1 Issue 17: It’s your call | February 2012 Issue 17: It’s your call February 2012 My First Burns Night by Chelsea Clarke; photo by Byron Smith When I learned that P’s & G’s was hosting a Burns Night, I was excited about what an “authentic cultural experience” it would be. My fiancé, Justin Osmond, and I decided to move to Edinburgh from Canada for a year. It was then that I determined to absorb as much Scottish history and culture as I could during the short time we would be here. I had never been to a Burns Night before (even though they are held in Canada) and I thought, “what better way to be introduced to this tradition than right here in Scotland?” I felt that I would appreciate Burns Night even more after having journeyed to Ayrshire with the P’s & G’s International Students Group. Prior to visiting the poet’s birthplace and museum, I only had a vague idea of who Burns was. I was surprised to learn that he was actually something of a cad, with numerous mistresses and illegitimate children… But, although Burns may not have been an entirely upstanding man (as Neil Stewart explained in the Immortal Memory address), there continues to be something about his life and poetry that captivates, stirs and fascinates people. What surpassed my expectations the most about the P’s & G’s Burns Night were the fabulously entertaining and articulate speeches; I hadn’t realized that a “Burns Supper” was actually a whole evening of entertainment. Craig Irving’s exuberant Address to a Haggis kicked the night off to a great start: as I sat there watching a kilted man recite a poem in Scots and ceremonially drive a knife into this world-famous and slightly scary dish, I felt like I was really in Scotland. It was so exciting to get to experience this whole tradition firsthand, in its homeland. Mike Nicholson’s Toast to the Lassies had us laughing all the way through at the many ways in which women bewilder men. He ended on a touching note that had many of us tearing up as he shared stories of the women who have supported him, concluding, “where would we be without our lassies?” Adrienne Ferguson’s witty reply (brilliantly delivered as a poem!) enlightened us with a Scottish granny’s thoughts on the laddies. Haggis – served with neeps and tatties, expertly prepared by Helen Langstaff and the YF team – turned out to be not so scary after all. I actually rather enjoyed it! My friends and family back home will surely be impressed. Then there was that delightful Scottish dessert, cranachan… after being introduced to it, I couldn’t help but partake of two bowls! At least I worked some of it off in the rousing ceilidh that followed. Well, I’ll be honest: for the majority of the songs, we timid Canadians were content to watch our British counterparts with bewildered admiration as they twirled around in what looked to us a series of very complicated moves. We tried our hand at a few dances though, and had a lot fun, despite making a terrible mess of our group’s Strip the Willow. Joining hands and singing Rabbie Burns’ famous Auld Lang Syne seemed the perfect way to end our thoroughly Scottish evening! ALSO IN THIS ISSUE Called to go Dean & Elizabeth share something of their experiences following God’s calling them to Africa and back to Scotland. Phil & Ros, on the other hand, went as far as Stirling! Pages 4 & 5 If you can’t beat them... Diana & Rosie are heading towards ordained ministry – find out here about their journeys so far. Also meet Donna & Carol, similarly in training and on placement at P’s & G’s. Pages 7 - 9 Inspiration from on high Page 3 Wormit’s latest adventures Page 5 When it’s not worked out Page 6 Latter-day servants Pages 10&11 Men & beer... need I say more Page 12 Away they went Page 12 2 Issue 17: It’s your call | February 2012 Editorial STAFF INTERVIEW: Well hello there everyone and welcome to The Blether by Rosie Benham Hello and Happy New Year everyone, even although it is almost March! Another jam-packed issue this time looking at listening to God and discerning his calling on our lives. I’m sure you’ll find something of interest in the following pages, after all our primary purpose is being in relationship with God. This calling is for everyone, and inspires us in how we live our lives – in service to God and others. For some this may mean formalised theological training and ordained ministry, and, as you’ll find out, there are many in our midst either engaged in or considering this. For others it may mean moving to another city or country on mission. However, for many of us, things can seem a little more mundane most of the time. Remember though, with God, all things are possible. Take a look at page 11 to see how one woman’s idea blossomed into a gathering of over a thousand women! Finally, welcome to Teresa MacMillan who joined the staff team in November. And one goodbye: to Julie Bolos on our writing team – thanks for the great articles! Enjoy the newspaper and may it encourage you on your journey with God, listening to him wherever he is calling you. The Blether Team Editor Writers Illustrator Staff Contacts Proofing Alison Alison Dines Mike Nicholson Sarah Roberts Rosie Benham Neil Stewart Jake Thomas Sally Best Neil Kempsell Jess Smith Vanessa Parr Marjory Horne Shona Leisk Julian Dines We would love your feedback and, of course, photos for the back page [email protected] A Certain Calling Teresa MacMillan recently joined the counselling team at P’s & G’s. Rosie sat down with her to find out how her life’s journey has brought her here. Teresa describes herself as first generation British, born in Coventry to immigrant parents, the ninth of 11 children. Her Dutch father and German mother were both language teachers and passionate about music, so all the children were encouraged to play the piano and one other instrument. Unlike many of her siblings, Teresa chose not to pursue a career in music, though she does play flute in Perth Symphony Orchestra, is part of a woodwind trio and whenever possible plays with her family. Childhood was mostly spent in Wolverhampton, where her father took up a teaching post at the polytechnic in the midsixties, and Sunday church attendance was a regular part of the weekly pattern. After she started her music studies in London, she visited her older brother who was studying music in Manchester and discovered that he had found a new dimension to life through personal faith in Christ. She immediately knew she wanted this for herself and that was the beginning of an exciting journey. The next step on Teresa’s path took her to Bible School in Kansas, USA, and on returning to the UK, she met her husband Don in Oxford, far from his home on the Isle of Lewis. They spent their first few years of marriage planting house churches in areas throughout England, and moved to Scotland in 1989. Life in the middle stage was taken up with bringing up two daughters, while Don worked in various countries in the IT business. Church involvement on a big scale continued to be key to their lives, and as they grew a little older and wiser, they found that they were often involved in counselling people in their own home. This led to Teresa deciding to study for a Diploma in Counselling, doing further training in Couple Counselling and Supervision — she admits to being “passionate about marriage” seeing it as one of God’s most special gifts to us. Her studies continue as she works towards an honours degree in Counselling and Psychotherapy. Before coming to P’s & G’s, she worked in counselling centres in Perth and in Teresa MacMillan Counsellor Dunfermline, where she worked for Talk Matters, which