way in early secondary school. I have also written more personally about CF in VCE when I described the emotions I thought CF made me feel through describing them as colours. At the time, I felt ashamed and uncomfortable with this piece of writing as I was embarrassed by the reality of what I had written down on the page. In these two former attempts at writing about CF, I explained my experiences like I would explain them to others. I was explaining myself to the reader. In my current attempt at writing involving CF I am in a different position: I am attempting to write myself. I am trying to explain myself to myself. I will expand more on writing myself later, but for now, my ambition is that I am attempting to capture myself on the page, in order to gain a greater understanding of who I am and how I think about CF. I am aware that until now, I have never really focused on how having CF has impacted me: physically, emotionally or socially. This thought scares me. I want to get to know myself and how I interact and engage with CF. I want to ponder the questions I’ve never asked (or thought to ask) and grasp my thoughts and put them on the page without monitoring or censoring them for others and myself. The three areas of my Honours study (fictocriticism, social media and my experience with CF) started off as separate goals or interests, and then joined into one. 12 labsome 2009 The urge to explore my experiences with CF really only came about earlier this year. It wasn’t until different people started asking about CF and became interested in it that I realized I didn’t really think that much about it. Explaining it to other people made me recognize how much I just accept without question. Even though I wanted to consider my observations of CF, I didn’t even dream about focusing on it as my Honours project. When I started this year of university I thought my Honours project would focus on social media in some way. I thought it would be actually about social media in content, possibly presented as a thesis. It wasn’t until we began as a class to research “research methods” that I came across fictocriticism. Our tutor gave us a lot of material on different research methods, but the one reading that really stood out for me was The Erotics of Gossip: Fictocriticism, Performativity, Technology by Hazel Smith (2005a). Immediately after reading it I wrote about it in my university blog: So I think it’s by being more than an informative essay and more than a fictional radio drama, that is what makes her example of fictocriticism so fascinating. It’s because she has mashed together all different genres in a discontinuous way, we actually end up with more of a feel of what gossip actually is. Moreso than if it was purely creative or purely academic. (Naismith 2009c) This writing practice immediately appealed to me. But I couldn’t really see how it fitted with my original idea of writing about social media. I continued researching fictocriticism and social media, trying to get them to fit in some way so I could keep researching them both for my project. Eventually I realized that my interest in fictocriticism was far more immediately motivating then my steady interest in social media. So I followed this path. I was then faced with the problem, Emily Naismith 13 what do I want to be fictocritical about? This was when my drive to explore CF creatively came to the forefront of my mind. I could see that fictocriticism could be a great vehicle to explore my relationship with CF. I hadn’t given up on using social media as part of my project yet either. This is my long-term media passion and eventually after trying to explain my project to others, I realized that social media did have a place in my project. Using the metaphor of “interruption” it was possible to join fictocriticism, CF and social media together in a compelling project. 14 labsome 2009 Background on Cystic Fibrosis 1 Cystic Fibrosis (CF) is a chronic medical condition that mainly affects the respiratory system, digestive system and reproductive system . It is the most common life threatening, genetic disorder amongst Australians. The information in this chapter is sourced from the Cystic Fibrosis Victoria website ( What is Cystic Fibrosis? 2006). CF patients have a build up of mucous in the lungs which leads to repeated chest infections. Coughing helps to clear this mucous. Regular chest physio and exercise is vital as this helps to keep the airways open and clear and to prevent chest infections. There are different kinds of infections that people with CF can get in their lungs. They are easily transmitted between people with CF so people are usually segregated in hospitals according to what lung infections they have. It is advised that people with CF do not physically socialize with each other to limit the spread of infections. Because CF affects the exocrine glands, it affects the production of sweat, mucous and enzymes. The pancreas is blocked by mucous so the enzymes that are usually released to help break down the fat in food aren’t released at all. CF patients have to take supplement enzymes to make sure it breaks down properly. People with CF take up to sixty enzyme replacement tablets per day. Because of the inability to digest the fat from food, sometimes people with CF have trouble putting on weight. This is why most people with CF are on a high fat, sugar, salt and calorie diet. Cystic Fibrosis is a recessive genetic disorder. Both parents need to be CF carriers to produce a baby with CF. One in every 2500 Australian births is a child with CF. It is not a contagious disease but a chronic condition. There is currently no cure for it. Emily Naismith 15 Background on Fictocriticism Fictocriticism is a form of hybrid writing which combines theory and fiction. My interpretation of “theory” incorporates anything from non-fiction, philosophy and meditations on language. Theory may also be used as an influence to your writing. It is hard to define the structure or features of fictocriticism because of the multitude of forms it can manifest itself in. This is why speaking of fictocriticism as a form of writing is in essence, redundant. Amanda Nettlebeck prefers to refer to fictocriticism as a “strategy for writing” (1998, p. 4) that does not dictate its own form. Anna Gibbs says that fictocriticism is “not so much a genre as an accident” (1997, ¶4). This means that no two pieces of fictocriticism are the same (Gibbs 1997) and often, are very specific. Fictocriticism has roots in the work of the French semiotican/ linguist Ferdinand de Saussure and his examination and analysis of the use of language and the arrangement of the text (Nettelbeck 1998). In my research I will be focussing on fictocriticism that is primarily Australian, though it is important to acknowledge its foundations. In the introduction to The Space Between: Australian Women Writing Fictocriticism, a collection of fictocritical pieces by Australian women, Nettelbeck expresses hope that this anthology will be interpreted as “a series of investigative writings connected by their agnostic relation to the interpretative gesture” instead of “boundary-setting” (1998, p. 13). Nettelbeck provides a rich historic overview of the origins of this literary movement. She notes that the shift toward a form of writing that is more self-conscious toward the construction of a text and authorship is grounded in post-structuralism (Nettelbeck 1998). She says that fictocriticism appeared at the intersection of literature and postmodernism, whilst dealing with the controversy and complexity that the term ‘postmodernism’ is afflicted with. 16 labsome 2009 This chapter is the reference point to the examples of fictocriticism within the rest of the book. Although it doesn’t offer insights as to how to read each text, it sets up what fictocriticism is and its effects on the reader. Nettelbeck says that fictocriticism oscillates between “the poles of fiction (‘invention’/ ‘speculation’) and criticism (‘deduction’/ ‘explication’) of subjectivity (‘interiority’) and objectivity (‘exteriority’)” (1998, p. 3). There are two important effects of fictocriticism, according to Nettelbeck. The first is that fictocriticism makes the text something else. The text isn’t just something to be explained then interpreted, or as Nettelbeck describes it, a “hermeneutical exercise” (1998, p. 4). The second is that the text can be used “to do something other than explication” (Nettelbeck 1998, p. 4). Because a fictocritical text is not solely fiction or theory, the places where fiction and theory intersect, creates something new. One way in which fictocriticism blurs the distinction between literature and criticism is through the use of “irregular intrusion of a slippery subjectivity” (Nettelbeck 1998, p. 5), that is, the use of subjectivity (saying “I”). I have used subjectivity in my fictocritical attempt because I felt without saying “I” I was creating a distance between myself and the text. I will discuss subjectivity in my writing further in the sub-chapter called My Fictocritical Writing Style in the Writing Fictocriticism chapter. One of the most important points that Nettelbeck makes in her introduction is that fictocriticism allows “a simultaneous occurrence of more than one way of reading” (1998, p. 6) a text. The devices that allow this to happen are: “metaphor and metonymy, to deploy intertextual echoes and analogies, to write (back) to a parallel text in a way that invokes that absent