UNIVERSITY OF CINCINNATI August 15, 2008 Date:___________________ Bennyce E. Hamilton I, _________________________________________________________, hereby submit this work as part of the requirements for the degree of: Doctor of Education in: Literacy It is entitled: The reflexive journey: One teacher's path to self in the footsteps of her students. This work and its defense approved by: Dr. Chester Laine Chair: _______________________________ Dr. Mary Ann Pitman _______________________________ Dr. Mark Gooden _______________________________ Dr. Helen Meyer _______________________________ Dr. Deborah Hicks _______________________________ The reflexive journey: One teacher’s path to self in the footsteps of her students Bennyce E. Hamilton August 15, 2008 B.S. Psychology Kentucky State University M. Ed. University of Cincinnati Ed. D. University of Cincinnati College of Education, Criminal Justice, and Human Services Chester Laine, Program Chair ABSTRACT The reflexive journey: One teacher’s path to self in the footsteps of her students by Bennyce E. Hamilton A teacher’s lived experiences are important in shaping her subsequent practices in the classroom. Teachers must look at the connections between those experiences, their identities, and classroom practice. The foundation for my research is built on history’s record of education’s effects on Black people. My own identities, the tenets of culturally relevant pedagogy, my efforts to attain classroom praxis, and an autoethnographic account of my lived experiences and how they have shaped my pedagogy, lend structure to both the project and this narrative. This research offers a critical reflection from a Black feminist perspective as a prelude to creating a classroom where students are taught using culturally relevant pedagogical strategies. By incorporating each of these elements, I have been able to identify myself as a woman, a feminist, and a scholar. Within this frame, I am free to explore, to learn, and to grow with the students in my care. Together, we are able to learn from one another (as advocated by culturally relevant pedagogy) and to examine ourselves and our experiences critically (as advocated by Black Feminist Theory). Additionally, this offers me both an opportunity and an incentive to examine myself – my identities, my classroom praxis, and the confluence of those present elements with my lived experiences in what is termed Reflexive Culturally Relevant Pedagogy (RCRP): truly, it offers me an opportunity to achieve a better teaching identity and a better self. ii iii The reflexive journey: One teacher’s path to self in the footsteps of her students Acknowledgements Completion of this dissertation would not be possible without the help of several people. First, I want to thank my dear friend, Amanda “Bug” Schear. You are a Godsend. Thank you for your wonderful ability to motivate me when I wanted to quit. Also, thanks for being super English teacher and editing this body of work. Words cannot possibly express how much you mean to me. I also want to thank the beautiful women of MUSE Cincinnati’s Women’s Choir, especially Cathy, Kim, and Brenda. Your love and support kept me focused and nurtured my soul through music. To my cousin Ebony “Shay” Ross who worked countless hours to transcribe tapes and get me started on the right track. To other family members, especially my mother, Anna T. Hamilton who helped me see and believe in the value of an education. Moreover, thank you to all the women in my life who were the othermothers as I was growing up. Your devotion became the example that I emulated in my classroom. To my DST sisters, (Delta Sigma Theta and Dissertation Support Team), Simone, Mimi, Karen, and Robyn who set the bar high for me because you set it high for yourselves. I thank you for that and I hope to give forward to others who come behind me. I thank my Committee members: Drs. Chester “Chet” Laine, Mary Ann Pitman, Mark Gooden, Helen Meyer, and Deborah Hicks. Chet, you are the best – I need not say more. Mary Ann, your knowledge and expertise guided my path. Finally, I want to thank “my girls” who are the future othermothers. Without you, this dissertation would not have been possible. You taught me many lessons when it was I who came into the classroom prepared to teach you. May the world be yours to conquer. iv TABLE OF CONTENTS CHAPTER ONE – INTRODUCTION 1 The Story Unfolds 1 CHAPTER TWO – LITERATURE REVIEW 10 Historical Perspectives on Education 11 Educational Experiences of Black Women/Girls 14 Identity 15 Black Feminist Theory 18 Culturally Relevant Pedagogy 23 Reflexive Practice 27 Reflexive Culturally Relevant Pedagogy 28 CHAPTER THREE – METHODS 30 Research Site 30 Gaining Access 31 Participants 32 The Work 34 Data Collection 35 Feminist Research Methodology 35 Qualitative Research Practice 36 Teacher as Researcher 36 Self-Reflection 38 Action Research and Participatory Research 40 Research Process 42 v Student Attrition 45 CHAPTER FOUR – ANALYSIS 46 Participant Profiles 47 Candace 48 DaRhonda 53 Jackee 56 Jenae 57 Jessica 58 Julena 59 Kendra 62 Mesha 64 Nicole 68 Starr 70 The Teacher’s Perspective 72 Generalizations of Research Outcomes 76 Limitations/Failures 77 CHAPTER FIVE – APPLICATION 78 Bennyce 78 Wake Up Call 79 Making Progress 82 Reflexive Culturally Relevant Pedagogy is Born Making Reflexive Culturally Relevant Pedagogy Your Own Know Who You Are 86 88 vi Create Safe Space 90 Listen in Order to Learn 91 Risk vs. Reward 92 Integrating RCRP in Classroom Practice CHAPTER SIX – CONCLUSIONS 94 95 Reflexive Culturally Relevant Pedagogy as a Model for Teaching and learning with Black Students 95 Suggested Uses for Research 96 Suggestions/Implications for Further Research 99 Conclusion 100 REFERENCES 101 vii LIST OF FIGURES Figure 4.1: Factors that Make a Culturally Relevant Teacher and Classroom Examples viii 113 LIST OF APPENDICES Appendix A: Critical Literature Review Stories 119 Appendix B: Rules for Conducting a Critical Literature Review 120 Appendix C: Sample Agenda 121 Appendix D: Sample Mini-Lessons for Narrative Writing 122 Appendix E: Student Narrative Paper 125 ix CHAPTER ONE: INTRODUCTION THE STORY UNFOLDS This research looks at my lived experiences, as a woman, as a Black woman, as a feminist, and as a scholar, and how they shape my classroom praxis. I approached this research as a journey of self-discovery, a path to acceptance, and a way to reach back into the community to ease the path of other young women on their own journeys of self-discovery. I knew who I wanted to be as a teacher; the strategies I wanted to use and the lessons I hoped to impart. I viewed myself as a practitioner of culturally relevant and culturally responsive teaching. In pursuing this research, I wanted to find out whether