was headed up by Shirley Sim. The prospect of working with Shirley again (she’s now our Head of Counselling) was a big part of the attraction in joining the counselling service here. Having seen what was achieved at Talk Matters, Teresa is very excited about the prospect of being a part of shaping and expanding the service at P’s & G’s — both for the congregation, and in making it an important part of reaching out to meet the needs of people in the wider community. “God surely wants the Christian Church to be known as a place where hurting people can come for refuge, support and help.” In common with everyone else who has joined the staff recently, she loves being part of such a supportive and welcoming team, sharing in banter, fun, food and communion and prayer times together. When I asked her about God’s leading in her life, she said that for her “it’s like a gentle nudge.” Teresa and Don (who has just joined the staff of CLAN) live in Perthshire but are planning to move to Edinburgh when circumstances allow. She loves the outdoors, Scone Palace grounds being one of her favourite haunts, but she is looking forward to living in Edinburgh, to be able to walk to places (and not have to drive everywhere!), exploring the city and enjoying the great wealth of culture available here. To get to know Teresa and learn more about her you may have to wait until then, or invite her out for coffee… when you might find that she actually learns more about you! 3 Issue 17: It’s your call | February 2012 Out of the Quiet by Susan Mansfield Listening to God when there’s a hubbub all around Wherever you are right now, stop and listen. List how many different sounds you can hear. In a contemporary city, quietness is rare. Mobile phones, iPods and social networks mean that most of us carry our own in-built supply of noise with us. The prophet Elijah encountered God as a gentle whisper after the crashing tumult of an earthquake. Perhaps we too struggle to hear his voice in the noisy 21st century world. Many people find that a little quietness can be helpful in becoming more aware of his presence and his movements. At the Reflective Prayer Group, we offer a chance to experience a contemplative approach. We don’t sit in silence for hours; we use scripture, poetry, music, art and much more, but we do offer a little stillness in a busy world. In January, we offered a “Quiet Day”, a chance to take time out with God at the beginning of the New Year and consider what seeds he might be sowing in us. During the day there were times of rest, pictures and Upstream by Neil Stewart; photo by David Jeffrey A concise look at our theme in the context of today’s culture. How does society view Christians who swim against the tide? objects to sit with, craft materials to enjoy and bulbs to plant. There was also plenty of quietness. Another way to quieten ourselves is by walking. When we go for a walk to clear our heads, we are touching on a long tradition of meditative walking. Though it sounds paradoxical, walking helps us to be still. That’s one of the ideas behind The Passion Walk, a new project for Easter 2012 which offers an opportunity to walk the journey of Good Friday through the city of Edinburgh. Starting from Greyfriars Kirk, between 11am and 2pm on Good Friday and Holy Saturday (April 6th and 7th), walkers will travel at their own pace with a printed or audio guide which offers prompts for reflection at significant locations along the way. The Passion Walk offers a chance to see an old story unfold against the backdrop of a contemporary city. It is an invitation to draw a little closer to Jesus by reflecting on his experiences and, in doing so, to notice the light which he shines into our daily struggles. By walking with him, in quietness, we may discover anew something of how he walks with us. For more information on The Passion Walk, see www.passionwalk.org or call 07879 014344. The Reflective Prayer Group meets on the second and fourth Mondays of the month at 7:30pm in the Lower Lounge. For more information email [email protected]. As I write, a court has ruled that Bideford Council acted unlawfully in praying at the start of council meetings. The National Secular Society described the verdict as “an important victory for those seeking a secular society”. If the Society is to be believed, a sense of calling from something beyond oneself is not something identified with by the average Briton. In a sense they are right. The idea of listening to God in one’s daily life is not a concept that is discussed regularly in workplaces nowadays. Prayer is perceived as something that is practised by a hard core on Sundays or at formal occasions. Even then, it is perceived as a one way conversation. However, whilst to the average person the idea of listening to God is as relevant to their daily lives as the discovery of a sweet shop on the moon, they are probably inclined to think that they have a ‘destiny’, a ‘vocation’, or perhaps, in the romantic context, a ‘soulmate’. Therefore I would contest that the joyless secularist vision of a rational, but arguably unemotional, society does not reflect the reality of where people are. After all, people sing at football matches, cry at gigs, dance at festivals and laugh at dark comedy. We are all emotional beings, with a deep sense of something beyond ourselves that impacts our journey through life. C. S. Lewis described this as a “God-shaped hole”. Oprah Winfrey once argued that everyone has a calling, adding “Trust your heart, and success will come to you”. This philosophy, shared by many in generations X and Y, believes in a sense of calling, but would not necessarily name it as such, nor describe it as coming from a creator God. Whilst this is not a Christian worldview, it is a popular one and shows that human beings do generally believe in calling and, by extension, spirituality, despite what the National Secular Society and others may argue. 4 Issue 17: It’s your call | February 2012 Called to love by Sally Best Their story covers three continents and many ‘coincidences’ – Sally went to find out how Dean & Elizabeth Norby found love for God, each other and a deep sense of calling along the way. When Dean was licensed in June 2011, he and Elizabeth became work colleagues once again. Having first met working with the humanitarian relief organisation, Medair, in Sudan they are now respectively Curate and Counsellor at P’s & G’s. I’m always intrigued by the paths people have followed, and so it was a pleasure to meet with Dean and Elizabeth to get to know them both a little better. Setting off for my first Blether interview I hoped to discover more about God’s calling in their lives. How had they heard him speak? What tasks had he led them into? How did they know what God wanted them to do? And when? Sudan seemed like a good place to start, and so I began by asking how they found themselves as aid workers, far from their MISSION PARTNER: Missionary Mindset by Phil Boydell “Calling is the truth that God calls us to himself so decisively that everything we are, everything we do, and everything we have is invested with a special devotion and dynamism lived out as a response to his summons and service.” Os Guinness – The Call This definition of ‘calling’ has helped us a lot over the last few years, partly in thinking and clarifying our own sense of calling, but also in helping students think about their lives and their future direction. It ends up being quite a big part of what we do! The definition has reminded us that God homes in Minnesota, USA, and Aberdeen. And they had remarkably similar