The Sexual Drive
Henk Beerepoot
Preface
There has never been a time before that mankind came to understand the essence of Life
and what purpose it has. How Life came into this realm of time and space and how it
increased. The time that this knowledge will be revealed has arrived.
The psychological term which describes the Life in Man as; “a free creative energy
which brings him towards his potential” or, as one may call it, his “individuation” has
finally been made known for what it is. It has come to be revealed as an energy which is
specifically expressed in mans libido or in his sexual drive. This Sexual Drive dominates
and directs the mind of the chaste and of the wicked, it governs every one.
In this paper the Sexual Drive of man will be shown, to those who can see, to be ‘the
Desire to become One’. This is not to be the desire of man, but His Desire in Man. The
revelation of this knowledge will be the expression of mans transformation into a
dimension which has not been known to him.
The knowledge of ‘His Desire within’ will dissolve the torture of the virtuous and fulfill
the craving of the immoral. The insufficiency of both will be made more than sufficient,
it will be made abundant.
This paper is not written by the mind of a man and the contents will be confirmed by the
reader who Father grants to see. I pray you will be with Him, coming into Your Delight.
Mole Creek 7 September 2008
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Introduction
John 1:1,3,12,13 “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with
Elohim, and the Word was Elohim. All things were made by him; and without
him was not any thing made that was made…. But as many as received him, to
them gave he power to become the sons of Elohim, even to them that believe on
his name: Which were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the
will of man, but of Elohim.”
All things pertaining to this realm of dualities were made by Him that is, right and wrong,
good and bad, happiness and pain.
Isaiah 45:7 “I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil:
I YaHWaH do all these things.”
The Desire of our Father is to bring all things to Himself. Not by restoring His created
work but by completing it, by filling that which he had separated with His Consciousness
so that the creation or separation will Glorify Him and will become Him, establishing His
Glory in this realm.
The Bible witnesses of this phenomenon in a mysterious way, revealing this uniting of
the separation to and within those who have the Breath of Life and thus in particular the
people who descend from Israel. The order of this process of uniting is clearly identified,
firstly Yahshua then the First Fruits, after the First Fruits the remainder of Israel and last,
but not least, through the people of Israel, the other nations and all the works of Creation.
In this paper I will explain the meaning of Life through the process of ‘coming to Life’.
A process, innate in those who are his, who have the breath of Life, in those who are
descended from Israel and thus have the Promise
Mans effort is the outworking of mans mind. Mans mind is not mans true self, mans
mind is part of the separation. Because of his separation he is blinded for the only true
power he possesses, the power which created him, the power of His Breath. This power,
mans true identity, is in reality in full command of the body and of the mind and is
empowered through the heart. Man is blinded for the truth that the power that rules his
body and mind belongs and is Him, Him who we call Father and it is Him, our Father,
though present in man, does not belong to the realm of separation.
Once more, it is man’s illusion that he thinks that he, as a flesh being, has power, that he
has a ‘free will’ or a ‘self will’ that he can accomplish or do things himself, in other
words, that he can ’work’. This illusion is the perfect work of our Father, it is the
ultimate of separation. It is mans Heart, His Spirit Power within, which is going to
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dissolve the illusion, dissolve the separation. This force is His Desire1 to become united.
This Desire is the only true power in man, a Desire which manifests Him in man by
destroying mans ability, mans ‘self will’, a manifestation which is the destruction of his
illusion. This Desire, this Spirit Power is experienced by man as his ‘own’ effort.
His Desire empowers ALL mans endeavors be it Good or Evil.
Man is moved by this subconscious Desire, this Spirit Power to do Good or to do Evil, to
come to a feeling of fulfillment, to be made whole. Though, through his blindness, man
fails and by failing he experiences his dis-ability. He thus dis-covers who he really is and
becomes fulfilled.
Sure, blinded man is not conscious of this Desire. It is the power of this desire which
gives him strength and makes him weak, it is the power of this desire which makes him
do Good or Evil, it is the power of this desire which he loves and hates, it is the power of
this desire which makes him worship and deny, to practice sin and to repent.
This power is always experienced by blinded man to be his own effort, his own work.
Though this effort, or work, will show him to be insufficient because this effort or work
cannot unite him with the Father it will destroy him. It will ultimately lead him to his
death thereby destroying his illusion of ‘self’.
The Desire of YaHWaH in man to be made whole in order that He is Sired or that man
becomes fulfilled, is expressed in man by his sexual desire, by all his sexual desires, be
it so called morally acceptable or not. All men’s sexual desires will prove to be
insufficient to come to fulfillment, to come to His Glory. All men’s sexual desire, all sin
will become destroyed not by annihilation but by consummation or assimilation, by being
1
The word ‘Desire’ is a composite word, composed of two words; ‘de’ and ‘sire’ . The word ‘sire’ means;
to beget or to father. The only One who can ‘bring about’ in man is Him who has made man. Thus, it is
Yah who ‘Sires’, who begets, and it is Him in her, in Israel, who makes the body ‘whole’ He ‘de-sires’ in
her. The word ‘de’ is used to describe the action of the intent, like to fend and to de-fend (the action is to
fend hence ‘a fence’ is a de-fence).
When we ‘desire’, it is Father in us, who ‘sires’, who unites Himself with us.
To confirm this we will look at the Scriptural Hebrew word for Sire which is: ‫( שור‬shur) Strong 7786: to
hold dominion, to constitute Princes. To de-sire means to gain dominion or to be established a Prince.