or not the classroom view I held of myself was true. I also wanted concrete proof that the practices I believed would be so helpful to my students, particularly to my young, Black, female students, were as powerful and empowering as I’d hoped. The structure for my research, then, became my own lived experiences, as a woman finding her identity, and as a teacher seeking to help her students do the same. “Lived experiences” require one to view self as “situated in the action of research” (Rapp 1982). Researcher bell hooks (1989) maintains that subjective experience and theory from personal experience are important because each acknowledges the need to examine self from a critical standpoint. For many of us, those lived experiences are considered insignificant. Our stories are never told. This is especially true in the case of Black women, who have so often been relegated to the margins of history, and therefore effectively written out of our collective story. Rodriguez (2001) proclaims that when Black women are given the opportunity to express themselves and offer insight, it reinforces the notion of the value of Black women’s lives. This belief in the inherent value of Black women’s lives is a guiding principle of Black feminist theory. That principle is embodied in this research, for it will be the sum of my own lived experiences, and how those experiences are utilized and reshaped in my interactions with 1 students, who have their own lived experiences, that will be the source of data for this study. On the common ground of the classroom, as we share these lived experiences, both teacher and students begin to find and use their voices in new ways, to tell their own stories, to learn new stories, to create new spaces for the projection of voices and the telling of stories. My self-reflection leads me to the theoretical posture informed by Black Feminist Theory. This paradigm encompasses a view of research from a Black woman’s perspective. Of particular importance to the Black feminist is the notion of othermothering. Othermothering has existed in the Black community since slaves were brought to the United States. It is accepting responsibility for a child or children that are not one’s own through a formal or informal arrangement (Guifrida, 2005). Othermothering is germane to education. It is an holistic approach to teaching that goes beyond academic skill acquisition and is still readily apparent in contemporary African-American schools (Case, 1997; Foster, 1993). It is a Black teacher’s moral obligation to uplift the Black community by attending to the psychological and social development of students (Foster, 1993). Junior high was a challenging time. Ms. Thurmond and Ms. Bennett were my only two Black teachers during these years. While they filled a community role as “othermothers” to me, they also, and perhaps even more importantly, were living, highly visible symbols of the power of education and the power available to strong Black women. Ms. Thurmond was the toughest math teacher in the entire junior high school. Not only did she teach us math, she also taught us discipline and life lessons. She made it clear that she “did not play.” Each day we would have a different saying on the board – words of wisdom. Part of our responsibility as students was to memorize the saying. This had to be done by the time she entered the classroom and began to erase it. It was not a good thing to be caught not having memorized the saying. Ms. Thurmond would call on an unsuspecting student who was talking or otherwise not paying attention and ask her to stand and recite the words of wisdom. Fortunately for me, I never got caught talking and never got caught without my memory intact. Ms. Thurmond’s lessons went a long way. Many of her wise sayings I still remember today. Ms. Bennett taught my seventh grade English class and she had a passion for the subject. She made reading, writing, and grammar make sense to me. I always knew the rules for grammar because my mother made me practice them daily (mostly by correcting me 2 when I said something wrong). Ms. Bennett helped me get beyond the grammar to write creative compositions; she broadened my frame of reference. I really think I liked English because I was good at it. Ms. Bennett’s passion kept me focused and engaged. Both Ms. Thurmond and Ms. Bennett demonstrated a visible belief in the self-efficacy of their students. Ms. Thurmond was keenly aware of the necessity to build bridges between her students’ home and school experiences. The sayings she wrote on the board daily were an extension and reinforcement of the “words of wisdom” we heard from our parents daily. She made character education relevant and universal – equally applicable in our home and school lives. Ms. Bennett’s deep belief in her students and their ability to be successful in her class influenced everything about her classroom curriculum. She challenged her students to reach up and stretch farther than they’d imagined possible. Her enthusiasm for our success was contagious. Ms. Bennett had a genuine zeal for her discipline. She imparted this to each of her students. My decision to attend graduate school and to become an English teacher can be viewed as the fruit of Ms. Bennett’s passion. This was a crucial stage in my life: now that I was becoming a teacher, I had to decide why exactly I wanted to teach, and moreover, what it was that I thought I had to offer to students. My decision to become a teacher was the culmination of a lifetime of experiences that placed high value on education, and that venerated strong Black women educators. My process of becoming self, an ever-evolving process, has been critical in my quest to reach praxis. As teachers, this search for self and quest for praxis requires us to self-inventory our life experiences, determine how they affect our pedagogical practice, resolve any conflicts, and then go into the classroom and be effective teachers. When teachers critically examine their own practice, they have taken a necessary step toward “praxis.” Praxis as defined by Friere (1993) is 3 action-reflection that brings together the teacher’s philosophy (reflection) and pedagogy (action) and embeds this action- reflection in the context of the teacher’s classroom. Friere (1985) iterated that to be teacher/researcher means to be both teacher and learner. This duality pits the teacher against self in order to uncover the “stuff” that stands in the way of teaching “for liberation.” “Stuff” here implies anything from the teacher’s background that would keep her from putting the students’ needs in the forefront. It is also those things from her background that are considered insignificant until someone points them out as inconsistencies between her behavior and her actions. This