stories to tell! Both were moved by the plight of the Kurds in Turkey, both had connections to Medair through friends from Youth With a Mission (YWAM) and both were transferred at the last moment to work in Southern Sudan – Elizabeth as a Nurse and Dean as a Civil Engineer. In retrospect it is easy to comment that these were more than mere coincidences, especially hearing that they were engaged just a few months after their return. her words, “With God nothing is wasted”. And yet I am also struck by the simple practicality of this early calling. They saw a need and a way to respond, and then did so. With God nothing is wasted To add to the coincidences, Elizabeth describes having studied the Nuer tribe, whom they lived amongst, as part of a social anthropology course, taken during her time studying to be a nurse here in Edinburgh. In Dean and Elizabeth stayed in Sudan for a year, a time they describe as brief but significant. They left hoping and even expecting to return. Three children, Ben, Miriam and Andrew, changed their immediate plans, but they still describe having a heart for Africa and wonder what the future may bring. According to Dean, when they married, they also expected that one day he would become a minister, however they were happy to allow this to unfold slowly. I asked Dean a little more about the thoughts and events that finally triggered the change. Although I’m not sure Dean would describe it as a change, instead calling it a “natural progression” from his existing ministry within the workplace. After several confirmations from people they knew, plus a minister they had never met, but who felt prompted to encourage them to consider ministry, they began to investigate seminaries in the US, and New College, here in Edinburgh. Consequently, Dean began calls us first to himself, not primarily to ‘do’ something. This then gives meaning to the rest of what we do and guards against us making ‘gods’ of particular things we do. It also reminds us that there is not one squareinch of our life that is separate from God’s calling. This is God’s world, he made it all, and as such everything we do within it from washing the dishes, to childcare, to paid employment or leading a bible study at church, has spiritual significance. Paul says that “Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters.” “Whatever” – there is no sacredsecular divide in that! For us personally, we have come back to this sense of being called fundamentally to Christ and our primary calling is to live out that reality and work out what it means in every inch of life. Beyond this, Os Guinness describes a secondary ‘specific’ calling, which in our cases was a call to mission almost 10 years ago. For us this sense of specific calling emerged through a number of ways – a deep passion for what we do, a sense of an ‘open door’, a clear sense of confirmation from those around us, and the sense that what we did made a difference – we were to some extent ‘gifted’’ for this work. Specific calling is tricky, we are very aware that our journey has been a bit easier than some find it – but there has been a lot of uncertainty along the way. As Christians we love the idea of being certain in our ‘specific’ calling, but life very rarely offers up certainty to us. The Christian life is a lot more about ‘trust’ in our covenant God in the midst of uncertainty. However, we are convinced that helping people see how they can live out their faith in every inch of life is vitally important if the kingdom of God is to flavour our businesses, our workplaces, our homes and our church communities. Elizabeth doing a nutritional survey in Sudan 5 Issue 17: It’s your call | February 2012 full-time study alongside full-time work and Elizabeth laughingly recounts making appointments in the middle of the night to see one another! They also speak warmly of the encouragement and support they received from friends at St. Mungo’s Church, where they were worshipping. When Dean’s study drew to a close, he applied for the job as Associate Minister at St. Thomas’, Corstorphine. Returning to work after some time as a full-time mum, Elizabeth spent five years as a nurse specializing in the care of stroke patients with the charity Chest, Heart and Stroke Scotland. Change was ahead for her too as she studied for a Diploma in Christian Counselling with Vital Connections. Now part of the Counselling Team at P’s & G’s, Elizabeth has been with us longer than Dean! Elizabeth is still exploring where this may lead and how her nursing and counselling skills might thread together to address the health needs of the whole-person. She describes her current journey as a tentative exploration. willing to wait, willing to seek God and willing to allow things to unfold Identification by Wormit I passed some birdwatchers the other day. I got the impression they had been standing still for hours. Silent together. Watching and waiting. Holding on for a glimpse of some speckle-backed something or other. Patience and dedication way beyond anything I could muster. I find that their level of knowledge can reach worryingly detailed levels. It’s not just that they can spot the smallest of distinguishing marks or see some behaviour in flight which enables them to make immediate identification; they know the sounds as well. The songs, the calls, and even the meanings of the different ones they hear; an alarm call here, a courting call there. Each call a clear message. I’ve been reading about God’s call. There’s no comparison with our feathered friends. Life would be much easier if he just made a noise or two, which could be set out in a guidebook. Then when you hear the call, there Dean adds how a lack of clarity can often be the trickiest part of feeling called. What is it that I should do? And yet, neither Dean nor Elizabeth seem discomfited. Neither appears impatient to rush into the task or frantic to establish where the goal post lies. Rather, as with Dean’s long felt vocation as an ordained minister, Elizabeth seems willing to wait, willing to seek God and willing to allow things to unfold. In the end, I think this is because they both feel called to a relationship rather than a vocation. This allows them to wait on God, acting, often decisively, but in his timing. When really probed about the whats and hows and whens, Dean and Elizabeth suggest that in order to decide what to do we should look at what we are already doing. We should consider what ‘makes the current flow’ for us and follow our passions. We should listen to others and be encouraged when they affirm what we might be thinking. Dean highlights that this is something that the Network Course is good at helping us to do. The day after our meeting, having reflected on our discussions Dean emailed this quote from Father Pedro Arrupe “Nothing is more practical than finding God. That is, than falling in love in quite an absolute, final way. What you are in love with, what seizes Y???our imagination, will affect everything… Fall in love, stay in love, and it will decide everything.” would be a quick look at the index and you’ve got it. You’d know what it meant. No confusion. But it’s not nearly that straightforward is it? God’s call can be clear for some and not for others. It can seem to ring as clear as a bell for a time and then disappear in a fuzz of interference. It can be confusing, suggesting a direction that turns out to be less than I agree and hope I am slowly learning that I am not called primarily to do something, but to love a great someone. I hope out of that he will involve me excitingly in his work. Fall in love, stay in love and it will decide everything Dean in Akobo, Sudan satisfying. And at other times it’s just not there; there’s a big booming silence. I don’t know what the answer is but maybe the twitchers have got it right. Watching and waiting and listening are all part of the package. Taking time. Eyes open to catch a glimpse of something that’s a distinguishing mark. Something that’s just enough to allow clear identification. 