The Hebrew word picture provides a third confirmation:
‫( ש‬sheen) Literal meaning: Teeth, Symbolic meaning: to consume,(to assimilate)
‫( ו‬vav) Literal meaning : nail, Symbolic meaning: ‘and’, to add, to secure;
‫( ר‬reysh) Literal meaning: Head, Symbolic meaning: the head, the highest.
All three together: ‫( שור‬shur) meaning: The highest is consumed.
(the word ‘to consume’ should not be understood as ‘to destroy’ , rather as ‘to wholly be taken in’).
When a male, who is the highest, sires offspring, the female (him in her) de-sires him, he is then actually
consummated by his offspring giving them His complete genetic code, so that his offspring become the
highest.
This is the Truth of our existence; Father will sire Himself in the flesh and Father in the flesh (you and me)
de-sire Him so that He is ‘consumed’, ‘wholly be taken in’, in the flesh to become the Highest.
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made whole. Thus, all man’s sexual desire, all his sin, is not but a steppingstone towards
fulfillment towards being made whole, it is the integral part of it.
This revelation of the mysterious phenomenon that Sexual Desire is Life in Him is the
road to Oneness which runs through the valley of separation.
The Separation
The ‘work’ of our Father is good. Every day of Creation the Scriptures witnesses of that;
“and Elohim saw that it was good”. He formed man with a ‘Life heart’ by breathing into
his nostrils. It was His breath or His Presence which identified man truly with His
Creator. This was mans first Passover experience, he was sanctified or set apart because
through His Breath (lungs) he was given Life (heart). Living Man, from then onwards,
became One with His breath and became His created and thus his feminine side. Man
experienced His communication towards him as perfect.
Eve was made from mans rib and mans ribs are symbolic for the commandments. The
ribs surround and protect the respiratory and the cardiovascular systems both systems
together symbolize the Spirit (breath) transfer into Life (blood). This is the purpose and
intend of the law, to surround and protect the transfer of LIFE.
Because she was made of his rib she ‘did’ what she was made out of, she rendered
obedience to the Law-commandment: “If ye love me, keep my commandments” and by
‘keeping’ the Law with her mind, because she was flesh, she ‘reasoned’ to comply: “she
saw that the tree was good for food, pleasant to the eyes, desired to make wise”. Sure it
did all that, because she saw with her eyes, for she was flesh made out of flesh, therefore
she created the illusion of ‘self’, she ‘created’ another ‘god’ and it led to her death.
Adam responded to her deed, because she was made out of him, and therefore
participated, also in her death.
This made Fathers work not less good, to the contrary His work was perfect. Man needs
to fall and to die to his flesh in order to be raised up. After the fall however Father
covered Himself, we could not see him we did not see him anymore in the temple of our
flesh though He was and is evermore present. We entered into a time of a growing
illusion of ‘self’ that we had to work in order to produce Life. Not by work itself but
through the means work.
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We became reliant on the dust of the ground for our Spiritual sustenance and our
conception into New Life would be through sorrow, through work, we had to dis-cover
Him to become united, to know Life2.
Some time later, though He remained unseen to us, He covenanted us at Mount Sinai, He
gave us access to Him through obedience to the law, but because of our disobedience, he
separated and blinded us, even more than he did before. At that time we did not realise
that we could not obey Him by our flesh attempts, because in the flesh we could not and
would not see Him, we did not have access to the Tree of Life and therefore we were
relying on our flesh ability and continue to partake of the Tree of Good and Evil,
attempting to ‘Do’ Good, thinking this to meet His requirements. With our Heart we
desired ‘to do’ but with our flesh we relied on ourselves, thus on ‘other gods’.
Was it a failed covenant? For flesh man it was, but for Spirit man it was part of Father’s
courtship to bring His people to Himself, it was a blessed steppingstone towards the most
wonderful union still to come. Because of our captivity we felt in desperate need for a
god to free us. He gave us the key to become united with Him, to come into the realm of
the Breath (lungs) and the Life (hart), he gave us the Law, but having no access to the
Tree of Life we were looking to the ‘outside’ force, and thus tried to obey the Law with
our mind. As Eve did, we perceived that we could have a relationship with Yah through
the obeisance of our mind, that we could have access to Him through the Tree of the
knowledge of Good and Evil.
2
The meaning of the word “Life” according to the Paleo Hebrew Word Picture:
The Scriptural Hebrew word for Life is ‫( חי‬Chay) Strong 2416: life, living, alive. However the ancient
word picture shows the deeper meaning:
‫( ח‬Chet) Symbolic meaning: private, to separate Literal meaning: Fence, inner room, the veil
‫( י‬Yood) Symbolic meaning: work, a deed, to make, manifested power, His Presence Literal
meaning: Hand
Together ‫( חי‬Chay) the word picture shows us: “His presence behind the veil”
According to the biblical numerology (E.W. Bullinger)
The letter ‫( ח‬Chet) is the eighth letter of the alphabet and signifies a new beginning, to enter into the
covenant of circumcision
The letter is ‫( י‬Yood) the tenth letter of the alphabet and signifies the perfection of the divine order, it
implies that nothing is wanting.
A wonderful confirmation which tells us that Life is Him and we become aware of Him AFTER our
circumcision. Or, We ‘SEE’ Him Behind The Veil.
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We could not see, and most of Israel is still unable, that when we start to realize our
inability to keep the Law that we are dying to our ‘self’. That this realisation is the work
of Father who is lifting the veil of our heart. When this unveiling happens we come to
see that we are not flesh but Spirit and that we DO obey and thus cannot sin3.
This process of unveiling of the heart is the process of our suffering or persecution and
results with our death.