research will be a continuation of my “journey” as a teacher that was outlined in the article: The unexpected journey: Renewing our commitment to students through educational action research (Meyer et al, 2004). In that article, I explored my lived experiences and how those experiences, particularly those as a student in the classroom, shaped my identity as a classroom teacher. I looked at the influences of strong teachers on my life, and how their influence later materialized in my own classroom practice when I became the teacher. Here I will focus on making connections between my experiences and those of the student participants in this research. My research questions are: 1) 2) 3) In what ways does my classroom praxis encourage and support the exploration of identity and discovery of voice for my students? Do my pedagogical practices incorporate a culturally relevant pedagogy? a) How do my identities influence my teaching? b) How does using my own voice to find and express my identity enable me to help my students to do the same? How is student achievement affected by the incorporation of reflexivity with culturally relevant pedagogy in the classroom? The relevance of this research is at the heart, the very core, of culturally relevant teaching. It presupposes that all students have a unique story, and that with that story comes a 4 unique voice waiting to be discovered, used and heard. As Linda Gayle Rodgers-Williams (2006) states: “Stories are the interaction of narrators and the cultural milieu within which they live. They influence the audience for whom they are intended” (p 2). The teacher willing to do this work will empower her students to higher levels of success and greater levels of achievement, as students and as human beings. Geneva Gay (2000) states that the academic achievement of students will increase if “schools” and “teaching” are changed so that they draw and reflect on the cultural and language strengths of the diverse population of students being served by that particular school system (p ix). If teachers are truly interested in improving outcomes for their students, they must also be interested in the students’ processes of becoming and defining themselves, and they must be willing to help students put voice to those processes. As a woman and a scholar interested in the importance of lived experiences and their effects on personal praxis, I am compelled to acknowledge the impact my own personal history has had on this research, and the assumptions they have created within me regarding its processes and outcomes. Growing up, education was always discussed as an invaluable commodity; there was never any question about whether or not I would finish high school and attend college – my mother was committed to my academic success at all levels. She was a tireless advocate for me throughout my school career, consistently seeking out what she believed were the best educational opportunities for me. As school integration became a reality, this came to mean being bused from my own neighborhood school to a ‘white’ school across town where my mother believed I would receive a better education. A combination of my mother’s determination and support, and my own intrinsic curiosity and love of learning, insured that I did, in fact, receive an excellent public school education. As an education student at the college level, I began learning about just what kind of educational disparities my mother’s diligence had 5 spared me from. While this learning, coupled with my own positive experiences, fueled my passion for the research described here, it also created in me some assumptions about the students in my study. Collectively, these coalesced into one overarching theory; namely, that, as students attending a predominantly low-income, primarily black school, the students in my research group would have already internalized limitations regarding their personal identities and their potential for academic achievement. My awareness of this supposition allowed me to both resist and interrogate it in the course of my work and research, thus lessening its potential for prejudicing my findings. Although there is always the possibility of improving outcomes for any group of students, this becomes especially relevant with groups of students that have historically experienced poor or sub-norm outcomes. Black students fall into this latter category. African American children are failing in record numbers in the American public education system. Tomes of contemporary research offer solutions to this pandemic, many of them even focusing on the importance of utilizing a culturally relevant pedagogy with our African American children in the classroom. The failing of this research, however, is its failure to recognize the importance of a teacher’s personal reflection on her own experiences in the application of culturally relevant pedagogy – the critical importance of what these individual teachers bring to the table before they pick up culturally relevant pedagogy. This ‘missing link’ denies both teacher and student the opportunity to find empowerment through the vehicle of their own personal identities and lived experiences, and prevents them from using this knowledge of self to further their achievement in the classroom, whether as teacher or as the taught. Among others concerned about the considerable achievement gap between White and Black students, Jonathan Kozol, in his seminal work, Savage Inequalities, documented a 6 multitude of cases in which Black students underperformed in comparison to their White counterparts (1991). Gloria Ladsen-Billings (1994) unequivocally states that “African American students continue to lag significantly behind their White counterparts on all standard measures of achievement” (2). She goes on to argue that teachers who are successful with students who have traditionally been unsuccessful are led by a perspective that places emphasis on academic achievement and cultural competence. These teachers set and maintain high expectations for their students. Teachers must help students see and understand the value in their own culture and extend learning from that point. This dissertation aims to discuss the importance and impact of using culturally relevant pedagogy and black feminist theory to guide and shape classroom praxis to the benefit of students in general, and adolescent African American females in particular. It further examines the influence my own experiences as a black female student have had on my development as a teacher and scholar, and the way these experiences intersect with my implementation of culturally relevant pedagogy and black feminist theory in classroom activities, planning, and assessment. I hypothesize that this integrated approach of culturally