6 Called off by Jake Thomas This is a depressing reality for many and, for those of us who are Christians, it is something we have to get our head around. Rightly or wrongly, what we do for a living is often how we define each other and ourselves: scientist, lawyer, teacher, nurse etc. Just because we are Christians doesn’t mean we won’t fall into the same trap that society measures people by: the job you do, the house you live in, the car you drive or how much money you earn. Upon meeting someone for the first time and having asked their name, the second question that we usually ask is “what do you do for a living?” In the current economic climate, it is becoming more common to hear the words “unemployed” or “just been made redundant”. Having taken voluntary redundancy in April last year, and not being in paid employment, it has been something I have been wrestling with. My own answers to the question of “what I do” have ranged from “full-time househusband” (which gets some raised eyebrows), to “taking a sabbatical”, or “taking some time out” and “having a mid-life crisis”. I therefore sought out two other men, Colin Gough and Conor Snowden, who also have the responsibility of young families (three children each) who are facing redundancy. I was keen to find out how this has affected their relationship with God and what impact unemployment, or the threat of redundancy, has had on their faith and their day-to-day lives. Colin has been in marketing for 25 years and has had first-hand experience of redundancy several times, but on each occasion it has happened, another job would be just around the corner. While some might say this was coincidence or luck, Colin is adamant that it was God who was the provider. “Whenever I needed a job, one would appear – God always sorted something out”. why is God not answering my prayers? Colin has a down-to-earth faith, having being brought up in a strong Christian family Issue 17: It’s your call | February 2012 – “I was a Christian in my mother’s womb!” When he was made redundant just over three years ago, he expected to find something quickly, but this time there was no job “just round the corner” and he has been out of work for much longer than he would have thought possible. The financial pressures have been difficult but there is also the inevitable question of “why is God not answering my prayers?” God has always been in control, even when he seems to be silent For many, this period could lead to depression as well as wondering where God is. However, Colin is remarkably frank and upbeat while acknowledging that things have been far from easy. “God has always been in control, even when he seems to be silent. Three years may seem like a long time in the here and now, but you have to look at the bigger picture and put it in the perspective of eternity. I have to accept that God is in this situation even when I can’t hear him… and we never know what is just around the corner. God has provided for me through family and friends, which has been a real blessing”. “But you must have had some low points along the way?” I asked. “Of course – it hasn’t been easy, but I had an incredible experience where I met with the Holy Spirit and, without wanting to sound trite, I had a very real and personal sense of his peace and assurance. This has really helped me put my trust in God and know that it is he, and not me, who is in control.” You cannot fail to be impressed and encouraged by this attitude, although I suspect that Conor, sitting next to me, will be hoping that his experience will be a little different! Conor’s working week is split between two part-time jobs – working as an elected representative for Edinburgh Council as a Liberal Democrat and for the British Council. He has decided not to seek re-election to the Council on 5th May, while his other job with the British Council will be coming to an end in the summer due to the cut-backs in the public sector. He is looking for a fresh challenge, hoping to find a job within the same organisation, the British Council, but looking to head somewhere overseas, seeing it as an ideal opportunity for his family to experience another culture at a time when they are young and mobile. n sio r e v eb w for t No However, these jobs are few and far between at the best of times and, given that he has yet to find a job, he understatedly tells me that this is “a bit of a worry”. He has found it strange to be in a period of such uncertainty. “At Christmas we usually plan or think about things happening in the next year – holidays, birthdays etc. but this is the first time in my married life when there is very little that we can actually plan for, as we have no idea where we will be in the summer.” Facing the prospect of going from two jobs to none in a short space of time, and therefore being unemployed with no income, it is with a wry smile that he tells me “God has given me peace. If I weren’t a Christian, I would be stressed and depressed. But, I believe that God is in control of it all, even if we don’t always feel it. God does provide – maybe not everything you might want, but what you need is what you have.” God does provide… what you need is what you have Speaking to both Conor and Colin, I was struck by their calmness and composure as well as their sense of humour in uncertain times. Colin said that “just because we are Christians doesn’t make us immune to all the bad stuff that happens to everyone else, but God is in control of the situation and we can put our trust in him”. As I reflected on what they’d been saying, and as I listen to myself shouting at the kids in the morning, looking for lost socks, shoes and homework that hasn’t been done, in the carnage and chaos of the school-run, I concluded that Forest Gump was right: life is never predictable – you never know quite what lies around the corner. just because we are Christians doesn’t make us immune 7 Issue 17: It’s your call | February 2012 Early Morning Call by Sarah Roberts; photo by David Jeffrey As well as holding down a full-time job in an Edinburgh legal firm, Diana Hall is training for ordination with the Scottish Episcopal Church (SEC). Sarah caught up with her to find out more. It’s still dark at half past seven on the cold January morning that I’m meeting with Diana Hall. I have literally just tumbled out of bed and jumped on my bike, and as I burst into the coffee shop (late, of course, my excuses rushing out of my mouth as fast as I can unravel myself from my cycling gear) I am met by a calm, composed Diana who gives the impression that, despite the fact that the sun hasn’t risen, she is half way through her day already. And that’s because she is! Fitting in theological study and vocational exploration around work means that it is not unusual for her day to start at half past five in the morning. Diana’s call to ordination is impossible to separate from her story of conversion and, throughout our time together, I am struck again and again by how quickly things have unfolded for her. “I’ve only been a Christian since 2007!” Diana reveals and she begins by telling me her story. During a difficult time in her life Diana did an Alpha course in