text but avoids the interpretative gesture” (Nettelbeck 1998, p. 5). A fictocritical text can have layers of meaning, each interpreted or read in a different light. Metaphors that reverberate throughout a text can be an abstract entry point into theory. Emily Naismith 17 An example of a text that uses echoes and metaphors is ‘Lemon Pieces’ (‘Quelques Morceaux en Forme de Citron’) by Noelle Janaczewska. Janaczewska describes her trip to France as a teenager to find Albert Camus, dotting the story with tales about lemons. The lemon metaphor adds to the summery and zesty feel of the story, but also interacts with it. She talks about sharing lemon curd with her lover and bleaching her hair with the citrus fruit whilst stating facts about them, “the fruit has a very thick, white pith and meagre, almost juiceless flesh” (Janaczewska 1998, p. 58). But the metaphor runs much deeper than this too. The baby she has, then gives up for adoption is described as a “wrinkled, yellow baby” (Janaczewska 1998, p. 63) and when talking about the very act of writing this reflective piece she uses the analogy of making lemon curd, “once you’ve made lemon curd, you can’t then reduce it back to its original butter, sugar, eggs and lemon” (Janaczewska 1998, p. 63). By this she is pointing to the act of writing is always saying something else, rather than the pure idea, and once these literal words are attached to your idea, you cannot escape them. At the end of the piece Janaczewska has included the recipes for lemon curd and preserved lemons that she mentions in the work. The echo of “lemon” as metaphor is woven throughout the whole piece of fictocriticism. One notable fact about the book this story is part of is inherent in its title. This book focuses on only Australian women and their fictocritical work. It has a gendered and regional focus. The focus on only women writers is perhaps due to the fact that fictocriticism made its way into universities initially through “women’s studies courses” (Gibbs 1997, ¶3), although its ties with women specifically began before this. Gibbs says that the first group of people to engage in fictocriticism in Australia was a group of mostly non-academic women who were “very well aware of those strange, exciting and provocative texts emanating first of all from France and then later from Canada from the late 18 labsome 2009 seventies onward” (1997, ¶1), which were major feminist texts by writers such as Helene Cixous and Luce Irigaray. Nettelbeck writes that the place of theory has been an issue “within the often controversial debates on women’s authorial positions” (1998, p. 11). Fictocriticism has competing narratives about where it originated (Bartlett 2006). Alison Bartlett says that it is either attributed “to French feminist ideas of embodied writing practices or to male postmodernists through ideas of hybridity and pastiche” (2006, ¶1). She writes that she is intrinsically more interested in fictocriticism’s feminist origins, effects and shapes, and this is the angle she follows in this article. Fictocriticism is asserted as an Australian style of writing (Bartlett 2006). In other places around the world it goes by other names, for example: theory-fiction, paracriticism, postcriticism, metafiction (Bartlett 2006). Bartlett finds Nettelbeck’s point (1998, p. 3) that fictocritical writing is a product of postmodernism interesting. Bartlett argues that this discounts the feminist analysis of “rational, linear, logical and patrilinear argumentation that retains authority because of its very form” (2006, ¶14). Bartlett disputes Nettelbeck’s point of view when all contributors to her book are women, and the main postmodernists are men. Bartlett argues that there is no reason that fictocriticism can’t have originated in postmodern and feminist circles, which is a different idea to her reading of Nettelbeck, in which she interpreted that fictocriticism either originated “through male postmodernists or through feminist psychoanalysts respectively” (2006, ¶16). Bartlett calls her work “postmodern feminism” (2006, ¶16). When I started writing fictocriticism, I did not know if I favoured a feminist background or a post-modern position. I don’t think my examples of fictocriticism are a case of one or the other. I would agree with Bartlett that my work is postmodern feminism, leaning more towards the feminist side. This position was not Emily Naismith 19 at the forefront of my mind when I was writing fictocritically, although upon reflection I can see that my writing style is definitely feminine. This reflective process is documented in my conclusion. 20 labsome 2009 Background on Social Media Social media can be defined as media that is produced or distributed through interactive mediums. However, social media does not have to be media in the traditional sense of selling content. Social media can also refer to the “platforms for interaction and networking” (Eisenberg 2008, ¶4). These platforms include Twitter and Facebook and are built around social interaction and relationships, not media content in the traditional sense. Social media is centred on the user. Yochai Benkler wrote that the shift from a “mass-mediated public sphere to a networked public sphere” (2006, p. 10) improves the political public sphere. This is because social media gives the power back to the individual. Companies with large advertising budgets are now not the only ones who can spread their message to millions of people worldwide. The internet and social media has allowed anyone with an internet connection and motivation to get their message out there. Benkler wrote that this allows anyone to look at and respond to the social environment through “new eyes—the eyes of someone who could actually inject a thought, a criticism, or a concern into the public debate” (2006, p. 11). Social media gives everyone a voice. The way people use social media can be very personal. The “many-to-many” (Rheingold 1993, ¶51) approach that social media promotes lends itself to a conversation model. Social media allows people to converse. Howard Rheingold wrote that computer-mediated communication (CMC) which can now be interpreted as social media “appeals to us as mortal organisms with certain intellectual, physical, and emotional needs” (1993, ¶50). We are conversing and sharing ideas and opinions with others through social media and together exploring “new ways of experiencing the world” (Rheingold 1993, ¶50). The aspect that differentiates social media from most other forms of mass media is the ability for the user to get involved: to comment, collaborate and share. Social media is a very Emily Naismith 21 conversation driven space. Speaking from an advertising background, Tom Martin wrote that social media is “meant for conversation, not marketing” (2009, ¶1). This means that instead of pushing out lots of content via social media, success for brands and companies lies with conversing with customers and consumers. Engaging with an audience, and having the audience able to engage back is what separates social media from other more traditional forms of media. My fictocritical project does not take full advantage of these aspects. This is not through laziness or ignorance. I feel that this feature of social media is perhaps out of line with what I am trying to achieve through the use of social media. I am using social media as a tool for a web of connections and because social media sites are places that call for us to constantly define ourselves. I have not turned comments off my blog posts or denied anyone access to my writing. I am open to feedback. My writing journey through this project is a personal process, this is why I have not used social media to collaborate with others. I am still engaging with social media and an audience, but the feedback or comments my audience may provide has not shaped the creation of my project. At the moment I haven’t shown many people my project and have definitely not “marketed” it. It is a personal exploration of identity in a place where we are continually asked to define ourselves, not a conversation with others. In many ways using social media to write fictocriticism is a perfect match. The follwing passage is about fictocriticism and its features. But taken out of context, it could just as easily be referring to social media and the many interactions we make through social media websites each day. We are asking for a way of reading/listening that is about interaction? Reaction? Creation? Concatenation? We are at another moment to do with subjectivity. There are so many 22 labsome 2009 new subjects. All of us are endlessly becoming more but do we touch? To speak, to put small feelers of connection out seems to require more effort than it ever did before. The new selves coming into being no longer seem resistant but increasingly alone. Somehow this writing wants to turn and touch its listeners and readers and wants to feel their touch back. (Schlunke & Brewster 2005, p. 394) The interactive side of fictocriticism is referring to the interactions between theory and creative writing and between the writer and the reader. A key part of social media is its ability to make connections between different information and people, not unlike fictocriticism. Stephen Muecke argues that the contemporary writer is asking what can “legitimate his or her point of view” when they are “faced with masses of ways of knowing things coming from all points of the compass” (2002, p. 108). They