relevant pedagogy, black feminist theory, and reflexivity in practice create improved academic outcomes for African American students. Understanding my own identities through the analysis of my personal experiences enables me to model reflective practice for my students, thus offering them personal reflexivity as a powerful, and often untapped, tool for learning and academic growth. This is demonstrated in the written and socially observed progress made by students in my research group. My research seeks to analyze and explore the idea of encouraging cultural competence and the intrinsic value of personal and individual culture. This research provides an opportunity 7 to give voice to what so many Black students experience – trying to fit in but not totally assimilating at the risk of losing self – losing identity with the community that gave you the tools to survive. I have chosen to focus my research for this project on the experiences of Black adolescent females. Although my research structure can be extrapolated successfully to other populations, I have chosen these specific limitations for five primary reasons: (1) the population was readily available in an accessible setting amenable to research work, (2) the student’s experiences were likely to be much like my own, thus facilitating both analysis and reciprocity in learning and teaching, (3) the population has historically experienced marginalization, (4) my sample of subjects is small in number and only includes girls which may not be an accurate representation of all classroom populations, and (5) the theoretical frame for this study has limitations due to the parameters outlined by Black feminist theory. My work with these students sought to identify the commonalities in our shared experience and to minimize the effects of marginalization on students’ lives and self-concepts. By encouraging my students to find their voices, and to share their stories, I implicitly demonstrated to them that I valued those things, and by extension, that I valued their culture, both those aspects that I shared, and those unique to them. In doing so, I empowered them and gave them permission to achieve and succeed that had historically been denied them. My goal as a teacher is to help others create meaning and understanding of their experiences to transcend oppression and help others do the same. Reflecting on my life experiences as both student and teacher enables me to empower students through knowledge construction and meaning making of their own worlds. By utilizing the tenets of Black feminist theory, this dissertation will be the springboard from which other teachers can launch research aimed at transforming and reforming education for young Black girls. Among my goals for this work, therefore, are the following: 8 - to become a better classroom teacher through the application of this research; - to offer practical and applicable strategies to using culturally relevant pedagogy and reflective practice to enhance and support the academic success of African American students; and - to offer teachers a blueprint, through the vehicle of my own experiences, of how to reflect on their personal identities and how to use that knowledge to alter and improve their practice with their own students. Researchers acknowledge that schools are failing Black children in record numbers (Ogbu, 1988; Kozol, 1991; Delpit, 2002; Perry et al, 2002). They are not simply failing them academically, but also failing them by not meeting their needs and by refusing to recognize that Black children have been relegated to the margins of society. By reflecting on my own experiences as a Black student, and by analyzing the experiences of my own Black students from both an insider’s (self) perspective, and an outsider’s (teacher’s) vantage point, I am able to examine concrete ways to overcome these failings, and to empower traditionally disenfranchised students to greater academic success and personal growth. 9 CHAPTER TWO: LITERATURE REVIEW It is a widely held belief that public schools are places where students get a firm educational foundation, the necessary cultural capital, and the tools necessary to be empowered and successful in mainstream American society. We view schools as a sort of ‘training field’ for developing productive members of society, and trust that during their school years, students will gain both an appreciation of shared national history and an understanding and ability to use the skills necessary for present-day success, including reading comprehension, advanced mathematics, and technological proficiency. We entrust our children to the public school system because we believe it is a tool that will enable their success as working, productive adult members of our society. And this belief is often borne out as true - in public school systems where students come from middle and higher income families or when students come from families where parents have experienced success in school. It tends not to bear out, however, when students come from a place of poverty or from families where parents have not experienced school success. This disconnect between intended outcome and actual result poses a number of critical concerns about education and the role that schools and teachers play in educating students, particularly those students most in need of the benefits public schools theoretically have to offer. At the core of this study is the connection between several significant issues in the United States’ educational system: the failure of schools to effectively and consistently educate marginalized students (i.e. impoverished students, students of color), the increased need for educational reform measures in light of attrition and failure rates for students across the country, and the vital role that teachers play in student success or failure (teacher accountability). While this study looks at each of these connections, it highlights the teacher - her view of self, her 10 pedagogical skills, and her role and responsibility for educating students – particularly marginalized students, and in the case of this study, specifically marginalized Black female students. Although I don’t want to minimize the significance of any of the aforementioned roadblocks to successful public school education, I am specifically interested in dissecting both the role and individual persona of the classroom teacher to investigate the ways that her identities influence her classroom performance and the subsequent success or failure of her students. In this study, the teacher under the microscope is myself – I am aware of my own accountability in the education of my students; my goal is to reflect deeply so that I can improve my classroom practice, and enhance my students’ educational