early 2007 but “I was so convinced that Christianity wasn’t for me,” she says, “that I threw the Bible I’d bought in the skip!” Soon after, she decided to give church one final chance and she tells me of an evening service she went to in Pollock Halls. “I basically thought ‘I’ll go one last time to church to prove that it’s all nonsense’ and I sat right beside the doors so that I could make a quick escape!” Sitting beside her, however, was someone whom Diana had got to know from the Alpha course and the conversation they had led to Diana signing up for the next Alpha. “I then became a Christian really quickly,” Diana recounts, “because actually I’d been searching long and hard for a while.” Her decision to become a Christian in May 2007 turned Diana’s world upside down – “in a good way!” she adds. From working long hours six days a week as a lawyer, and on a clear promotional route, Diana began to question her chosen lifestyle. “My world view changed,” she tells me, “and I began to wonder if climbing the greasy pole and earning lots of money was right for me.” My world view changed But isn’t that a big leap to ordination, I wonder? Diana continues, “I found myself saying to God, ‘I need a new job’ and the idea of ordination just surfaced in my head.” Diana admits feeling a mixture of terror, excitement and denial but all the while a clear sense of needing to explore what God might be saying. “I did a Retreat in Daily Life,” she tells me, “and that was a really safe space to let thoughts surface knowing that I could walk away without having to tell anyone else.” Diana also began reading passages from the Bible about calling, “and all the while I was asking God to get me out of my job!” Aware that she was a very new Christian, Diana took an opportunity in 2008 to spend a year at the Abernethy Outdoor Centre in Ardeonaig. “It meant I could broaden my experience, live in a rural area and try out different areas of ministry,” Diana explains. “I then began speaking to a couple of friends about what was going on for me and they were very affirming.” On her return to Edinburgh, Diana began part-time work as a lawyer alongside a long distance theology course run by St. John’s College, Nottingham. “I found this really helpful,” she tells me, “and it got to the point where I felt like the call to ordination kept tapping me on the shoulder in a way that I couldn’t ignore any more.” It was at this stage that Diana spoke to Dave Richards and the formal process of exploration began by meeting with Marion Chatterley, the Diocesan Director of Ordinands. “Marion highlighted to me that ordination would be into the whole church rather than into P’s & G’s,” Diana says. “She encouraged me to visit a wide range of Episcopal churches to get a sense of the diversity of the SEC, and recommended some reading as well as creating space to reflect.” Diana describes her journey of exploration as a “constant rounding experience” and, as she looks back, she can see how things have unfolded. “It’s been frustrating at times though,” she admits, “and although I’ve been a Christian for a short time it still feels like it has been a slow process. At the start of last year I wasn’t sure if selection and training was ever going to happen so I basically went full time in my job. The very next day a selection panel place became available!” It took about a year from the time she started seeing Marion until being recommended by the Scottish Provincial Panel in April 2011 and the English equivalent (Bishops’ Advisory Panel) in September 2011. The training Diana refers to is a three year course run by TISEC (Theological Institute of the Scottish Episcopal Church) and accredited by York St John University which trains ordinands and lay readers within the Scottish Episcopal Church. In addition to theological training and ongoing reflection on the call to the ministry, there are residential weekends, regular meetings with the Diocesan Advisor, a summer school and a placement each year from Epiphany to Easter. “It’s a demanding schedule,” Diana acknowledges, “and there are times when I do wonder if I can manage it alongside full-time work – especially when essay deadlines are looming!” I ask Diana how as a church family we can support her. “Pray!” she answers, “My home group has been great – even though I can’t get there very often I know they are there for me and praying for me which means a lot.” Find out what makes you sing Any advice for others who might be wondering about God’s call? “Find out what makes you sing,” Diana says, “and discover who God has made you to be – it’s all about the exploration, even if ordination isn’t right.” As our conversation draws to a close just before nine o’clock (Diana still has a full day’s work at the law firm ahead of her) I feel really encouraged by God’s call in her life. She has wisdom and depth, as well as a sense of hope about the future of the church. That God continues to call people in this way fills me with hope too and I get on my bike with a fresh desire to discover my own song. But right now? I feel the call back to bed… 8 Issue 17: It’s your call | February 2012 Stepping into the Unknown by Sarah Roberts; photo by David Jeffrey Rosie Addis has an obvious flair for interpreting into British Sign Language. Why then has she decided to undertake such a radical career change as the journey to ordination? Rosie Addis is not just a familiar figure in P’s & G’s; around Edinburgh and even further afield, she is well known and respected as an interpreter for deaf people and, if you’ve ever seen her in action during a theatrical performance, you will know what a talented woman she is. So why change all this and to train towards ordination? Rosie smiles as I ask her this. “That’s exactly what a lot of people have said over the years.” she tells me, “I had been sitting with this feeling about ordination for around ten years but it seemed like people were thinking, ‘you’ve got these specific gifts for this specialist job and you’ve got to do it because no one else could.’” And so Rosie continued to sign but the sense of potential call to the ministry did not go away. During those ten years she was actively involved in P’s & G’s, including leading a home group, but all the while feeling that her leadership potential was not really being fully realised. “Within a church like P’s & G’s,” Rosie explains, “there are so many talented people that it can be hard to gain actual leadership experience.” This changed for Rosie when in 2009 she was voted onto Vestry. “Suddenly it felt like people within the church started to see my leadership qualities,” Rosie tells me, “and this gave me confidence, but more than that, people saw the potential in me and that was really affirming.” Having previously done the Network Course Rosie knew that her gifts included prophesy, teaching and leading and it was her husband Reuben who said on the way back from Spring Harvest in April 2010, “you should go for ordination.” Like Diana ( see page 7 ), Rosie began meeting with Marion Chatterley and was encouraged to undertake a year of discernment. This was not just about Rosie’s calling, however, as she explains: “We also went to sessions with Marion as a couple and as a family,” (Rosie and Reuben have Emily, 11, and Sam, 9) “because this will affect all of us and it was really important to hear how the children felt about it.” During the year Rosie had an opportunity to see the Scottish Episcopal Church in all its breadth and she soon realised that “the Episcopal Church is not P’s & G’s!” Following a fairly quick and straightforward discernment