do not just want to “add to existing views of the world” but the writer “traces a path (which the reader will follow, avidly of course) showing how we got to this position, and what is at stake” (Muecke 2002, p. 108). Social media websites are full of pathways to follow that delve into different layers of privacy and intimacy. Social media can offer insights to the backgrounds and contexts of where people are coming from. Fictocriticism is a very personal form of writing; just like social media is a way we express our personal selves, publicly. Now that I have covered what fictocriticism is, I will provide an overview of different authors opinions on how to write fictocritically. Emily Naismith 23 Writing Fictocriticism There is no specific way to write fictocritically. The term “fictocriticism” covers a wide range of very different examples of writing. Anna Gibbs writes that fictocriticism is a style for which “there is no blueprint and which must be constantly invented anew in the face of the singular problems that arise in the course of engagement with what is researched” (2005, ¶4). With this in mind, this section of my exegesis will not offer a definitive guide of how to write a perfect piece of fictocriticism. It will instead offer a range of different ways in which different writers of fictocriticism think about and reflect on their personal style. One way to think about writing fictocriticism is through the use of mimicry. Anna Gibbs writes that “writing may be driven as much by the body as by thought” (2005, ¶28). She is talking about the feeling you sometimes get while writing, that the words are coming from somewhere else; some other rhythm is driving them onto the page that is separate from our thought. Our bodies are actively thinking up ideas without words or grammatical structures attached to them. When this happens, “thought takes place without language” (Gibbs 2005, ¶28). Gibbs suggests that the animal phenomenon known as mimicry might be one way in which we can “make use of these extended cognitive capacities” (2005, ¶29). Gibbs writes that we “try-on” another writer’s writing style when we learn to write. This isn’t plagiarism, but the imitating another person’s style can help us build up our own (Gibbs 2005). She cites Elizabeth Grosz, Volatile Bodies: toward a corporeal feminism. While describing a surrealist text by Roger Caillois on animal and insect mimicry Grosz says that “mimesis is particularly significant in outlining the ways in which the relations between an organism and its environment are blurred and confused – the way in which its environment is not distinct from the organism but is an active internal component of its ‘identity’” (1994, p. 46). The person who is mimicking the writing style of someone else is in this sense not plagiarising, but actually using it in a different way. So there is a certain “fragility” 24 labsome 2009 (Gibbs 2005, ¶30) in the distinction between the subject and its environment. Gibbs suggests that this is what happens when writing something imitative or derivative. This is what Gibbs calls the “difference of the similar” (2005, ¶35). And it is through the use of mimicry that fictocriticism can “do something differently, to undo something, to make a difference” (Gibbs 2005, ¶35). Taking Gibbs’ approach to heart, I believe that The Stream of Life by Clarice Lispector is one of the most beautifully written books I have ever read. It is very poetic and constructed with beautiful language. I want try and learn from her style of writing in my own fictocriticism. Ironically, it is difficult to write about, because the whole book is about capturing an indescribable quality or feeling. Lispector was not consciously writing fictocriticism, and never referred to her work as fictocritical. However, her work is very helpful to me and developing my writing practice, so I feel it is necessary to cover The Stream of Life. Lispector belives there is a difference between the thought or feeling you are trying to express and what you actually write on the page. So she defies the normal structure of writing, and writes in a way in which she tries to capture the present moment and present it on the page. Lispector uses the analogy of writing being like using words as bait, “a word fishing for what is not a word. When that non-word – the whatever’s between the lines – bites the bait, something’s been written” (1989, p. 14). Through this process, the non-word incorporates the bait. Lispector is not actually writing the present moment on the page, but hopes that between the lines, the struggle between the now moment and writing the now moment can be appreciated by the reader. There is no real narrative or main themes in the work. It really is a collage of thoughts and feelings, but this is the beauty of it. No subject is given much more than a few lines or sentences before Lispector jumps to talking about something else. Lispector knows she is being implicit, “and when I begin to make myself explicit I lose my moist intimacy” (1989, p. 17). It seems that by Emily Naismith 25 pointing to nothing, she is in fact giving us more of an insight to her world then by pointing to anything or everything. Gibbs refers to fictocriticism as “haunted writing” (2005, ¶1). This analogy stems from the “numerous voices” within a piece of fictocriticism that “work now in unison, at other times in counterpoint, and at others still against each other, in deliberate discord” (Gibbs 2005, ¶1). Gibbs suggests that academic writing is haunted by the dead through acts like citation which is “the kind of repetition you have when reference is deference to disciplinary authority” (2005, ¶1). Instead of citation, Gibbs puts forward “recitation” (2005, ¶2). The kind of repetition that will bring about new differences, and through that, to “see what happens” (Gibbs 2005, ¶2). To write fictocriticism you have to consciously hybridise your writing and “blur generic boundaries” (Dawson 2005, p. 170). Paul Dawson calls it “mongrelisation” (2005, p. 170). Dawson draws attention to hybridisation as a postmodern aspect. This means breaking down the barriers between genres, like fiction and criticism, to “recognise that genres are institutionally conferred categories” (Dawson 2005, p. 171). Dawson writes that postmodernism is best understood as a “plurality of genres” which means an “erasing of hierarchies rather than generic differences, and a loosening of boundaries, retaining the conceptual differences of genres but exploiting their practical possibilities of permeability (rather than contamination)” (2005, p. 171). So it does not mean that the boundaries between genres disappear in fictocriticism, rather that it becomes possible to interact playfully with them because they are not rooted in a hierarchy. The use of lists within writing is another strategy of fictocriticism (Gibbs 1997). Moya Costello writes that lists are a form of evidence, “linking the textual to a material world” (Costello 2005, ¶14). A lot of fictocritical writers use categories and lists to break up their work. Susan Ash (1998) uses a list like structure in 26 labsome 2009 Waiting To Dance. She constructs her writing around the stages gone through at a school dance, for example: waiting to dance, the opening out, promenade position, turn, cross hesitation and déplacement (Ash 1998). In another example Zoë Sofia (1998) uses the alphabetic structure to define the construct of her writing. Costello has complied a “partial, contingent and transient toolkit” (2005, ¶22) for practical use when writing fictocriticism. However, this toolkit it not solely for just fictocriticism, it extends to other forms of experimental writing, but it does have an Australian focus. She has grouped quotes from other writers under each part of the “toolkit”. The main points are: To take risks, to challenge. To change, transform, question, disrupt. To be uncertain, indeterminate, contradictory. To transgress, to be hybrid. To be silent. To fragment, to trace, to be incomplete, open, nonlinear, nonhierarchical. To have a metadiscourse. To be intertextual. (Costello 2005, ¶23-30) Stephen Muecke also writes in a fictocritical style. Muecke (1997, p. 159) tells us a story about his process of writing. He says that the weakest parts in his work are often the start of something new (Muecke 1997). This is because the weakest parts often have “vulnerability and danger” (Muecke 1997, p. 159) as part of them. The parts that aren’t weak in your writing are “always the confident step, the almost clichéd, the acceptable” (Muecke 1997, p. 159). So Muecke says that it is important to go back to these parts that seem weaker after the first draft of writing, to explore them more. There is “potential adventure” (Muecke 1997, p. 160) in these weak parts that we might often overlook or even erase. This is interesting because throughout schooling, from primary school to higher education, we are mostly taught Emily Naismith 27 to exclude anything that doesn’t directly relate to your main argument or narrative, so as to stay on track and not confuse the reader. But Muecke believes that the weaknesses in our work started to become apparent because “one was paying too much attention to the foreground ideas, and background connections started to be made without control” (Muecke 1997, p. 160). This is an experience that is usually overlooked. Through the process of revisiting the weakness, and teasing it out, it will become a strength and then