The One who made this all possible, to replace our heart of stone with a heart of flesh or
to unveil our heart is our Father. Yahshua Messiah as the manifested Father, Himself the
full son and the innocent One has redeemed us as no one else could have done this. He as
the full son, flesh, yet born of the Father knew that He and the Father were One. This
innocent man, with whom we identify in the Spirit and who is our elder brother in the
flesh bore in His flesh our sins at the moment when He said: My El, My El, why have You
forsaken me? At that time He lived for a moment our illusion of being separated from the
Father and ended this for us and in us with the death of His flesh.
To emphasise this, why then are we freed? Because, we are Him in the Spirit and through
his death we, as flesh beings, could now be given a heart of flesh, our heart could become
circumcised.
The second Great work He performed occurred a little time later when He united with the
Father, when Spirit and Perfect Flesh united. This union with the Father, after His
resurrection, gave us ‘New Life’.
From that moment onwards, that we had this New Life, our Father could make himself
‘known’ to us, from that moment onwards access to the Tree of Life could be given to
anyone whom He calls.
John 6:44 “No man can come to me, except the Father which hath sent me draw
him: and I will raise him up at the last day.”
Within the individual, as well as within the nation of Israel, Father could now reveal
Himself. Our Heart was circumcised through the death of His Son and from the moment
we were given this New Life, from that moment onwards He starts to become intimate
with us on a personal as well as on a corporate level4. From that moment onwards He
moves His Heart to break down our perception of independence, our illusion of Free
Will, to break down our Separation. It is our road to humbleness indeed, via the way of
Sin.
3
For a more in depth understanding it needs to be said that in our perfected flesh we will become the Law
as the twelve ribs represent the 10 commandments plus the 2 great commandments jointed to the 12
thoracic or dorsal vertebrae which represent the twelve tribes of Israel as they provide the principles or the
basis for the commandments, fastened to the sternum of His righteousness whereby the 2 loose ribs are His
righteousness and Glory.
4
That is, we start to realize this intimacy with this New Life, but not recognize that as such. We only
recognize this once we start to see His Sovereignty.
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Through the union of Him with the Son, a union which produced New Life, He generates
the Desire of the Heart to reveal to us who we really are. By making Himself known to
us He incites us, as Spirit beings, to move to fulfillment thereby consuming our carnality
not by destroying our carnality but by completing it. All our effort, all our work, indeed
all our sin will be made full. So that we can enter into righteousness ready to be united in
the flesh with the Father and the Son. This will be the end of our separation.
To confirm all this and to come into the joy of true fulfillment let me write about this
Desire of the Heart, let me write about this Power which moves everyone of us.
The Dynamics of the Union of Two becoming One
Male:
It is the Male’s desire to become One and to give Love/Life (sperm). This
Desire is the Spiritual dynamic to yield the other to him, to make the other
surrender her will to him, in other words the male requires total
submissiveness in order to give Love/Life.
This is the LIFE giving process.
Female:
It is the Female’s desire, a Spiritual Force, to become One by
relinquishing her ‘self’ (Love) in order to receive his Love/Life (sperm)
and to nurture the New Life. Nurtured by a Life tending womb, a womb
which came out of him. Because she was made out of Him.
This is a LIFE Becoming process
The mystery of the Sexual Drive of a man and a woman is in reality, the subconscious
Spiritual longing to become ONE. One with each other, as she came out of him, towards
Oneness with the Father as they are HIM. Because we are Him in the Spirit, the Sexual
Drive is His Desire to Become One. This is what in essence the Sexual Drive or Libido
is.
The Sexual Drive is a Spiritual power, it is His Desire to Become ONE
in the Flesh,
Israel, To Become YaH-WaH.
Spirit Life becoming New Born Life
The sexual drive is thus a Spirit Life force, a force which energizes and governs the
process of uniting and results into a transmutation of this Life into New Born Life in this
realm of time and space. It is the reality of two Life forces which have been separated
when they came into this realm, attracting or desiring to come together again but now in
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the flesh, completing their uniting through the male of giving his Spirit Life charged
sperm and the female receiving this Spirit Life in her ovum, creating New Life in the
Flesh, to be nurtured by her Spirit Life tending womb. This Spirit force commands the
physiology to be aroused. Without this spiritual force there is no oneness, there is no
arousal.
The present thought is that the so called ‘excitement stage’ in the human sexual response
cycle is the arousal stage and that this occurs as the result of physical, or mental (brain)
stimulation. This however suggests that sexual arousal is the result of external influences
however, the opposite is true. It is the inner desire to become One and to give and/or
receive Life, which causes arousal. The inner Desire to become One is within the
subconsciousness of man and this inner Desire activates outside impulses. Again, to
blinded man it seems that erotic thoughts trigger off arousal; however, it is the
subconscious desire to become One with the One out of whom he/she was taken and to
give or receive Life, which empowers these thoughts into physical arousal. Without this
spiritual force there is no physical response.
Once more, when that oneness in the natural, which is also the Spiritual, is reached He,
the male, gives Life (sperm), which the female, receives in her ovum. The ovum is not
the beginning of Life, the ovum or egg is the expression of Life, it represents the work,
and provides therefore the nourishment. It is the Life of the Sperm which gives Life to
the egg and thus marks the beginning of Life. He is the Life giver and she, who came out
of him, tends this Life with this same Spirit ‘manifested’, because she is his ‘help meet’.
So, from then onwards her fertilized ovum, containing The Life, tends and will be tended
in the womb by Manifested Spirit Power which is the Spirit Power re-united in her. A
Life ovum, tended and nourished by manifested Life, administered through the womb.
When the conception has taken place, this New Life in the physical world starts its own
cycle of a growing perception that Life comes from the ‘outside’. The embryo starts to
depend and rely on nourishment and perceives this to be Life. Through blindness it
creates a perception that the womb is the Life giver, while in reality the womb is doing
work, it sustains.