period Rosie went before the Scottish Panel in January 2011. Things then really started moving fast as Rosie recounts: “I got an email with my name on the preaching rota and assumed it was a mistake but Dave emailed back to say, ‘you’re an ordinand elect now – you can preach!’” Eolene Boyd-MacMillan offered to critique Rosie’s preaching and she found this support really helpful. That really was God at work! Summary Execution by Emma Jamieson; photo by David Jeffrey In this series, we ask a P’s & G’s theologian to explore our topic in summary form – as if there were a gun to their head! A few weeks ago in his sermon, Jason Curtis stated that those who felt a calling to lead the church were to “get ready to die.” Sitting in the balcony as a final year Divinity student and currently exploring my own calling, I felt pinned to my seat. Exploring ‘the call’ can sound like a pious response of a final year student trying to scrape an answer together to the question “So what are you going to do with a Divinity degree?” Yet the fact is we are all called into ministry within the church: our God is a missionary God, Jesus embodied that mission on earth, and the church now continues it. John Pritchard’s The Life and Work of a Priest summarises the different aspects of ordained ministry under three headings: The Glory of God, The Pain of the World and The Renewal of the Church. While written for those specifically exploring a call to ordination, it is certainly not exclusive. We can all recognise elements of this in our every day journey with God. Maybe you long to honour and glorify God in your life, maybe seeing conflict and starvation around the world or closer to home fills you with a pain unrelated to your own circumstances, or maybe you’re frustrated with the apathy towards the church and long to see it reclaim a role as salt and light in society. Listening to God and understanding where he is calling you to be is no easy task. Some of us may be called to full-time ministry, others will feel called to their family, a specific career, job, vocation, study, mission abroad… But above all, Pritchard states that we are all first and foremost called to a life of holiness. By spending more time with our holy God, we are able to hear his call on our life more clearly – a daunting, yet joyful, task. 9 Issue 17: It’s your call | February 2012 In amongst the exploration of her potential call Rosie still had to sort out the matter of theological training. “That really was God at work!” she tells me. Out of the blue in April 2011 Rosie heard that there was funding available for her to study theology at New College. The trouble was she had missed all the UCAS deadlines plus she needed an academic reference. “That same day,” Rosie recounts, “Eolene emailed to say ‘if you ever need an academic reference...’! And suddenly the university didn’t mind about deadlines!” Taking a step of faith, Rosie accepted her New College place before attending the Bishops’ Advisory Panel in England in June 2011, a decision which was soon confirmed as the right one. Rosie also has to undergo TISEC training but she is just doing the vocational part of the course which involves exploring the intricate workings of the Episcopal Church and learning about all that is involved in leading worship. And then there’s her yearly placement. “I’m at Old St. Paul’s right now,” she tells me, “which is very different to P’s & G’s.” Last week Rosie served in the role of sub-deacon at the Adoration of the Blessed Sacrament. “I found myself prostrating in front of the Eucharist Wafer, thinking ‘what am I doing?’” she laughs, “But then I realised that my presence there was helping others to enter into worship and I felt really moved.” On completion of her training Rosie will In Training by Sarah Roberts In the same way that both Diana and Rosie are on placements at other churches until Easter, we at P’s & G’s are also hosting two women in training this term. Donna Cooper’s home church is St. David’s Pilton, a small congregation situated in an urban priority part of Edinburgh where poverty and drugs are very real issues and where church does not feel relevant to most people. She is keen for the time at P’s & G’s to give her a taste of a wide variety of programmes and groups so that she can take these ideas back to her own congregation which she feels committed to in the long term. When I ask Donna about her journey be ready for a curacy in 2014. Does she have any doubts? “Yes, lots!” she admits. “I do wonder about those ten years of not doing anything about my call and I have loads of questions: Maybe I’ve got this wrong? Why didn’t people see it in me before?” There are challenges too, of course. “It requires a lot of organisation at home – in a way, we’re being called as a family.” space to reflect and to explore God’s call When their children were born both Reuben and Rosie each worked part time giving them space to reflect and to explore God’s call for them. “Now that I am training, whilst Reuben can take on a bit more of the childcare, I still need to earn my share of our income – it’s a family effort!” Rosie continues to sign for theatre performances and she is also an assessor for the Disabled Students Allowance which means that evenings can be long. “There are times,” Rosie confesses, “where at ten in the evening I don’t want to read a book about theology, I just want to go to bed!” It’s not just their immediate family supporting Rosie. “We’ve felt very much loved by our church family,” Rosie tells me, “and people have been so generous and thoughtful which has meant a lot. Although I have been at towards ordination she says, “I still can’t quite believe that God has chosen this journey for me! But I have told God that I will walk this path until someone says this is the wrong way. So far, to my constant surprise, everyone has agreed that this is the right way!” Carol Latimer hails from Aberdour and is training with TISEC to become a lay reader. Her home church is St. Peter’s, Kirkcaldy, which is involved in the St. Andrews, Dunkeld and Dunblane Diocesan Mission Programme, ‘Casting the Net’. She is casting her own net here at P’s & G’s for ideas on how to draw more families into St. Peter’s and how to help young people in particular let Christ be at the centre of their lives, as well as offer them opportunities for worship that suit their lifestyle. Carol says that, although she had felt nudged towards ministry for several years, she was given a hefty spiritual push last autumn and suddenly found herself doing the P’s & G’s for 19 years I know so many more people now!” God uses everyone Does Rosie have any advice to offer to others? “Everyone should be asking, ‘what is my call?’” she replies. “It’s not about how old you are either. Don’t write yourself off – God uses everyone.” In fact for Rosie being a bit older is an advantage: “I’m going to be dealing with some really difficult pastoral situations,” she reflects, “and I think maturity and life experience will help in that. Being a priest is about being there for people in their really tough times.” Meeting with Rosie between her New College lectures and a Vestry prayer meeting fills me once again with an overwhelming sense of hope for the future of the church. Rosie’s story is a reminder that it is God who does the calling and all we need to do is to listen and be ready. As Rosie reflects on the risk she has taken – stepping from a career that she loves, where she has respect and status, into the unknown – I can see in her a sense of excitement and a deep assurance that God is with her in it all. It makes