another weakness will pop up, and they will “multiply” (Muecke 1997, p. 160). This seems like a very organic way of working with your writing. First-person narrative writing is incorporated into some fictocriticism. Anne Brewster uses first-person narrative because she wants to “enter into an intimate negotiation with the seductions of subjectivity and narrative” (2005, p. 401). The use of first person separates persuasive or rhetorical writing from the “unmediated nature of voice and a coherent subject” (Brewster 2005, p. 401). Another article by Brewster, co-written by Katrina Schlunke, argues that use of first person narrative or “personal voice” is a tool that presents the tangibility and importance of sociality and makes clear the “relationship between writer, text and audience” (2005, p. 394). Jenny Weight has produced works of fictocriticism and cybertext. In one of her lectures she speaks about fictocriticism. Weight offers some tips for students to begin to write fictocritically, these include: • start with the first person • start with something mundane, that you experience a lot … then see where it can take you • explicit reference to your own experience • find / invent juxtapositions and hybrids • follow the tangents, poke about (2007, ¶51) Hazel Smith also offers different ways in which her readers can 28 labsome 2009 write fictocritically. She suggests writing in a “discontinuous prose form so you can write in sections” (Smith 2005b, p. 209). Choosing a theme that has “theoretical mileage in it, then write poems and short narratives in response to it” and offering your own take on a theoretical idea or concept are other ideas Smith suggests (2005b, p. 209). She also proposes an alternative way to write fictocritically, where you take the theory from theoretical texts and use it to “trigger the writing of fictional or poetic texts” (Smith 2005b, p. 210). Now that I have covered a wide range of opinions on how to write fictocritically, I will describe how I began to write fictocriticism, and how my style has changed through the process of writing this project. My Fictocritical Writing Style One’s usual experience of writing about the self is usually very abstract: summarizing yourself into a list of achievements on a résumé or presenting your point of view without mentioning the self in an academic essay are detached ways of presenting yourself on the page. Since learning to write in primary school, creative writing has always centred on story telling and situating the self in the middle of the story. Walter R. Fischer suggested that the root metaphor we use to describe the essential nature of human beings be “homo narrans” (1984, p. 6), not homo sapiens or homo politicus etc. This is because “humans are essentially storytellers” (MacIntyre 1984, p. 201). Narrative ties in deeply with our essence as humans: The unity of human life is the unity of a narrative quest. Quests sometimes fail, are frustrated, abandoned or dissipated into distractions; and human lives may in all these ways also fail. But the criteria for success or failure in human life as a whole are the criteria of success or failure in a narrated or to-benarrated quest. (MacIntyre 1984, p. 203). Emily Naismith 29 Narrative is one of the ways we understand ourselves. Alasdair MacIntyre said that when a distinction is drawn between art and life, narrative is often discounted as art. But when narrative is dismissed in this way it “further helps to protect us from any narrative understanding of ourselves” (MacIntyre 1984, p. 211). Narrative as a pastiche of art and life is a valid way of seeking to understand ourselves. When I began to try to write myself through fictocriticism I began with simple narrative. Story was my starting point, and I built up from there. One of my first attempts at writing fictocriticism was a story about being at work and coughing. Here is an excerpt: I know you’re all looking at me and thinking similar things so I just pretend not to notice the absurdly large queue of blank stares and concentrate on finding Chinese cabbage on the touch screen menu. It’s under ‘W’ for wombok. I’m actually not sick, but I’m aware that every time I cough it sounds like my lungs are about to invert out of my mouth and land on top of your reduced fat cheese. (Naismith 2009b) This way of expressing my self through story tells a series of events with my reactions explained beside it, but it doesn’t really allow much room for actually exploring why I feel like this. It was narrative at it’s most basic. I had to move beyond simply telling a story. This demands a different process of writing. I had to make a conscious decision to break linearity and switch off my sequential mind. To fully explore myself through writing, I wanted to get my mind as close to the page (or screen?) as possible. This required me to not only delve deeper into myself, but reengage with the idea of story telling from a more sophisticated angle. I didn’t want to narrate my life in a linear structure. I wanted to consciously break this mould, while still incorporating elements of narrative to create a multi dimensional, experimental writing of myself. 30 labsome 2009 Through the writing of my project I have developed a more sophisticated relationship with theory in my writing. Although the term “theory” for me still conjures up images of trying to remember the parts of a fish’s anatomy or how many crotchets are in a semibreve for music, theory can be far more than just random facts. Although I have only learnt this through coming full circle, at first I did think that all I had to do to incorporate theory into my work was insert a few terms and theories here and there. Here is an example of one of my first attempts at incorporating theory to my writing: Some think that computer-mediated communication (CMC) is inferior to face-to-face communication (f2f). Obviously, text-based CMC can miss out on important non-verbal cues. It is harder to convey a smile, a tinge of sarcasm or an inkling of a laugh over the web, but there are other ways to express these feelings. For me, not all non-verbal cues are desirable to communicate over the web. Can you imagine? (Naismith 2009a) I was coming from a very simplistic notion of what theory is: taking something out of a textbook and dumping it into creative writing. But what I have learned since then, through the process of writing, is that theory can actually be incorporated in a more complex way. The idea behind my project is that I want to explore my experiences with Cystic Fibrosis, having never really thought about it before. So in effect I am actually exploring myself, which is quite an abstract concept. And when I am recording my attempts through putting fingers to keyboard in writing it down, I guess I am essentially writing myself. This is a valid theoretical exercise in itself. It is the principle behind my writing, which justifies my venture into fictocriticism. Writing is a powerful tool that can reveal a lot about yourself. From an anthropological point of view, Dennis Altman said writing the self is confrontational and “can lead to later regrets and self-doubt” (Altman 2002, p. 320). Through my experience of writing this project I have doubted whether what I am writing Emily Naismith 31 is true to what I actually believe. I was internally asking myself questions such as “Is this my real voice?” and “How do I know what I really believe?” Even though these questions can never have solid answers, they are important to reflect on. Considering these questions on one hand helped me actually write what I thought my beliefs and feelings are, and on the other hand confirmed that even though I am trying to write myself on the page, it is impossible to do so. I have realized through trying to write the self, that perhaps it is not possible. I will expand on this realization further later in this chapter. Unless you are writing a manual or set of instructions, it is hard to avoid including your own point of view or aspects of yourself within your writing. Shirley Ann Jordan wrote that “conventions of most academic essay writing require an impersonal, objective idiom and the almost total erasure of the ‘I’, relegating subjectivity to the status of the non-academic” (2001, p. 45). But subjectivity is something that cannot be escaped. Even if every ‘I’ is replaced with a more impenetrable objective phrase we can never see from outside ourselves, therefore, we can only give a personal account. Writing the self onto the page requires a “self-questioning alertness” (Jordan 2001, p. 45) that otherwise, if the self was not ingrained in the written work, may never have surfaced. It is through writing the self that we begin to know ourselves. I embraced the “self-questioning alertness” that Jordon speaks about in my writing practice. To question the self was something that didn’t just happen, but was one of the main reasons for writing, an aim. My goal in writing this project was to bypass the rational thoughts of my brain. I wanted what was written to be my thoughts, fears and hopes. I didn’t want it to be representational of my thoughts or a refined version of them: I just wanted them on the page. This was all a part of the process of learning to know and understand myself. Though through the process of actually writing my project and then reflecting on it, I realized that this is impossible. 