This ‘created perception’ is thus the start of man’s ‘self consciousness’, which is false
terminology because the real self of man is the Life Giver, is the Spirit identity of the
embryo itself, it is the Father where it came from. After birth this perception grows into
an inducing illusion that ‘work’ gives Life and therefore the dependency of the work of
the womb, or the mother for nourishment, is replaced by the dependency and reliance of
the mind, by the ‘works’ of self, by SELF.
The illusion is strengthened by the perception that Life is governed by the creation, rather
than that Life IS the Creator within. In other words that the Life of man depends on
man’s ability to rule and control his so-called ‘self will’, rather than that Father within
has given man the illusion of ‘self will’ to show man his dis-ability. It is the feminine
side, His manifestation, that which was ‘made out of’, the rib, or the ‘doing’ of the Law,
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which created this perception. This was Eve’s sin and because she is the mother of all
‘Living’ her fate became therefore the destiny for flesh man who has the ‘breath of Life’.
Genesis 3:16 “…in sorrow thou shalt bring forth children (Life); and thy desire
shall be to thy husband (Elohim), and he (He) shall rule over thee.”
Genesis 3:19 “In the sweat of thy face (through work) shalt thou eat bread (receive
sustenance), till thou return unto the ground (die); for out of it wast thou taken: for
dust (an illusion) thou art, and unto dust shalt thou return.”
This mistaken identity, this illusion, lasts during the life time of mans consciousness.
When man begins to see that the womb, the work or his illusion of ‘self’ has nurtured
‘SELF’ to death, his Life, his true identity, is revealed. When man begins to see through
work that he cannot do, that thus through the expression, or through the woman, he will
bring forth Life, New Life in the flesh, then he is back in the garden ‘knowing’ (absorbing,
assimilating and completing) Good and Evil and by knowing Good and Evil he eats of the
Tree of Life. Then man knows he is The Spirit Power, Man Becoming the Almighty
Father through Work, not by his flesh might, but by His Spirit might which has killed his
illusion of SELF.
Genesis 3:22 “And YaHWaH Elohim said, See, the man is become as one of Us,
to know good and evil: and now, lest he put forth his hand, and take also of the
tree of life, and eat, and live for ever.”
The Semen
Ultimately ALL our work, be it mental or physical is driven by our subconscious desire
to become One with YaHWaH. This Spiritual desire is expressed in a man becoming
One with a woman with whom he was One before they were born. This Desire is a
Living Force; this spiritual desire to become One with Him gives Life.
It is this Desire that gives Life to the semen in order that sperm can move (work) in a
forward motility to become united and One with the Life Egg. This seeming vitality of a
straight forward motion of the semen towards the ovum occurs when man is led towards
fruitfulness that is, when male and female meet in Love or meet with an ‘Open Heart’.
When blindness becomes more intense, the urge of satisfying ‘SELF’ grows. An urge
which, indeed, is also energised by the subconscious desire to become One with the
Father. How do we understand that? As blindness becomes more intense the power of
the subconscious desire to become One with the Father will lead man from traditional to
defiant behavior and further de-generates towards more plain lust, masturbation,
homosexuality, etc, behaviors which are called ‘Sin’. This becomes his road which leads
him into his valley, his valley where he will be met with his death in order that he will be
raised up.
This will be noticed in the vitality of the semen where SELF is the only destructive
factor, bringing man to his unfruitfulness and to his ultimate death.
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The more self gratification or sexual satisfaction is sought by the conscious mind, the
more muted and deflective the motility or quality of the semen becomes. The semen,
when ejaculated with a more ‘self’ conscious mind, appear to swim in circles, their
motion often show to be confused with a lesser motility than when they are ejaculated
with an altruistic mindset. The frequency of the fluid called ‘seminal plasma’, which
normally facilitates their straight forward movement towards the ovum and thus moves
outwards, turns now its energy inwards attempting to satisfy ‘self’ and, disabled to
further the semen in their movement proper, the vitality is thus impaired5.
5
This is reflected in our society and is, though not recognized, one of the reasons for the declining birth
rate. Why is that so? In short, many amongst us are seriously defrauded because of a change in the
marriage dynamics, the basic dynamics of her surrendering power, in exchange for his love, the expression
of which she nurtures. These dynamics take place with BOTH hearts open. This change of dynamics in
Israel is caused by blindness or the closing of Hearts and this phenomenon is at the present time reaching
its climax. When one gives his trust, or his heart to another, whose heart is closed or becomes closed, and
is thus met with selfishness, he or she will become hurt and out of self preservation he or she will become
self centered too. A vicious circle of behavior, demonstrated in the present day non committal approach of
the marriage union, dictated by the equality in the sexes, which is the excrescence of the original sin, of the
SELF WILL or FREEDOM OF CHOICE. Thus many who are living together either in marriage or
elsewise has their heart more or less closed towards each other, the basic dynamics which gives Life is not
there. When they are then engaged in a mutual sexual act, the ‘other’ is not their spouse or partner but a
stranger, which is SELF, and therefore fertilisation, stagnates.
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Life is in the Blood
When this spiritual ‘Desire to become One’ activates the arousal, the body reacts with a
manifold of complexities. One is the increased blood flow to the genitals, thus the
increased flow of ‘Life’ to these parts. The ‘Desire to become One’ dominates the flow
of Life/blood in both and these two flows of Life are designed to meet in her garden, in
her place of pleasure.6
The glans penis and the glans clitoral are the densest innervated areas of the genitalia.
