E.A.N.A. Monthly
AUGUST 2014 - Issue 10
Edmonton Area Narcotics Anonymous
“…Today, I embrace my fear…”
When I was a kid, I was being taught how to swim. I can remember standing up to my
knees in water, on a fairly steeply banked river. My father was in front of me, facing me,
standing waist deep in the water. He was trying to encourage, or give me the courage, to
jump in. "Don't be afraid," he said, but, I WAS afraid. Now, I always wanted my dad to be
proud of me, and I can remember thinking that if my dad found out I was afraid, he would
not be proud. I was terrified that my fear would show. I denied that emotion and began, or
continued to live the lie that I was not afraid. I had become afraid of my fear to the point
that I would use any means to convince my father, myself, and anyone around me that I
was fearless. THEN, dad would be proud of me.
These days, when I get quiet with myself, especially when I do this in my favorite
place in the woods, I still see this aversion to fear. For me, it seems to come quite
consistently at about ten minutes into meditation. Sometimes that fear is in the form of
impatience, and sometimes it is simply an anxious stirring just above my stomach. Often
it is still followed by that familiar, "what if someone (dad) finds out I'm afraid?". One day,
after many years of practice, I was able to recognize this fear for what it was-a part of the
human experience. I was able, for the first time to see that this fear does not define me. It
was as if I was seeing my fear as a separate entity, separate from me. For the first time I
accepted my fear, and I was free! It had lost power over me, and dissipated like a light
mist in the hot sun. Beyond that fear, in that moment, I experienced an overwhelming
Love such as I had not known. It moved me, I tried to grasp at it, and it vanished.
Some days, I look for that fear now, in anticipation of the Love that lies beneath. It
doesn't seem to come on those days, or maybe I just don't recognize it in my masterful
methods of self deception. Some days, however, when I cease to search and just let it
be, I see that it still lives, ever more subtle and elusive, yet rooted. And what of the Love
that lies beneath? It too is rooted, always pervading all that I am and all I engage. Some
days I recognize, accept and reflect it more than other days, but always it shines, ever
and permanent.
My dad has been gone ten years now. I still want him to be proud of me. He is. It's
beautiful.
F. D. Roosevelt said, "We have nothing to fear but fear itself".
Today, I embrace my fear. You can too. It's ok.
Author: Anonymous
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CELEBRATING THIS MONTH
Aug 1st
Aug 1st
Aug 8th
Aug 18th
Aug 17th
Aug 31st
Aug19th
Sept12th
Kristin G will be taking 4 years at the 82nd st. Nooner
Bobi O will be taking 4 years at NA Way
Stuart M is taking 1 year at NA Way
Corinne P will be taking 4 year at the Women's Meeting
Johnathan B taking 10 years at Breakfast Club
Lee D is taking 2 years at recovery comes first
Brian H. will be celebrating 12 years at Committed to Recovery
Cam M. will be celebrating 2 years at NA Pride
UPCOMING EVENTS
Wednesdays Basic Text Study Group – Lloydminster @ Bud Miller
Park 7:30 pm. Meet @ the Cook House.
AUG 17
Sept 12-14
“DAY AT THE BEACH” NA fellowship and family day.
Volleyball, softball, Swimming ect. Sandy Beach Park
Lloydminster. 11am start. Come one come all. For
directions http://www.sandybeachpark.ca
EANAC XXVIIII Edmonton, AB (see details next page)
September Strathcona Wilderness Centre Retreat
19 - 21
Strathcona Wilderness Centre, Ardrossan Alberta
Sept 26-28 Canadian Convention of NA XXII, Nanaimo BC,
www.canadianconvention.com
October 10-12
2014 , All Day
Al-Sask Regional Convention of Narcotics Anonymous
Royal Canadian Legion, Moose Jaw Saskatchewan
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Step on it:
One member's interpretation
Step 1:
I had an old clunker parked in the
driveway. I tried to fix it, but just
made a bigger mess of things.
Step 2:
I couldn‘t fix it, but I believed
someone else could.
Step 3:
I turned the car over to a mechanic.
Step 4:
I took an inventory of all that worked
and didn’t work on the old clunker.
Step 5:
I shared the inventory with the
mechanic.
Step 6:
I prepared the car to have all the old
parts removed.
Step 7:
I left the rest to the mechanic.
Step 8:
I made a list of all the damage done by
defective parts and lack of service.
Step 9:
I admitted that I hadn’t checked the
oil and fluids properly or fixed the
other things that were going wrong. I
committed to correct the damage and make
things right.
Step 10:
I maintained the car regularly, and when
I didn‘t, the engine didn‘t hummmmm, so
I would quickly make corrections.
Step 11:
I called on the mechanic to help me
understand and maintain my car.
Step 12:
That mechanic and I became such close
friends that we took a trip together
across the country, and stopped to help
other motorists along the way.
Anonymous, Mumbai, India
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