32 labsome 2009 The words that have ended up compiling my project are obviously not me. I don’t think it’s possible for me to write myself to that extreme, or for anyone to write himself or herself. There is always going to be a gap or something lost in the translation between your thoughts and what ends up on the page. In The Stream of Life Clarice Lispector struggles with capturing her essence on the page. She writes: “I’m trying to capture the fourth dimension of the now-instant” (Lispector 1989, p. 3), “I want to capture the present” (Lispector 1989, p. 4) and “I want to take possession of the thing’s is” (Lispector 1989, p. 3). Lispector is trying to say something that cannot be said. Hélène Cixous wrote that the very theme of this book is “to say something always betrays something” (1989, p. xi). Lispector is hyper-aware that what is written on a page will always be separate from what is thought, but her attempt at conveying the present or “instant” of her thoughts on the page is remarkable. She writes, “What I want in music and in what I write you and in what I paint are geometrical lines that cross in space and form a discordance that I can understand. It’s pure it.” (Lispector 1989, p. 53). The way that Listpector playfully skips and darts from one thought to another mimics the human mind. She wants to capture the it, the now or the present through writing. Through reading The Stream of Life we become absorbed in the text, but not the same kind of absorbtion that may occur through reading a common narrative. On one level it is impossible to be absorbed in The Stream of Life because Listpector is always interrupting by changing the form of the text, asking rhetorical questions and urging us to acknowledge the writing as a text, “didn’t I tell you? didn’t I tell you that one day something was going to happen to me?” (1989, p. 48). Cixous said that “one has to read the very phenomena of writing, reading oneself” (1989, p. xxiii). Lispector attempted to read herself and presented something rare, fleeting and almost magical on the page. Although she has not captured herself or the present on the page, the attempt she made was worthwhile. Lispector knew Emily Naismith 33 that she was trying to write something that cannot be written: I’m aware that everything I know I cannot say, I know only by painting, or pronouncing syllables blind of meaning. And if here I have to use words for you, they must create an almost exclusively bodily meaning. I’m battling with the ultimate vibration. (1989, p. 5) I am now aware that I cannot read myself and present myself in writing. Through adapting some of Lispector’s writing techniques and sharing a similar reason for wanting to write (capturing something indescribable) I hope to express something of myself on the page. Through the process of trying to read something impossible to read (the self) and write something impossible to write (the self), more of an understanding of self may follow. Autoethnography is a related genre to ficrotcriticism. It is a writing practice that closely relates to my project as it “involves a rewriting of the self and the social” (Reed-Danahay 1997, p. 4) presented through the writers experience of life. Autoethnography has elements of three writing genres: Native anthropology, ethnic autobiography and autobiographical ethnography (Reed-Danahay 1997, p. 2). There are two different uses for autoethnography, although they are not completely distinct. Deborah E. Reed-Danahay defines the distinctions as either having an accent on autobiography or ethnography (1997, p. 8). The type of autoethnography I am interested in examining is related to autobiographical writing. In autoethnography the thoughts and feelings of the writer are valued so that “the subject and object of research collapse into the body/thoughts/feelings of the (auto)ethnographer located in his or her particular space and time” (Gannon 2006, p. 475). Autoethnography inverts binaries like “individual/ social, body/mind, emotion/reason, and lived experience/ 34 labsome 2009 theory” (Gannon 2006, p. 476). Playing with the opposition between lived experience and theory in academic work is similar to the writing practice of fictocriticism. Some think that this focus on the self leads to abandoning theory, “the force of the ontological is impoverished . . . through an insistence on the researcher’s self ” (Probyn 1993, p. 5). Patricia Clough believes that autoethnography suffers symptoms of “trauma culture” and is focused on issues like “drug abuse, sexual abuse, child abuse, rape, incest, anorexia, chronic illness, and death” (2000, p. 287). Lisa M. Tillmann has written about her struggles with bulimia, separation and divorce through autoethnography (Tillmann 2009). I am writing about my experiences with a chronic illness but I do not think it falls under the trauma culture umbrella because I am not discarding theory in the place of personal experience (even if some of it could be seen as traumatic). There seems to be a blurred line between autoethnography and fictocriticism. I have gained insight from researching the selfreflexive nature of autoethnography to use in my project. I have developed a fictocritical writing style that is selfquestioning, personal and subjective. It differs between having a more narrative based format and a more self-questioning and less linear format depending on the type of social media it is written in. It is influenced by elements of autoethnography, but the key text my writing style is influenced by is The Stream of Life. I will now expand on identity through writing, specifically in an online environment. Emily Naismith 35 The Online Environment In this chapter I will cover identity in online environments, especially social media websites and how reading and writing differs online to an offline environment. I will introduce hypertext and how hypertext theory relates to my project. Then I will provide an overview of the five social media websites I used in this project and explain how I used each in an individual way. I will also offer examples of other creative projects that inspired me that have also used these social media outlets as a medium for expression. Finally, I will provide advice on how to access and navigate each part of my project. Identity in online environments I have explored a previously unexplored part of my self through this project. I have examined aspects of myself through writing fictocriticism using social media that I wouldn’t have been able to see otherwise. This has been beneficial to me and in this instance the internet has provided a “space for growth” (Turkle 1996, p. 263). Sherry Turkle belives that the internet allows people to “build a self by cycling through many selves” (1996, p. 178). Though I have not created an avatar or a radically different self through the internet, the screen name that I have chosen to present my fictocritical work is in a way a multiple identity. “Emily Coughs” is the profile name behind all the different aspects of social media I have used. I did this to distance myself from the project (because I am already on most of those social media websites myself). I wanted this project to be separate from my “Emily Naismith” profiles because I have been treading on delicate territory. The things I have written are personal and I do not feel comfortable sharing them with my friends and followers through various social media websites. It has been helpful to create a different identity because it allows me to explore sensitive ideas freely, without worrying about what the people I know will think. “Emily Coughs” is a real identity according to the different social media websites I used because to create new profiles all you 36 labsome 2009 need is a first name, surname, password and email address (all of which I have created). This raises an interesting question about identity on the internet. Are online identities any less real than offline identities? According to five different social media websites “Emily Coughs” exists as a real person. Obvisly the identity I have created for this project does not exist as a separate being offline, but there are elements of reality within the creation of this identity. I created “Emily Coughs” to explore part of myself that “Emily Naismith” couldn’t. Turkle said, “Like the anthropologist returning home from a foreign culture, the voyager in virtuality can return to a real world better equipped to understand its artifices” (1996, p. 263). I believe Turkle is correct. Through my journey into exploring myself as “Emily Coughs” I have become come to better understand “Emily Naismith”. Communicating with others online can be different to communicating with others face to face. When we talk to someone face to face, we are not just listening to what they are saying but we are building a character profile of them, even though we may not realize it. We may note their appearance, nationality, age, mannerisms and voice, as well as what they are actually saying. We may use these clues to inform us of their perceived identity, and judgements may be made based upon this. In the online world issues of personal identity can be hidden, turned off and even played with. Joshua Berman and Amy S. Bruckman created an online environment called The Turing Game. This environment allowed users to play with identity and explore the issues surrounding it. This is the outline of the game: In this environment, The Turing Game, a panel of people all pretend to be a member of some cultural group, such as women. Some of the panelists, who are women, are instructed