The nerves react on the Spirit Life impulses it receives, which is characterized in both by
the subconscious ‘Desire to become One in the Spirit, hence with the Father’ and
physically expressed in the swelling with blood/Life of these parts coupled with strong
sensual feelings and mentally expressed with intimate thoughts. This ‘Desire to become
One with the Father’ is a communicated frequency predominantly initiated from the
Heart of the male and more latent from the female and are later transmitted by both the
male through the glans penis and the female through the glans clitoris7.
These transmitted Life impulses activate most systems of the body but foremost the
hormonal system, it energizes the nerve system in the reproductive and other erogenous
6
As explained in my paper “Circumcision and The Abrahamic Covenants” page 6,7 The Garden of Eden
means: “The enclosed place of Life behind the barrier or, behind the door” or ‘a hidden place, a place of
pleasure’. Herewith the, for this article, edited footnote on page 7 of that paper.
The female genitals picture the ‘Garden of Eden’. It is the organ of 'sex', which is the Latin word for six (6)
and which is the number of man.
• It is man’s “Enclosed place of life, behind the barrier”, his "place of pleasure". As the original ‘Garden
of Eden’ was the expression of His created realm and came from Him and therefore feminine, a place
where life originated and His Glory was imbued to man, so is the female 'sex' organ pictured as the
Garden of Eden. It is man's enclosed place of life.
• When man defrauded his Creator by disobedience, YaHWaH expelled them and placed Cherubim's
and a Flaming Sword to keep the tree of life (Gen.3:24). Yahshua is pictured by them and, in this
context it serves for a good understanding, that the Cherubim's are pictured by the Labia of the Vulva
and the two Tables of Stone as the Hymen, the Law, to close off the Enclosed Place of Life, The
Garden of Eden.
• Webster states that the word sex (lat. for ‘six‘) comes from the Latin word 'seco': to divide. This will
show very interesting when we learn that man is a 'part'. He is not complete. He is the physical
expression, and therefore the feminine part, of Father. "Father divided" so to speak.
• As Eve was taken out of Adam so comes a wife out of her husband. United before the world began
and, unbeknown for both, destined to come together in their Garden of Eden, their protected place,
where life is, to bring forth. And did not he make one? Yet had he the residue of the spirit. And
wherefore one? That he might seek a seed of Elohim. Therefore take heed to your spirit, and let none
deal treacherously against the wife of his youth (your covenant). (Mal.2:15)
7
The Father is pictured as the male and His manifestation Yahshua Messiah as His feminine part. He is
the door and gives access to her garden, pictured by the external genitalia, as the clitoris, the labia of the
vulva and hymen. Father, having become the willing Yahshua, who relaxes and opens the door.
John 6:44 “No man can come to me, except the Father which hath sent me draw him: and I will
raise him up at the last day.”
John 10:9 “I am the door: by me if any man enter in, he shall be saved, and shall go in and out,
and find pasture.”
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areas of the body and accelerate the response abilities. It is only this Life frequency,
which causes and stimulates a physical experience transmitted.
The intimate and affectionate contact between man and wife before their copulation
causes the excretion of fluids from both their reproductive organs. Generally this fluid is
considered to be for the purpose of lubricating, cleaning, and for providing a correct pH
in the vagina. However this understanding is very limited as to the greater purpose yet to
be learned.
The excreted fluids from the male and female have each their blueprint of ‘the Desire to
become One’. Man and woman are attracted to each other because they were One before
they were born and One in the Father. Thus these fluids perfectly compliment and fulfill
each other in Spirit because they have the Blueprint of their ‘Life’ De-pendency towards
each other. When male and female come together in the vestibule of the vulva these
fluids are mixed and facilitate the transferring of data between them both. This is a major
step in their process of becoming One. Now ‘completed’ man can enter into the garden,
he is being made whole and can enter through the door.
Particularly the blood vessels and the nerves in the corona of the glans penis are dense
and integral with the epithelia. The vagina is everything but a tubular tract facilitating the
penis and the birth of a child. The vagina wall contains a manifold of complex organisms
One of them facilitates the transfer and the absorbing of LIFE data from the male into the
female and vice versa through thin walled veins in the vagina wall and the corona of the
penis glans, blood that nearly ‘touches’, facilitating the transfer of the One Blueprint of
their Desire into both8.
Through this fluid the first response in the flesh is created towards full digesting or
assimilating the other, to KNOW the other.
From another perspective, entering into the garden pictures a most joyful occasion.
When their fluids are mixed, they are becoming sufficient, they are becoming perfected.
The moment they are in the garden, they are in their rest, they celebrate their Sabbath,
and indeed they are in Tabernacles. Their marriage, their union is thus a period of
healing, to be made whole, towards a New Beginning.
Through the mixed fluids, Spirit Life communicates perfect between the man and the
woman. As they are in the garden they are participating of the Tree of Life and becoming
conscious that He brings forth, becoming conscious that He does the work, that He has
Life and that anything else before they entered was an illusion.
8
A loving couple literally changes the moment that their coitus takes place. They become more like each
other as is often noticeable in their looks after years of happy marriage.
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While they are experiencing the power of Him and thus participating of the Tree of Life,
they are in their sufficiency (not like Eve and then Adam in their insufficiency) experiencing the
consumption of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. The two are becoming
One.
When they are consuming of the Tree of the Knowledge that is, when the communication
between both continues in this period of joy, this period of healing, they become to
KNOW Him.
Genesis 3:5,22 “For Elohim doth know that in the day ye eat thereof, then your
eyes shall be opened, and ye shall be (as) Elohim, knowing good and evil”
This phenomenon in the natural, which is the Spiritual, is a most miraculous and yet an
unknown occurrence.