experiences in my classroom. In order to do this effectively, I will examine my own experience within the American public education system – both the ways my experience was shaped by the history of that system and the way in which my learning both benefited and suffered from those historical influences. The literature will give a broad view of the educational system and its role in educating Black students. It highlights educational reform measures from busing and integration to culturally relevant pedagogical teaching methods. It then takes a more narrow approach to educating Black students from the perspective of teacher responsibility. This chapter begins with a glimpse into the role of education in the lives of Blacks from post-slavery to today. Historical Perspectives on Education Historically, the educational process for African-Americans has been termed “literacy for liberation.” James Anderson (1988) in The Education of Blacks in the South, 1860-1935 reminded us that for post-slavery Blacks, education was pursued because it was how you asserted yourself as a free person, how you claimed your humanity. In 1964, Septima Clark published an article entitled Literacy and Liberation detailing the importance of education to 11 Blacks in the Civil Rights era. In this article, she described the accomplishments of the Citizenship School movement in the South. These schools were formed to motivate Black people to take control of their lives. One such school was the Highlander Folk School tucked away in the hills of Tennessee. The Highlander Folk School was one of the few places where Black people could go to dialogue about their oppression and enact plans that would help them prepare to work in their own communities to better their lives. The Black community indicted the public school system for attempting to make Black children assimilate and proclaimed a communal need to “maintain a clear identity of themselves . . . if they were going to make a contribution to the struggle for liberation” (Hale, 2). This proclamation resulted in the creation of “alternative schools” for Blacks during the 1960s. According to Hale (1982) these “alternative schools” were created to address the issues of education for identity and struggle and their premise was ideology, culture, and values. As bell hooks (1994) notes, “For Black folks, teaching-educating was fundamentally political because it was rooted in the anti-racist struggle” (2). Black education was deemed important and was highly prioritized by the Black community. In later years, education for Blacks was an issue of survival because so many Black students were being “miseducated.” Perry et al (2003) suggested that education for Blacks in the post-Civil Rights era required that schools be organized to forge the identities of Black students as achievers. Literacy – the ability to read and understand text in a variety of forms – is central to school achievement in the 21st century. Paraphrasing a variety of sources, Gadsden (1995) writes, “In the African-American community, views of literacy historically have been developed out of an intergenerational legacy of hope, valuing of education, and cultural uplift” (2). Indeed, “literacy has been envisioned as an empowering and liberating possession” (Gadsden, 2). 12 Today, Black youths often feel disenfranchised in public school classrooms. The literacy and education so important to their parents and grandparents, while still seeming valuable, doesn’t feel accessible or relevant. According to studies conducted by Ogbu and Weis (cited in Gadsden, 1995), “access to literacy may appear to depend almost entirely on their willingness to replace their social and cultural values with those of institutional structures, without any assurance that those structures will accept them” (5). In order to counteract this perception, schools must provide spaces that are deliberately intended to shield Black students from racism, incorporate a narrative that talks about Black achievement in the wake of constraints and limitations, make attempts to create desire, inspire hope, develop and sustain optimism, and create a learning environment that teaches students the contextual behaviors necessary for achievement (Perry, 99). Research today contends that education for Black students be based upon a culturally relevant pedagogy and that teachers be culturally competent in order to teach utilizing this method (Gay, 2000; Howard, 2003; Foster, 1997; Delpit, 2002). An example of a cultural competence model is Carol Lee’s (2003) work on cultural modeling. In her work, teachers employ the culturally driven life experiences of students in the context of literacy and language learning. When children come to school and the information taught and valued is not the same information that they value based on life experiences, it creates cultural conflict (Hale 1982). Rather than create this conflict, or require the disavowal by Black students of their social and cultural values, it is critical to empower students to “use [their] voice in the service of [their] vision[s]” (Audre Lorde) of themselves as educated, successful students. 13 What Black children need is an educational system that recognizes their strengths, ability, and culture. They also need an educational system that incorporates them into the learning process (Hale 2001), rather than situating them outside of it. Educational Experiences of Black Women/Girls In public schools, Black girls and women frequently experience limitations on three fronts: as females, as racial minorities, and often as economically disadvantaged students. Numerous researchers have shown that Black girls’/women’s experiences in educational settings range from that of being silenced and ignored to overt oppression and hostility (Bailey, 2001; hooks, 1994; Kyyro & Kane, 2001). Despite this trifecta of challenges presented to Black girls/women in schools, the impact of racism and sexism on Black females in academic settings is rarely examined in scholarly research. The research that does exist almost uniformly presents themes of silencing, ignoring, and dehumanizing as central experiences of Black female students (Bailey, 2001; Kyyro & Kane, 2001). In her book, Women Teaching for Change, Kathleen Weiler (1988) notes that in spite of the oppressive factors influencing their educational experiences, Black girls frequently utilize schooling as a tool for upward mobility, often positively impacting their families’ status as well as their own. This further supports the findings of Cunningham and Foney (2002) and Kyyro and Kane (2001). They found that Black girls have a unique relationship to education, in large part because they consistently choose to use education to challenge social and systemic inequalities, rather