me feel excited about venturing into the unknown too and it is so encouraging to know that when we respond to God’s call, whatever that may be, there are others who have gone that way before. TISEC course. “If we are where we are supposed to be,” Carol tells me, “God will give us what we need each day to complete the task.” It is great that P’s & G’s offers placements to people in training but it is also a chance for us to learn about what God is doing in other parts of the wider church so do take the opportunity to chat with them over the next few weeks – Carol and Donna would both be delighted to meet you! Carol & Donna 10 Late Call by Christine Deponio; photos by P. Deponio Is calling a young person’s thing or are we still useful in the later stages of life? Does God still talk to us when our hearing’s going?! Myra Martin I believe God’s plan is for the whole of our lives. Our division into work / retirement is artificial. Phil.1:6 reminds us that “…he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion…” God’s plan is for the whole of our lives Issue 17: It’s your call | February 2012 What retirement gives is time – time to do new things, like daytime Spanish courses, Art courses and lectures; time for people, for hospitality; time to volunteer, for Babies & Toddlers, the One World shop; time to read, embroider, for theatre, concerts, films, travel… It also gives opportunities to make use of past experience in new ways. For me, experience of social work / counselling, being a chaplain’s wife in boarding schools, being in a parish, led to an invitation to be a chaplain to ministers in the Edinburgh presbytery of the Church of Scotland. So, I’ve had five stimulating years seeing fifteen people regularly. Fortunately, many of these activities can be combined with walking, which helps keep the stiffness of old age at bay! Pauline Hurst Being a person who has plenty of energy made me wonder if I’d enjoy retirement. I need structure to my day and hated the thought of drifting through life. But no need to worry! Friends, ex-work colleagues Discovering Together Fair shout by Sarah Roberts Fairtrade fortnight starts 27th February – what better time to remember our call to act justly? Diana and Rosie are both well on their way on the journey to ordination but there are a significant number of others within P’s & G’s who are also exploring a sense of vocation to ordained ministry. Knowing that the exploration stage can be an exciting and exhilarating, yet also a bewildering and vulnerable experience, Vanessa Parr and Fiona Baker (who has coordinated several ‘Discerning your Calling to Ministry’ courses in the US) are facilitating the Discover Group. Meeting once or twice a term the group aims to support and encourage those under 40 who are discerning God’s call. The group participants are all at very different stages of their journey: some are in the process of putting themselves forward for ordination, some are tentatively beginning and others just have a sense that they need to explore ‘something’. If you are wondering about exploring a potential call to ordination, regardless of your age and stage, any of the clergy team would be delighted to chat. by Jenny Heyward ‘I, the LORD, have called you and given you power to see that justice is done on earth.’ Isaiah 42:6 (GNB) Seeing that justice is done on earth can start locally, in your home, workplace and school by choosing to pack a Fairtrade banana in your lunchbox or when you grab a Fairtrade coffee before getting on the bus. Fairtrade is all about providing a fair deal (that is, justice) for the people who produce the goods that we consume. This means paying workers well and investing in communities. The great thing is that consumer power has wrought a real change in recent years; Fairtrade-certified goods are now widely available in high-street stores, as well as in specialist shops and at the Fairtrade stall in church. P’s & G’s members have already done a lot to respond to this call. The 90kg challenge (which sets out to sell 90 bags of Fairtrade rice) was a massive success earlier this year, and family came up with projects galore that could keep me occupied ad nauseam! God by no means pensions people off from serving him One of the beauties of retirement is being able to choose what to do, and another is discovering that God by no means pensions people off from serving him when they reach a certain age! Church-wise I’ve had more time to be involved with Global Focus and P’s & G’s mission partners as well as take an active role in the 9 am service – particularly during our journeying between church, 40 York Place and back again. And it’s good to have time just to be available… I’ve had great fun being part of “once-off” projects – from focus groups on the Psalms with non-church students to helping set up and run Festival Fringe events. And personally – I’ve indulged my love of walking; have discovered the Pentlands; made many new friends; volunteered with the Friends of Edinburgh Prison; and yes… have meaning that enough money was raised to send a Malawian child to school. Not only was the 90kg challenge met, but people also donated a total of £40. The Fairtrade Group recently received a letter from Just Trading Scotland, which runs the 90kg challenge, saying a big thank you for the generosity of the P’s & G’s congregation. They wrote that the extra donations would be re-directed to the Malawian farmers to invest in education and farming tools. As Fairtrade fortnight commences, it’s important to remember the call in Isaiah to act justly. There will be events going on all over the city, including activities in schools and an event on Saturday 3rd March, run by the Balerno Fair Trade group. There will also be a stall in church after each service on the 4th March, which will be selling a range of Fairtrade products, including baking kits, and there will even be some homemade baking to sample! And, of course, it’s important to remember that the call to act justly goes beyond a set Fairtrade fortnight. As individuals why don’t we make this year a time to listen and respond to the call to act justly and to seek out Fairtrade and local produce? Let’s also act collectively; look out for more events to be happening in church over the next year. 11 Issue 17: It’s your call | February 2012 time left for family and grandchildren and holidays! Marjory Vander Steen Being 60+, with health, energy and time is a gift. It’s a privilege to be ‘available’ – and not just to jump on a bus with my free pass! Now there is no longer a set routine, I rely on God’s promptings more to structure my day. rely on God’s promptings With a background in language teaching, working with the International Students and multi-racial B’s & T’s is very stimulating. Attempting ‘new’ things is challenging but rewarding e.g. starting to volunteer with the MS Society, helping with Marriage Course catering (especially scary when you discover the church ovens are out of action!), playing keyboard once a month in a small church (a real joy and it keeps me practising!) It’s always good to have a goal - mine this year is to complete my last two mainland ‘Munros’. A weekly visit to my 94 year old mother in Glasgow, still living on her own, always reminds me that no matter what our stage in life, if we’re in it with God, it’s always an exciting adventure. Carolyn & Sandy Millar It is now almost twenty years since we were both heavily involved in church life, I as the church secretary and Sandy as the Vestry Finance Co-ordinator. Life moves on and we may now be called to be less or differently involved