‘Life’ communicates between man and woman.
This
communication is the participating as well as experiencing and thus consuming. This is
the communing of both trees the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil is consumed or
KNOWN into the Tree of Life.
When the fullness of the communication of the Spirit in the flesh is reached it is
expressed as a climax of euphoria in both. An exhilarating experience of ecstasy of the
giving and receiving of LIFE towards establishing New Life9, a New Beginning, man’s
eighth day.
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While the here above described marriage act is ordained and pictures the healing or making whole of two
becoming one. Man himself, though he is energized to do so, CAN NOT become ONE IN THE FLESH
with his wife/husband and the Father through his own work or through his own effort, because he is the
feminine, the created, manifested Father. Mans work, his effort or, in other words, his perception of self
has to die first. Once man ‘sees’ Fathers sovereignty, he dies in order that he can become ONE.
That man, on his own effort, cannot become ONE in the marriage act is very much experienced by all
married people. After having reached the climax of the coitus there is always a sense of disappointment, a
slight feeling of disenchantment. Man cannot hold the climax, not for any length of time, the feeling of
euphoria ebbs away.
There are many corruptions of the marriage act. Though all of them are energized by the ‘Desire to
become One with the Father’. The Corruptions are thought by man to be his passions and are commonly
called Lusts. Generally speaking, the more social unacceptable, despicable, or sinful the lusts are in man,
the greater his subconscious aim to become fulfilled thus in other words the closer he is to his death, his
death to the flesh, the closer he is to LIFE . Therefore, to emphasise this, we can say that this driving force
to become One is profoundly expressed in the so called greatest of sinners amongst us. Their apparent
rebellious and destructive behavior shows their intense blindness thus their inability to obey while their sub
consciousness empowers them down the road of their flesh consciousness which leads them into
perverseness. Because of their evil fruit, they will be led, generally speaking, more rapidly to seeing their
‘inability’ and their illusion of ‘self’ then those who are eating the ‘good’ fruit and try to obey. They may
well see their true identity, being the Sovereign Father, to be born in their flesh consciousness earlier, so
that, as the Scriptures prophesy, the last may become the first.
Luke 13:30 And, behold, there are last which shall be first, and there are first which shall be last.
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Note: In this paragraph one may have felt that I jumped from the physical into the
spiritual and visa versa, that I used metaphors to describe spiritual truths, though
one wants to consider that these metaphors picture and embody spiritual
dynamics, that perfected marriages are practical applications of growing into
Oneness. It is the mystery of marriage made known.
The Circumcision
We have come now ever closer to the great revelation of Life. Now our minds desire to
focus on the Heart and on the analogy and connection which the circumcision of the
foreskin has with the Heart.
The general understanding is that the circumcision of the foreskin pictures the
circumcision of the Heart. The great mystery unfolded will be that the circumcision of
the flesh will lead to the circumcision of the Heart.
A boy is circumcised on his eighth day. The number eight pictures a New Beginning.
On the day of his circumcision the little boy starts his life equipped to become One with
the woman from whom he was separated and One with his Father. It is his New
Beginning in the flesh.
Though he is Spirit his heart is covered because through Eve he is expelled from the
garden, he is expelled from the womb. Very soon after his birth he looses his memory of
who he is, he looses the intimacy of Father. He needs time to mature; he needs time to
trust his mind. He needs to ‘work’ he needs time to learn by impressions from the
outside that teach him to decide, enforcing an illusion of a ‘self will’. He needs time to
harden his heart.
Becoming older the boy starts to come to terms with his development and his growth. He
learns to rely on his feelings, his emotions, he learns to consider. While he feeds his
needs, he strengthens ‘self’ and therefore in his lifetime relationships he defrauds others
and will be defrauded by them.
In his subconsciousness, his heart never sleeps. The power of his heart is the only reality
the boy has and, as from the time of his New Beginning, it employs all the work that he
does. His ‘understanding’, as from the time of his circumcision of the foreskin and
onwards, is a work towards the destruction of his illusion, towards his death in order that
he sees his Heart, his circumcised Heart. This is truly a work his Father does
simultaneous with the strengthening of the illusionary awareness of the boy. A work in
becoming a man, the New Man in his Eighth Day, His New Beginning, His Tabernacles.
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Generally speaking the young man aims towards uniting in his conscious mind10. He
aspires to become physically and emotionally fulfilled, this energy comes from his
subconscious mind or his Heart and is in reality Father who desires to become united
with him, as a man who firstly becomes joined with his wife and then through Yahshua
with the Father. This uniting or marriage does not just picture this New Beginning rather
it is truly part of this. Let me explain some of the intimacies.
In shape and form the heart is similar to the glans penis. The heart has, as the glans
penis, a corona or crown11 and this crown is as the crown of the glans penis also densely
innervated. As the erected penis of a man moves (works) the uncovered glans within the
vagina of the woman, who came out of him, and transmits Spirit Life frequencies, so does
the Father, man’s true identity, moves His heart in the mind of man.
The mind of man, though this too is his manifestation or his feminine side, is blinded and
thus insufficient. To become sufficient or perfected man needs to ‘become’. As the
circumcision of the Heart progresses and His Love ‘moves on’ and ‘grows’ during His
intercourse in his mind, man begins to experience that His Heart is moved, frequencies
are emitted and man starts to loose himself. The dynamics of uniting are well in
progress, and man starts to see the sovereign power within him, he starts to see that he, as
a created being, cannot bring forth, he starts to realise that he ‘cannot do’.