than becoming victims of the inequalities that society and its institutions seek to perpetuate. In fact, according to Waters (2004), “legacies of resistance and accomplishment are a major element” in Black women’s interaction with public education, and whether they choose to resist the educational system or to 14 excel within it, their response to education inevitably becomes a significant element in their identity. Identity There are many research studies that discuss race, gender, and identity formation for Black adolescents (Ogbu, 1988; Fordham, 1993; Gadsden, 1995). The search for identity among adolescents involves several dimensions of their lives: vocational plans, religious beliefs, values, political affiliations, gender roles and ethnic identities (Jackson, 2005). Adolescent identity, then, is a complex and ever-changing organism. By the time adulthood is reached, identity is typically more fixed than fluid, and while this is important for one’s personal sense of inner balance and stability, it can also become a liability to a classroom teacher struggling to interact within the ocean of adolescent identities that make up her classroom. A teacher unwilling to examine, and in some cases even adjust, her personal identity may find her teaching efforts thwarted by tides of adolescent resistance. This study begins with a look at the layers that make up my identity. They include being an African-American, a firefighter, a student, a teacher, a researcher, a woman, and a feminist. Each of my identities in some way affects what I do in the classroom. Dorothy Holland (2004) states that identities are the stories we tell ourselves about who we are and that teachers need to figure out how to develop these identities for themselves, and to help their students develop their identities, in order to help children achieve. Cognitively developing our identities is a complex task. It is even more complex for some of us than for others based upon the layers of expectation layered onto our race, culture, gender, and backgrounds by societal stereotypes and prejudices, and by our upbringing in the face of these social constraints. The negotiation required to reconcile the contradiction between these socially controlling images and the reality of internally 15 defined images of self (Hill-Collins, 2000, 100) can create densely fibrous layers that can be difficult to penetrate and peel away in the search for authentic self. Carter and Goodwin (1994) stress that the racial identity levels of educators influence how they perceive and interact with students. Their worldviews and racial identities influence their behavior, attitudes, and instructional practice (Bennett 1986). When race and culture are essential in a teacher’s worldview, the teacher is more apt to foster a student’s diversity and respond proactively by implementing curricula and pedagogy that are relevant (Banks 1994). It is imperative that teachers research their own identities, including race, culture, gender, and background to determine how or if they affect student achievement. According to Allard and Santoro (2006), the connection between teachers’ personal and professional identities and the ways in which these identities play out in the classroom and impact student learning have not received enough scholarly attention. They write: Recent research has focused on how class and ethnic differences are inscribed in educational practices (Gordon et al., 2000; Reay, 2001; Walkerdine et al., 2001; McLeod & Yates, 2003) but does so in terms of constructions of student identities – not with regards to teaching identities. Other researchers, including Ball et al. (2001) and Teese and Polesel (2003), consider how schooling processes contribute to classed and gendered outcomes for students. While some attention has been paid to how gender, socioeconomic status and ‘race’ impact on teaching identities (see Connell, 1985; Brown et al., 2000), the ways in which difference is played out in classroom interactions between teachers and pupils is under-researched. (Allard & Santoro, 2006, 116, emphasis added) Although it is clear that one’s identity as a person must influence one’s identity as a teacher, the ways in which this ‘classroom identity’ is shaped have not been closely scrutinized. What impact does a teacher’s personal identity have on her professional one? How are those two identities different, and how does the teacher negotiate the space between them, both for herself and for her students? Suominen (2006) writes: “I think we form an understanding of who we are by reflecting on the documents we create or accept as presentations of self- whether they are stories, 16 private or public images or writing, or icons and representations of an identified ideal” (141). This research, and this dissertation, which is the summative product of this research, represents my work to clarify my understanding of my identity as a teacher. As Walkington (2005) notes, this is not to be confused with my role as a teacher (54). Citing the research of Mayer (1999), Walkington (2005) asserts that a teacher’s identity is “distinct from that of teachers’ functional roles” (54). She notes that a teacher’s role “encapsulates the things the teacher does in performing the functions required of her/him as a teacher” while teacher identity is “a more personal thing and indicates how one identifies with being a teacher and how one feels as a teacher” (Walkington, 2005, 54, citing Mayer, 1999, 6-7). Walkington (2005) further adds that “teacher identity is based on the core beliefs one has about teaching and being a teacher; beliefs that are continuously formed and reformed through experience” (54). Identity, then, both personal and professional, is a fluid and ever-shifting concept, and so must be constantly reexamined and explored. In her article, “Negotiating a teacher identity: An African American teacher’s struggle to teach in test-driven contexts,” Agee (2004) writes “Teacher identity, as described here, is a discursive space where an imagined role is negotiated among possible roles” (747). She goes on to propose that “a teacher also brings a desire to construct a unique identity as a teacher and that in various contexts of work, she negotiates and renegotiates that identity” (Agee, 2004, 749). Initially, my classroom identity incorporated firmness and strictness in classroom management and high expectations and a demanding persona in instruction and assessment. As an early teacher, my outside identities sometimes merged into my classroom practice, as I occasionally had to come to school still wearing my firefighter’s uniform. This gave students a window into my identity outside the classroom. 