but God does not expect retirement. There is always something do be done, it is a question of finding what he wants us to do. We both help with the Newcomers Evenings and serve on the Welcome Desk. We are also on the reading / prayer rota for the 9 am service. Sandy is involved with a home group and I organise the catering team for the Marriage Courses and other one-off meals, I also organise the flower rota and Christmas decoration teams. If the Queen, who is somewhat older than we are, is still working in the service of this country, how can we do any less in the service of our Lord! God does not expect retirement A woman walking with God by Janette & Ronnie Kerr Although Carole doesn’t particularly like women’s events, six years ago she found herself called to instigate one in Scotland. The conference now draws almost 1200 women! When it comes to acting on a spiritual impulse, Carole Gordon doesn’t just talk the talk, she walks the walk. Carole, familiar to many at P’s & G’s as an unflappable catering organiser, has been instrumental in helping to establish Scotland’s biggest Christian gathering of women. Women Walking with God is an annual event that draws over a thousand delegates from across the county, offering biblical teaching, worship and ministry in a relaxed environment and, without Carole’s vision, it might never have become a reality. Although Carole had never been particularly enthusiastic about women’s events, a visit to Focus Fest in Belfast with her friend Katy Backler in 2005 overthrew her expectations. She was quickly caught up in the sense of fun as she found herself in an auditorium with grandmothers, mums and daughters all listening attentively to the Bible being taught. Carole was keenly struck by a real sense of God being present in the worship – it was, she remembers, one of those times when heaven touches earth. Carole and Katy enjoyed the event so much when they returned the following year that they found themselves agreeing: “We could do something like this in Scotland.” On returning home, they began seeking the wisdom of other women they knew well. An awareness grew that Scotland was well resourced and capable of supporting such an event. God spoke very clearly to me “God spoke very clearly to me,” recalls Carole, “saying that this was something we could really do in Scotland and it’s amazing what God can do if we follow the prompt he gives us.” Carole says she is overwhelmed when she thinks that God has used her in something that has impacted on so many lives, “God has used our lack of experience. We wanted God to use us, stretch us, but we wanted to be faithful in what he had called us to do. “There was a desire to do the best that we could, therefore, details mattered, so that the women coming firstly had a sense of God’s presence and then had a great day out. “At the core of WWWG is a desire to reach women in church communities so that they will leave inspired and encouraged to reach out to their local communities. We want the event to be like a well, where the women can ‘drink’ deeply and go away filled up.” www.womenwalkingwithgod.co.uk it’s amazing what God can do if we follow the prompt he gives us 12 Manifesto by John White John gives the Blether a one-time, all-access view to the behind the scenes working of Manifesto (P’s & G’s men’s group). It has come to my attention that many females have been asking about what goes on during a Manifesto event. So pour yourself a cup of Lady Grey, find a nice chair in front of a roaring fire and grab a couple of those nice biscuits that you hide from the kids. Let me paint a picture for you of our last event – the Beer and Carols Night. Imagine the city centre lit up for Christmas with holiday shoppers bustling to and fro trying to find those last minute gifts. Now, imagine a man sashaying down the street with a confident swagger. Passers-by have a strange feeling of hope sweep over them, some just cry softly to themselves as they bask in his radiance. The man walking down the street is none other than Manifesto’s own Neil Stewart. But, he has transformed himself into the Chilled convention by M. Brett & C. Burrows; photo J. Kelly “Truly a retreat: sleeping, eating, singing, prayer – I met God on this retreat. It was a wonderful weekend!” Jackie Kelly Issue 17: It’s your call | February 2012 Carolmeister by wearing the most stunning red trousers! As he arrives at the church he is greeted warmly by a cup of hot mulled apple juice and a mince pie. On this night, 150 men of all ages show up and are greeted in the same fashion. The have all come out on this windy Scottish night for the same thing: the promise of beer, carols and a hog roast. As men find their seats, they are greeted and given their first beer – it is a hopped lager that goes well with the cheese. As the night progresses three more beers are presented, all tasty and paired well (except for the one cheese that everyone hated). The hog roast fills the belly of the men, as the banter grows louder. Towards the end of the night Dave Richards take the stage, you can tell he has stood there before but maybe not with beer coursing through his veins! He explains in an acceptable fashion that Christmas is all about For the second year in a row, a group of students escaped from lectures for an encouraging weekend away together in January. The venue was the Well Road Centre in Moffat, a Victorian house with plenty of space to sleep, eat, chill out and meet together. The weekend began with mulled cider, dinner and our first worship session, which, with a relaxed and comfortable atmosphere, set the tone for what was to come. Saturday morning was our main time of teaching with Will Kelly heading up two sessions about discipleship in our context as students Jesus, which is good, as Manifesto is a place for men to have fun and get to know Jesus. But, this isn’t like another night where Dave finishes his talk and we sing Be Thou My Vision while prayer is offered. Ohhh no, this night is different! Neil takes the stage again looking like Santa Claus from the waist down. He leads these jolly souls in a entertaining version of the 12 Days of Christmas. The night is over, but the men linger to chat and compare scars. It’s been another great Manifesto event. Manifesto At The Movies will have been on the 21st of February by the time you read this – I’m sure it will have been just as good. However, I see you have finished your cup of Lady Grey and the fire is dying down. I bid you farewell. and also as young adults. Following a healthy lunch, some took the opportunity to explore Moffat and its beautiful surroundings, whilst others chose to stay and work or chat. The evening entertainment was a murder mystery dinner with an all-star cast. Throughout the meal, the tables sifted through the web of lies that were laid out before them. People drifted to bed slowly during a couple of films and an impromptu theological debate. Whether the time is spent discussing faith, worshiping together, sharing a meal, getting to know new people or just having fun, weekends away are always a time where a community grows. This is especially important for students, who can struggle to find a place within a big church. Will’s teaching encouraged us to be aware of the opportunities to disciple to those around us in all parts of our lives and challenged us to use those opportunities well. Vanessa brought our time together to a close on Sunday with an intimate communion service and there was a great feeling of fellowship and care as we prayed for each other.
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