When man, as His feminine side, becomes aware that he cannot bring forth the desire of
his heart and is thus at the peak of his beauty, he gives his heart to Him who owns it, he
gives himself completely to Him, withholding nothing, he gives up his own will which is
an illusion of the mind.
This is the time that the manifested Father, as the High Priest Yahshua, fulfills His
DESIRE in the mind and body of man. Now while His wife is in His rest in His
Tabernacle, as this is the mind of man from where he was expelled, (but also the Garden of
Eden and the vagina), He exerts all His Energy, all His Power and with His complete focus
on her, he consumes her on the altar of sacrifice (pictured by the brainstem12). This is the
time that her illusion is vanished and now with the full regalia of the High Priest he, the
resurrected man as the manifested Father. enters into the Holy of Holies where the Spirit
Father has His presence. Here in the Holy of Holies deep inside the brain where the
presence is of the Spirit Father, the resurrected man as the manifested Father emits His
Life, he emits ‘the sexual drive made sufficient’, he emits the Desire of the Heart and
thus presents himself in the Holy of Holies.
10
It needs to be said that of course that not everyone will marry, though the most celibate or the greatest of
sinners all aim for uniting.
11
See Appendix
12
See the study of the Nervous System by Fanny.
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The Holy of Holies is pictured by the Diencephalon13 which is the very centre of man’s
communication, the command centre of the body, of the temple as it were. It is Here
where man will receive his New Life. Not an old life restored but New Life which will
communicate with “Flesh made perfect”. Here man will be made FULL.
New Life will be given to HIS GREAT POTENTIAL IN THE FLESH.
This exceeds the pinnacle of Israel’s existence; this transcends all of Israel into His
realm. This most wonderful occasion, where the Tree of Life has consumed the Tree of
the knowledge of Good and Evil, has made Her, flesh man, Israel, to fully Know Him.
Flesh man fully circumcised, the Desire of His Heart, has become
YaHWaH.
As a second witness to this most wonderful Second Coming of Him Manifested14, are the
phenomena around the death and coming to Life of His First Coming within the MAN
Yahshua Messiah. The courtship of Father in Him, described in the Gospels, was perfect.
It ended in a glorious way in a magnificent climax when He surrendered His will.
John 5:30 “I can of mine own self do nothing.”
Luke 22:42 “Saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me:
nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done.”
Some time later He started to loose himself and He Himself, as the full Son, the
manifested Father, walked up as the innocent man to the altar of Sacrifice to be burnt, the
exact timing was the moment he said:
Matthew 27:46 “… My El, my El, why hast thou forsaken me?”
Father showed that He was not to be found ‘outside’
Mark 15:38 “And the veil of the temple was rent in twain from the top to the
bottom.”
The pericardium of His Heart was ruptured by the Sovereign Father through the Roman
soldier demonstrating His circumcised Heart. The emission was twofold, water and
blood, both picturing ‘Life’, Spirit Life ‘separated’ as ‘the Word who became flesh’ and
flesh Life separated in Adam. He returned both the Life in the Blood and the Life in the
water to the dust of the ground wherefrom man was formed, thus uniting the breath Life
and Flesh Life with the dust, never to be separated again. In other words, He emptied
Himself to the dust from which He was formed in Adam to Him who formed Him, He
gave Himself totally to the Father. He did not withheld anything
13
Within the Diencephalon is the presence of the Father here cerebral spinal fluid is made which contains
LIFE. This fluid finds its way into the bloodstream giving the blood Life. The Heart is the ‘motor’ doing
‘work’ belonging within the realm of understanding as the source of ‘flesh Life.
14
This is the Second Coming of Yahshua Messiah which will not deny the coming of our Brother.
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Matthew 27:50 “And Yahshua, cried out again with a loud voice, and gave up
His Spirit.”
His resurrection on the third day established His Mastership over the Day and Night, the
Light and the Darkness or Good and Evil as well as His Mastership over all of Creation
as the number Three represents the completeness and divine perfection in Him. It was for
this reason and for this reason only that he remained in the earth for three days and for
three nights. Having established His Mastership over all there is having therefore the
dominion over the realm of the Tree of the knowledge of Good and Evil, He established
thus IN HIMSELF the ability “TO DO”. How did He establish that? By the POWER to
take His Life again (John 10:18)!
He completed His Desire of the Heart in Himself
Having completed this desire AFTER three days He thus emitted Himself to the Father
establishing His perfect ONENESS in His Flesh with Him and in Him, which has given
us, as the descendants of Israel our New Life in Him. Because of this perfect Oneness He
Himself as the Glorified Father in the flesh simultaneously emitted Life in His femininity,
He emitted His Life within His People establishing New Life in us! The Father and the
Son united within us to Become YaHWaH in our Flesh in your Flesh, in my Flesh.
Thank you my wonderful Father for this marvelous revelation, the desire of my Heart
calls for many to hear, to see, to become.
Yours, Henk
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Appendix
The biblical Hebrew word for Crown or Corona is the word: ‫ נזר‬nezer, It is Strong’s
5145 and this word is given the meanings of: Crown, Separation, Consecration.
The Hebrew Word picture however shows a much deeper insight into this word: ‫נזר‬
nezer:
‫( נ‬Noon) Symbolic meaning: activity, Life Literal meaning: Fish
‫( ז‬Zayin) Symbolic meaning: cut, to cut off Literal meaning: Weapon, a sword.
‫( ר‬Reysh) Symbolic meaning: a person, the head, the highest Literal meaning:
Head (of a man)
The word for Lamp is ‫ נר‬nir (Strong’s 5216). This word picture tells us that a Lamp is:
Life (‫ )נ‬to the Head (‫( )ר‬or person).