to try to prove that fact to their audience. Others are men, trying to masquerade as women. An audience of diverse gender tries to discover who the imposters are, Emily Naismith 37 by asking questions and analysing the panel members’ answers. (Berman & Bruckman 2001, p. 83) Games like this, and more recently, online environments such as Second Life allow users to try out new, different identities. Crossing cultural boundaries such as gender and race online is easy and even “gamelike” (Berman & Bruckman 2001, p. 100). The ability to try on and test out divergent identities allows us to play with our personal identities. This notion of playing with identity can be simply a way of having fun or entertaining oneself, but it can also aid our understanding of who we are. Online environments, like Second Life, allow you to role-play and experiment with different identities. Perhaps the identity people promote in these environments is closer to who they actually are. When interviewing residents of Second Life for his book Tom Boellstorff found that for some, “the actual world is more characterized by “role playing” than virtual worlds, where one’s self is open to greater self-fashioning and can be more assertive” (2008, p. 121). Online environments allow room for play and experimentation, which in turn, could bring us closer to understanding the self. Reading and writing online In many ways, reading something online is similar to reading something in a book, “the eyes move from left to right, then search for the start of the next line” (Have 1999, p. 283). However, there are obviously some large fundamental differences. Instead of holding a physical book in your hands which is in a fixed state, you are looking at a screen in which “electronic text always has variation, for no one state or version is ever final; it can always be changed” (Landow 1997, p. 64). Hypertext is using the computer to “transcend the linear, bounded and fixed qualities of the traditional written text” (Delany & Landow 1991, p. 3). My project is hypertextual because it uses links and because it uses social media, is constantly able to be updated and changed. 38 labsome 2009 Hypertextual works make use of links. Links within a text can make connections within that text, but also to outside texts. This allows readers to take various different paths through the text which in turn makes the writer lose “certain basic controls over his text, particularly over the edges and borders” (Landow 1997, p. 64). I have used links within my project to link together all the different social media websites. It is important that when the user visits one social media site, they still feel like they are within the project and not just on the social media website. This is why I always included a link back to the home page on each social media website I used. Hypertext plays with linearity. It possesses “multiple sequences rather than lacking linearity and sequence entirely” (Landow 1997, p. 77). When I began writing for the various social media websites, I was writing in a very linear fashion. I will explain this in detail later when I cover each individual social media website. Generally though, I had to alter the way I thought about writing and reading to get what I wanted out of each piece of writing. Social media websites are not usually used for telling linear stories, most are more suited to short, self-contained updates. I took this into account when writing. I had to align my writing with the features and elements that are specific to each social media website. When people use a social media website like Facebook for instance, they know that the wall posts are not in chronological order. But by reading backwards the story or message still gets across to them. Hypertextual works can provide “multiple beginnings and endings rather than single ones” (Landow 1997, p. 77). In some cases, like the blog part of my project, the initial beginning I wrote has become the end. This is again because of the reverse chronological nature of blogging. This does not matter. The user may choose to read any blog post first, or indeed any other social media part of my project first. The order does not matter. I have given control of my text over to the reader, they can navigate as they like because this is the nature of the internet. They can also add to Emily Naismith 39 it by adding to the comments I have already included in the text of my Facebook part or by linking back to individual parts of my project. Hypertextual works are “open-ended, expandable and incomplete” (Landow 1997, p. 79). My project will not be the same before or after I hand it in for marking, it will be constantly changing. The fluidity of hypertext, the internet and social media is means that my project will be constantly open and engaging. Within my project I have used five different social media websites: Twitter, Facebook, Google Maps, a blog and Flickr. I will now explain the uses of each individually and how I have gone about working with them. Twitter Twitter is a social network and micro-blogging service that enables users to send and read text based messages of 140 characters. These messages are called tweets. A user’s tweets are shown on their profile page and are also sent to their followers. Because Twitter deals primarily in text, it seems somewhat suited to fictocriticism. There is a lot of media attention around Twitter and its purpose. Frequenting newspapers are articles arguing that Twitter is pointless, like Tony Wright’s, What’s the most birdbrained thing to do right now? Make a Twit of yourself (2009). Most articles tend to question why people “tweet” and the allegedly disastrous effects Twitter will have on society. Wright writes that the answers to the question Twitter asks users ‘What are you doing now?’ are mostly “banal communication almost beneath description. ‘Sitting at my desk typing thinking whether to wear black jeans or blue out tonight,’ tends to sum up most traffic” (2009, ¶5). Wright is correct in one way. Most tweets are mainly about simple, everyday moments. One of the main types of user intentions of Twitter is “daily chatter” (Java et al. 2007, p. 52). 40 labsome 2009 Kate Crawford says “it is this very mundanity that is central to Twitter’s success” (2009, p. 258). Crawford delights in the fact that Twitter allows us to access the everyday thoughts of others. Far from being “less substantial than air” (Wright 2009, ¶2), Crawford (2009, p. 258) speaks about some of the mundane tweets performing a double function, much like fictocriticism does. Crawford (2009, p. 258) uses the essay Thinking Habits and the Ordering of Life by Elspeth Probyn as an example of how domestic, everyday tasks can take on this double function. Probyn writes about her actions as she wakes up on one particular day, while also describing her thought processes. It is like we are there with her, in her house, listening to all the trivialities in her mind and hearing things that would usually never be spoken. Probyn is speaking in layers. Crawford cites this example from Probyn’s text: I mop the floor all the while chasing the notion of semiotic habit around the dusty corners of my mind. The floor looks good, a legacy of having been a commercial cleaner in my youth. (Probyn 2005, p. 246). In this example Probyn tells us about the banal domestic task of mopping her floor whilst also allowing us an insight to her mind. Crawford describes this as “moving beyond the division described by Charles Pierce between ‘the outer world’ of social reality and the ‘inner world’ of subjectivity” (2009, p. 258). Probyn’s style of writing may be seen as fictocritical because she covers very interesting theory, in small parts so you don’t get bogged down in it, but all the while describing the features of her cat, the light streaming through the window and mopping the floor. These aren’t simple descriptions either. They are gateways to higher, more theoretical thought. The ordinary and the theoretical are interwoven so they twist and turn out of each other. Emily Naismith 41 This gives the reader a feeling of displacement. You’re neither here, nor there. You aren’t reading theory, and you aren’t reading fiction about her ordinary life. This displacement is something found at the core of fictocriticism. It’s similar to reading someone’s tweets. People use Twitter for different reasons, like daily chatter, conversations, sharing information and reporting news to name a few of the most popular (Java et al. 2007). And often, people might use Twitter to reply to a friend’s comment, report news, share a link or state what they are doing within the one Twitter profile, day or even the one tweet. This confirms that Twitter is a hybrid medium, much like fictocriticism. Because of Twitter’s 140-character limit, it is suited to short updates about what you are doing in a certain moment in time. However, people are creatively using this 140-character limitation to expand Twitter into media you would not expect. For example, Joshua Rothhaas’ first tweet says, “Every update will tell one tale of exquisite mastery and limited characters. Each will be 140 characters long and completely self contained” (2007). Each tweet to his profile is a self-contained piece of fiction. For example: Two design students fall madly in love and make terribly bold statements holding each other to be more perfect than the typeface Helvetica. (Rothhaas 2007). This is one example of the creative writing