17 As my career progressed, and I became more experienced and comfortable in the classroom, my identity shifted again and I became an “othermother,” able to negotiate the boundaries of classroom praxis and personal protector for my students. This identity enabled me to function as both a teacher responsible for academic instruction, and as a member of students’ extended families, able and expected to scold, correct, encourage, and inspire. When I entered graduate school and began to identify myself as a scholar as well as a teacher, I learned that much of my classroom practice was connected to the tenets of Black Feminist Theory. I found it both challenging and empowering to find elements of myself in an established academic school of thought. Black Feminist Theory The best feminist analysis insists that the inquirer place herself in the same critical pane as the subject, thereby subjecting the entire research process to scrutiny…the researcher appears not as an invisible anonymous voice of authority but as a real individual (Slocum 2001). Because I was encouraged, from an early age, to develop a sense of myself as a strong, smart Black woman, I was able to negotiate the public school system successfully, and to find empowerment in the educational process and experience. I have learned, however, through both my experiences as a teacher and my research as a scholar, that this is not the experience of all, or even a majority of, Black women in public school. Black feminist thought encompasses theoretical interpretations of Black women’s reality by those who live it. It is a critical social theory that seeks to empower Black women within the context of social injustice sustained by intersecting oppressions (Collins, 2000). Black feminist theory is a body of research committed to social justice and the liberation of Black women from the oppressive forces of racism, sexism, and classism (Collins 1991; hooks 1989; and Lorde 18 1984). Collins (1990) adds that “Black feminist thought fosters a fundamental paradigmatic shift that rejects additive approaches to oppression. Instead of starting with gender and then adding in other variables such as age, sexual orientation, race, social class, and religion, Black feminist thought sees these distinctive systems of oppression as being part of one overarching structure of domination” (222). According to Collins (2000), “Identity is not the goal but rather the point of departure in the process of self-definition. In this process, Black women journey toward an understanding of how our personal lives have been fundamentally shaped by intersecting oppressions of race, gender, sexuality, and class” (114). Collins’ work on Black feminist thought identifies several core themes of a Black woman’s standpoint, including the legacy of struggle against racism and sexism waged by Black women over time (Collins p 22). She also identifies several other themes that she calls “habits of survival” and strategies for success. They replace the maligning images of Black womanhood with self-defined images of Black women’s activism as mothers, teachers, and community leaders. Distinguishing features of Black Feminist Theory, according to Collins (2000, 22-39), include: 1. 2. 3. 4. 5. Resisting oppression Linking individual experiences and ideas Black women’s experiences as a group vs. other researchers views of us Contributions of Black women intellectuals Significance of change in social conditions must be dynamic In addition to these distinguishing features, Collins (2000, 257-275) postulates the following tenets as central to the study and practice of Black Feminist Theory: 1. 2. 3. 4. 5. Lived experience as criterion for credibility Dialogue to show connectedness Ethic of Caring (talking with the heart) Personal Accountability Knowledge for empowerment 19 The hallmark, then, of Black feminist theory, is “its insistence that both the changed consciousness of individuals and the social transformation of political and economic institutions constitute essential ingredients for social change” (Collins, 1990, 221). Consequently, the practitioner of Black Feminist Theory understands that the needs of the marginalized and disenfranchised aren’t usurped by the needs of the upwardly mobile and the academic elite. Individual struggle must be connected with the larger feminist movement so that new black feminists don’t have to reinvent theory and search history that wasn’t received. ‘Connectedness’ is also a prominent theme among black feminist scholars in their examination of black family and community life. The use of a “both/and conceptual lens of the simultaneity of race, class, and gender oppression and of the need for a humanist vision of community creates new possibilities for empowering Afrocentric feminist knowledge” (Collins, 1990, 221). Several studies have described the strong kinship bonds that exist in black communities. These studies have shown that the extensive kin-networks existing in black communities contribute significantly both to the material and non-material well-being of children (Hill, 1972; Stack, 1974). Among the most significant of these kin-relationships is the motherchild bond. Collins (2000) observed: “The mother/daughter relationship is one fundamental relationship among Black women. Countless Black mothers have empowered their daughters by passing on the everyday knowledge essential to survival as African-American women. Black daughters identify the profound influence that their mothers have had upon their lives” (Collins, 2000, 102). Consequently, this relationship forms a critical component of Black women’s identities. Though an identity as a learner/scholar is more difficult to transmit, Black mothers have historically made every effort to pass on to their children, and especially to their daughters, a sense of the value of education. Collins (2000) observes that despite the dangers historically 20 present in the pursuit of education for Black women, “mothers routinely encourage Black daughters to develop skills to confront oppressive conditions. Learning that they will work and that education is a vehicle for advancement can also be seen as ways of enhancing positive selfdefinitions and self-valuations in Black girls” (184). Though often described as “overprotective”, these Black mothers “manage to raise daughters who are self-reliant and assertive” (Collins, 2000, 185). Citing the work of Rosalie Troester, Collins (2000) notes that Black mothers use a variety of tactics to protect their daughters “isolating them from the dangers of the larger world until they are old and strong enough to function as autonomous women. Often these dikes are religious, but sometimes they are built with education, family, or the restrictions of a close-knit . . . community” (186, emphasis mine). In developing a black feminist epistemology, Collins (1991) explored