Placing a ‫ ז‬Zayin between the letters ‫נר‬forms the word: ‫ נזר‬nezer. Now this word
‫ נזר‬nezer tells us that:
LIFE is cut off from flesh man.
Father gave us a King because He desired to further separate His flesh people of Israel to
re-store them later as the Glorified people. It was the King who wore the Crown and it
was His Crown that established the separation from Him, from the Light. The King thus
IS the Crown and whilst the Lamp in the people of Israel dimmed, they were given a
King, a separation, embodied in the Crown. The King/Crown wore within Himself His
separation the people who He embodied, because in His Crown were set the 12 precious
gem stones each representing the tribes of Israel.
In the uniting work of our Father, wherein He desires to give us Our Crown15 of Life
(James 1:12. Revelation 2:10), He moves His Crown, the Crown of the Heart in our
15
Looking again to this wonderful word ‘Crown’ in the Hebrew language, the word ‫ נזר‬nezer One could
think, how then do we understand the Crown of Life, if the meaning of the word ‘Crown’ tells us that Life
has been cut off from man?
To repeat the here above: the last letter, the letter ‫ ר‬reysh pictures the Head, the Head of a man, a ‘flesh
man’ thus. The middle pictorial Hebrew letter is the ‫ ז‬zayin, which means a weapon, a sword and
symbolizes ‘to cut off’. Some authorities tell us also that the Zayin pictures ‘a wise man’. The ‫ נ‬Noon is a
fish and pictures ‘Life’. As we have learned earlier ‘Crown’ means: “Life is cut off from man”.
Do we ‘see’ that the Yahshua is the ‫ ז‬zayin, The ‘wise man’, who prevents us of entering the Garden, He
has the sword or the weapon stopping us from partaking of the tree of Life? That we as flesh cannot enter
into Life?
We know that the Zayin is the seventh letter of the alphabet. Seven is the beautiful number of coming into
perfection; it is the number of ‘Healing’ of ‘The Sabbath’ of ‘The Feast of Tabernacles’. It is the number
of the Garden of Eden. The Place of Pleasure. When we are circumcised and coming into the realm of
perfection into the realm of Life, our eyes are opened and we are moving towards completion, towards the
great gift of Life, we are moving towards our Crowning Day, towards our Crown of Life. Then, we as
flesh (6) have ‘become’ and have reached the fullness of perfection (7) and partake of LIFE, our New
Beginning (8), we have BECOME.
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feminine mind. He wakes us up to the wonderful promises made to our fathers, intrinsic
in the character of the stones which are embedded in the Crown. In other words, “He
turns the heart of the fathers to the children and the heart of the children to the fathers”
(Mal.4:6).
When we feel His Crown, which is coming to realize His Sovereign power within us or
realizing our illusion of a ‘self will’, his Desire within us grows towards the great and
jubilant Crowning Day for which we all have been waiting. The Day when we shall
receive His Crown. Then our pain shall be over and our Beauty will dazzle every eye16.
Then He, our Father, has come and will accomplish All His Love in us. Then He gives
Himself away, establishing ALL there is, All there ever has been and All there ever will
be in Us, His feminine Part, to nurture.
He establishes in us:
TO BECOME.
This wonderful truth is not only in detail pictured by the coitus but, for the wedded in
Israel, the sexual intercourse forms an integral part of this process.
With the intercourse, the man enters his penis into the vaginal orifice of his wife where
the Oneness of the Desire of their Hearts causes the Crown of his glans, picturing the
gem stones of the tribes, his ‘delight’ Deut. 10:15, to intensify the Unified Love. The
moving of his Crown generates frequencies and these are expressed in her through the
corresponding rugae of the vagina wall, which are now physiologically sensitized through
a complex interaction of hormones, nerves, bundles of circular muscles and a network of
thin walled veins.
Through his culminating ‘work’ the purpose and goal of his courtship is almost reached.
The Desire of his Heart has nearly eventuated. His work of uniting Two into One,
towards a perfect harmony is near to be completed. A harmony which culminates in a
sensorial crescendo. This climax pictures the gift of ALL his power through the gift of
the Crown and with the crowning, he gives her Life/Sperm, he gives her all his authority,
he gives his Life, which is all he is and everything he has. He gives her the Crown of
Life.
This feeling of great exhilaration of the giving of the Crown lasts with him only a mere
few seconds, because he gives himself away and when that occasion has materialized,
there is no sensitivity left in him, because all his feelings of intense happiness has moved
with the Crown into her. This is in great contrast to her feelings. The reception of the
Crown is met within her with the greatest of anticipation and joy. She receives his
Crown AND his Life, she receives ALL he has. The Glory for 2 who have BECOME
16
from the song “The Crowning Day” by Daniel W. Whittle 1881
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ONE is His work in HER and lasts forever. This is pictured in her flesh body as a climax
of bliss which continues for several minutes ebbing away into a feeling of elated
fulfillment.
She has BECOME
Now she nurtures and nourishes LIFE to bring forth New Life.
a Mother of the living.
Thus she has BECOME
The word Mother is the Hebrew word ‫ אמ‬em and means: ‫ א‬Alef: the first or the strong
‫ מ‬Mem: water.
We, as the descendants of Israel, are in Yahshua Messiah, His manifestation. We are His
feminine part and are Eve.
1 Corinthians 15:22 “For as in Adam all die, even so in Yahshua Messiah (Eve)
shall all be made alive.”
As Eve is the Mother of All living, and as she brings forth the strong water or, the Living
water, as she has BECOME, we will BECOME and BECOME evermore. Bringing forth
LIFE.
John 7:38 “He that believeth on me, as the scripture hath said, out of his belly
shall flow rivers of living water.”
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