possibilities of Twitter. Some have attempted to write larger works of fiction using Twitter as a medium. Manton Reece decided to write a short story in 140 characters a day for 140 days (2007b). The tweets are connected each day so that the story continues. This is an experimental kind of writing that is constrained by the character limit and the fragmented nature of tweets. In his personal blog, Reece reflects on the process of writing Twitter fiction in this way after attempting five tweets, “writing something 140 characters at a time is exactly opposite to the way I normally 42 labsome 2009 write. It is much more challenging than I thought, and after 2 days I immediately wanted to start cheating and writing a bunch ahead, so that the story flowed properly” (2007a). Reece did not succeed in his aim of writing 140 characters a day for 140 days (one and a half years on, there are still only 61 tweets). This is probably because Twitter is not suited to publishing large stories, just self contained tweets. Defying what most use Twitter for, Maureen Evans condenses recipes from all over the world into tweets. This is a work of art in itself. This is Evans’ tweet for butterscotch pudding: Butterscotch Pudding: mix.5c packed brwnsug/3T cornstrch/dash salt; +1.5c milk/.5c cream. Boil/whisk1m; +2T buttr/T whisky/t vanil. Chill2h. (2009) There is a certain beauty in the 140-character limitation. Clearly for Evans, limits like this are no boundaries. The limits Twitter enforces seem to implore people to act more creatively within the boundaries, often producing new genres of media, or at least things never tried before. I began using Twitter to write fictocriticism in a very different way to how I eventually ended up using it. I started off by simply taking a piece of writing and chopping it up into 140 character tweets and posting to a Twitter profile. Although this is adhering to the rules of Twitter, it isn’t using Twitter to it’s full potential. I was adapting writing to suit Twitter, where it would be more effective if I wrote a piece especially for Twitter. One of my next ideas was to show a conversation between myself and an imaginary future version of myself via tweets and @ replies. This is an example of this piece of writing: Great, now I can’t stop thinking about it. I’m imagining myself in the future with someone else’s lungs inside me. Emily Naismith 43 @cough_cough It’s not actually that weird. I feel like they are my lungs now… breathe in, breathe out… @future_emily Sshhh. You’re freaking me out!!! They must feel a bit different though, and you must be aware that they’ve been in someone else’s body? @cough_cough It’s not that creepy. If anything I just feel thankful, not weirded out. I’m scared. Why am I having an imaginary conversation with myself in the future with new lungs? (Naismith 2009d) This is a more integrated approach to using Twitter because it uses more of its functionality (@ replies and conversations), but still, this read as a linear story. The premise behind Twitter is that each tweet answers the question, “What are you doing?” which denotes a self-contained answer. Another reason why Twitter does not suit linear based stories is that tweets are displayed in reverse chronological order, so the most recent tweet is at the top of the page. When talking about “linear stories” I mean stories that read from beginning to end, generally not from end to beginning (otherwise Twitter may be better suited). The order tweets appear in suggests that linear based stories are not the place for Twitter. Tweeting my coughs seemed to be the solution because each cough/tweet was self contained (it didn’t matter what order they were read in) and they answered the question “What are you doing?” Using Twitter in this way meant that I was tailoring my writing to Twitter, not the other way around. I originally wanted the tweeted coughs to interrupt the audience in real life and real time. I wanted to be able to tweet a cough 44 labsome 2009 and then have it interrupt them on their mobile phone. In the larger theme of “interruption”, these tweets also provided an actual real-world interruption for the audience, an interruption that they would hear if they were to be physically near me. Unfortunately this feature is unavailable currently in Australia. I have still tweeted my coughs, but unfortunately they do not have the real interrupting quality that I was after. What I have ended up doing is compiling a list of tweeted coughs on my Twitter profile page. It does not matter what order they are read in because each tweets is self contained. Facebook Instead of asking, “What are you doing?” like Twitter does, Facebook asks, “What’s on your mind?” This seems to imply that people express themselves more emotionally and personally on Facebook then they do via Twitter. Soren Gordhamer from Mashable said that Facebook is “oriented toward communicating with people one already knows” and “seems more suitable for longer conversations” (2009). Facebook allows you to engage with people you already know. You have to be reciprocal friends with someone to be able to receive their status updates, so naturally the status updates may be of a more personal nature. Facebook allows you to write paragraphs upon paragraphs in the status update field, unlike Twitter’s strict character limit. This allows you to be more in depth, and also have some control over the linearity. The ability to comment status updates also allows you to work in a linear fashion, even though updates are displayed in reverse chronological order. Most status updates are about what is happening in this very instant because of the nature of the question Facebook asks: “What’s on your mind?” The instantaneous quality of Facebook is another reason people use it. You can post something to your wall and within seconds all of your online friends have seen it. It is very heavily based in the present moment. A study of Facebook Emily Naismith 45 and Myspace use in American young adults found that they thought Facebook was “an efficient way to communicate with friends” (Urista, Qingwen & Day 2009, p. 221). This study found that bulletin posting in Myspace, (which on Facebook is now similar to a status update because all of your friends can see it) was an “efficient way for an individual to get a quick response from others when he or she desires attention” (Urista, Qingwen & Day 2009, p. 221). My fictocritical writing on Facebook is based around real time because I wanted it to convey real status updates. Through the process of making gnocchi and listening to the radio, my thoughts are documented and commented upon through the status update function on Facebook in real time. When the user is presented with my Facebook wall, they will see my status updates and comments on my status updates. This is the text of the story. There is no set way to read the Facebook wall, but usually, to get an idea of the order of events things happened in via Facebook, people will look back at older posts then read backwards to the start. The way I would read this story would be to start at the first (bottom) status update and work my way up. Each status updates have comments attached to them which can be accessed by pressing the “View all comments” button. The comments attached to each status update should be read immediately after that particular status update. Blogging Blogs consist of multiple posts displayed in reverse chronological order. They reveal a strong personal presence of the author because they display their passions and perspectives. In an article called Why We Blog five motivations are listed for what makes people want to blog: “documenting one’s life; providing commentary and opinions; expressing deeply felt emotions; articulating ideas through writing; and forming and maintaining community forums.” (Nardi et al. 2004, p. 43). 46 labsome 2009 Of these five, I think what I am trying to achieve through blogging is a hybrid of “expressing deeply felt emotions” and “articulating ideas through writing”. Out of all the social mediums that I am using in this project, blogging is probably the most personal. It allows you to find your voice without working to character limits or other functionality issues. The act of personal writing is tied up in personal thinking. One of the bloggers (Alan) interviewed in Why We Blog says that “I am one of those people for whom writing and thinking are basically synonymous” (Nardi et al. 2004, p. 44). This is why blogging is so important. It is sometimes only through the act of writing that our thoughts come into fruition. While on one hand personal writing in a blog is almost like writing in a personal diary because the content may have similar themes, they couldn’t be further apart. When writing in a personal diary, the only audience is the self. When writing in a public blog the “overt awareness of another reader implicates the personal blog as being more declarative and fictitious than its intimate presentation as ‘personal’ might suggest” (Hayton 2009, p. 201). Kavita Hayton offers a fascinating metaphor of the personal blog: “The personal blog offers a mirage of the self, deliberately placed into a virtual desert, in the hope of being mistaken for an oasis” (2009, p. 201). When we write about ourselves in a personal blog, we do not have to get drafts upon drafts read by a publisher first – it can be instantly published on the internet which means there is room for exaggeration, fiction and fabrication (although publishers allow this too). Which is why Hayton says, “the reader must approach the personal blog as though it were a mirage until proven otherwise” (2009, p. 201). There is a certain level of faith a web audience needs to have in the writer of a blog. The blog I have created for this project consists six blog posts. These appear on the blog in reverse chronological order. They can be read in any order but to get the best idea of the story Emily Naismith 47 within these blog posts, it is advised that they are read from the first post that appears at the bottom of the page to the last post at the top. Flickr Flickr is primarily a visual communication tool that can be used as an “ultimate photo album, visual email server, inspiration source, globally distributed photographers’ portfolio, newsgatherer and perhaps even alternative image library” (Sinclair 2006, p. 39). Flickr allows users to tag photos. This is when users assign certain words to each individual photo so they appear in searches. If someone has tagged a photo of a beach with “Summer” and “Queensland”, whenever people search for “Summer” or “Queensland” their picture will come up. Tags can also be helpful for personal groups. If a group of people went on the same holiday and all took photos with individual cameras tagging the photo with a unique tag like “tasmaniandevils09” when this term is searched for, everyone from that holiday’s photos would appear. There is another function that text plays in Flickr apart from tagging. Flickr gives you the ability to attach notes to your pictures. A note is a piece of meta-data that is placed in a certain position on your photo with text attached. This enables users to tell stories through their photos. My use of Flickr to publish fictocriticism uses Flickr notes. The pictures I uploaded to Flickr are screen captures of a speech that I presented to the Year Nine class at my secondary school this year. It is ironic that I have not used traditional photos on this website that deals primarily with images. Instead I have uploaded text, and laid more text over the top of it through adding notes. I did this because I wanted a dual reading of texts to occur. I wanted my fictocritical notes to respond directly to the speech I 48 labsome 2009 wrote. The fictocritical part of the Flickr page is in the notes that pop up when you hover your mouse over the picture. The picture of the speech in the background is not meant to be read from beginning to end, though it provides insight to the fictocritical bits here and there if you do. The writing in the notes explores what I really thought about what I said in the speech and alternative versions and what I would have said. In this way, Flickr allows a double reading and double meaning to come out of one image. The notes are interrupting the image and the flow of the speech. I am critiquing and dissecting the speech through fictocriticism. I have labeled each of the pictures Part 1-6. They are meant to be read in order from Part 1 to Part 6. To read my fictocritical notes you have to click on each picture individually. The number of notes on each picture varies. To read the notes, hover your cursor over the black boxes in the text. A pale yellow box will appear and this is the part that contains my fictocriticism. Google Maps Google Maps allows users to create their own maps, browse maps and use maps in very different ways. Mapping has always been a “creative process for the person designing the map” (Peuquet & Kraak 2002, p. 81) but since the rise of mapping software like Google Maps, mapping has become democratized, “in that this capability is available to anyone with access to a computer” (Peuquet & Kraak 2002, p. 81). Many people are now using Google Maps as a creative tool. We Tell Stories is a project by the publishing group Penguin that transforms six classic stories into the web media realm. Charles Cumming wrote The 21 Steps for publishing via an interactive Google Map (Cumming 2008). It is an example of digital storytelling using satellite imagery. Emily Naismith 49 The reason I included Google Maps as one of the social media sites to integrate with fictocriticism was one of the stories I wanted to explore was very geographically based. It took place on a train journey from the city out to the suburbs. To tell a story via Google Maps, the story has to have some degree of spatiality because the very nature of maps is to convey geographical information. Through using maps in new and creative ways mapping has “become a tool for thinking and maps themselves are often ephemeral and transient” (Peuquet & Kraak 2002, p. 81). The story conveys the range of emotions that take place over a specific distance. The easiest way to read this map is to use the left hand tool bar. Each of the blue titles, beginning with “Week old chips” can be clicked on. When you click these links a bubble will appear on the map. This is where my story lies. Each link you click on is in chronological order with my train trip home. If you make your way down the links on the left hand toolbar until you get to the bottom, you will follow my train journey from start to end. 50 labsome 2009 Conclusion When beginning this project I thought it was possible to “write myself”. I wanted to write myself on the page so I could gain a more comprehensive understanding of my relationship with CF. However, through the process of researching and writing this project I realised that I was never going to be able to write myself, or capture myself on the page. But just because I was not able to capture myself on the page, does not mean my attempt was not worthwhile. And I think this struggle to write myself through this project was a valuable exercise. Cixous (1989) wrote that in The Stream of Life, Lispector knows capturing the present on the page is a struggle. She notes that Lispector writes “I want to capture, not I capture” (Cixous 1989, p. xi). This shows that she is aware that what she is writing on the page isn’t exactly what she wants to express, because “femininity always resists capture” (Cixous 1989, p. xi). Earlier in this exegesis I pondered whether my attempt at fictocriticism was more feminist or more post modern. Throughout the writing process I think my writing style may have developed into a more feminist style of writing. This is because in my writing examples I am struggling and in a way battling with language. I am also struggling with technology. It was hard to express what I wanted to sometimes through these examples of social media due to their constraints and restrictions. I want to be able to express myself through words published through social media, but I never end up being able to do so. It is a constant struggle. The language I have ended up using is dialogic, interruptive and unsure. Diane Herndl wrote that “a feminine language does not assume the authority of logical discourse and, therefore, escapes the hierarchy of the official language” (1991, p. 11). I think my writing has somehow managed to escape hierarchy. What I have presented in my project seems like it is without a coherent form. At times my voice sounds desperate, “It hurts. I feel a pain in my chest. I might suffocate. Everybody be quiet” and at other times it sounds anxious or hesitant “I want to tell you a secret: I don’t know myself”. Emily Naismith 51 Herndl believes that in feminine language, meaning is elsewhere, “between voices or between discourses, marked by a mistrust of the ‘signified’” (1991, p. 11). Although I began by trying to capture the “signified” (the self), I realised through the process I couldn’t. Though there is still meaning in my work. The meaning is hidden between the words, and the meaning is not the essence of myself but rather I have gained a greater understanding of myself. This is a viable meaning, even if it is only applicable to me. I have not written myself on the page. However, in my eyes the project was still a success. I have confronted personal issues to do CF that I never have before. I have explored my feelings in an abstract way and learned more about myself in that process. It would be an amazing outcome of this project if in the conclusion I could wrap everything together and say I understand myself and my relationship with CF: but I can’t. I can understand aspects and recognise characteristics of myself that I previously couldn’t, but I definitely do not come close to wholly understanding myself and CF. Through the process of writing and making this project I have realised that total understanding of the self is unattainable. The self will always be fluid and changing and I will never know everything. My quest for enlightenment and understanding hasn’t lead me to a definite answer but it has provided me with a frame of mind to view myself through. Examining the self by trying to write myself on the page has helped me to accept who I am and inspect how I deal with CF. I feel like I am standing on a more solid foundation compared to when I began this project. In my abstract I wrote that I view CF as an interruption to my life. There is no doubt that aspects of CF do have interruptive qualities, but CF is not an interruption. It is a part of who I am. I have embraced this interruption (as I have fictocriticism and social media) and can now see CF and myself as a whole. 52 labsome 2009 Emily Naismith 53 Appendix The Following six pictures are screen shots of each part of my project. 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