the influence of non-kin women in the community on the social and intellectual development of black children. This practice of women “assist[ing] blood-mothers by sharing mothering responsibilities [has] been apparent in African American communities since the first slaves were brought to the United States” (Beauboeuf-Lafontant, 1999, cited in Guiffrida, 2005, 715). Collins writes that “historically, this notion of Black women as community othermothers for all Black children often allowed African-American women to treat biologically unrelated children as if they were members of their own families.” (190). In fact, “the practice of othermothering soon extended beyond caring for children’s basic needs to become the primary means of educating slave children (Dubey, 1995, cited in Guiffrida, 2005, 715). Today, this practice further affords Black women opportunities “to educate and socialize children in their own ways and traditions in order to uplift the Black community and to assist them in resisting White domination” (Guiffrida, 2005, 715). Collins concludes that black women teachers often share in this role. In the 21 classroom, othermothering occurs when African-American teachers have a strong belief that students are able to achieve in spite of data that states otherwise. Foster’s (1993) research supports this, finding that of the fourteen seasoned Black women teachers in her study “most established kinlike relationships with their students,” and “manifested an approach consistent with the philosophy of othermothering [by demonstrating] a belief in the potential of every African American student to succeed academically” (cited in Guiffrida, 2005, 716). Irvine (2002) asserts that “teachers who serve as othermothers in the classroom focus on believing in their students, demanding the best from them, disciplining them sternly and for their own good: teaching as an othermother is certainly a calling” (142). Allowing for the tendency of non-kin to take on social roles (Hill, 1972; Stack, 1974), Collins extended the concept of kin-networks, conceding that this ‘non-kin status’ can be achieved by individuals occupying institutional roles, like teachers. Theresa Perry (2002) expanded upon this notion, stating that for Blacks, becoming literate obliged one to teach others. Hence, the image of teacher as activist. One of my identities is a feminist, and as such, that plays out in the classroom. Black feminist thought more clearly defines the way that I do things. Black Feminist Theory, with a community model that stresses “connections, caring, and personal accountability” (Collins, 1990, 223) not only helps me to define who I am, but also to embrace who I am. In the words of Patricia Collins (1990), it empowers me to “value [my] self-definition [as a Black woman], to participate in a Black women’s activist tradition, invoke an Afrocentric feminist epistemology as central to [my] worldview, and view the skills gained in schools as part of a focused education for Black community development” (230). 22 Further research on Black feminist thought helped me make connections to the work of master teacher and educational researcher, Gloria Ladsen-Billings. Ladsen-Billings (1994) conducted research with Black classroom teachers who were successful in teaching Black students and found that those teachers’ success was largely due to their application of culturally relevant pedagogy in their classrooms. Using culturally relevant pedagogy as an instructional model, I discovered, would enable me to actively apply the tenets of Black Feminist Theory not only to myself, as a teacher reflecting on her identity, but also to my students as they negotiated their dual search for both self- and classroom knowledge. Culturally Relevant Pedagogy Classroom teaching that is consistent with the cultural orientations of ethnically diverse students has been called many names, including: culturally relevant, culturally responsive, sensitive, centered, congruent, reflective, mediated, contextualized, synchronized, and responsive (Gay, 2000). No matter what it’s called, its aim is to empower students intellectually, socially, emotionally, and politically by using cultural referents to impart knowledge, skills, and attitudes (Steele, 1992). For consistency, I will use the term “culturally relevant pedagogy” unless quoting directly from a scholarly work that uses different terminology. Gay defines culturally responsive teaching as using cultural knowledge, prior experiences, frames of references, and performance styles of ethnically diverse students to make learning encounters both relevant and effective for them (p 29). Culturally responsive teaching is validating and affirming. Gay outlines five key characteristics: • It acknowledges the legitimacy of the cultural heritages of different ethnic groups, both as legacies that affect students’ dispositions, attitudes, and approaches to learning and as worthy content to be taught in the formal curriculum. • It builds bridges of meaningfulness between home and school experiences as well as between academic abstractions and lived sociocultural realities. 23 • It uses a wide variety of instructional strategies that are connected to different learning styles. • It teaches students to know and praise their own and each other’s cultural heritages. • It incorporates multicultural information, resources, and materials in all the subjects and skills routinely taught in schools (Gay, p 29). Gay also makes note of the discontinuities between school, low-income students, and students of color as important factors in their low achievement. She further states that the academic achievement of said students will increase if “schools” and “teaching” are changed so that they draw and reflect on the cultural and language strengths of the diverse population of students being served by that particular school system (p ix). In short, as Hanley (1999) states, “at the center of culturally relevant instruction is the culture of the learner” (1). She posits that in order to develop a culturally relevant instructional program, “educators need to understand the core beliefs and experiences of their [the students’] culture” (1). She adds that “Students whose culture is respected are empowered to learn because the negative self-image that accompanies the rejection of their experience is eliminated. An appreciation of what they already know can motivate further learning by validating the idea that students can learn” (2). Similarly, Gordon (1993) suggests that teachers of Black children “teach their students how to critically view the messages of the dominant society . . . Only with a knowledge of their own culture can African American students more equitably reconstruct how they have been represented in the past, and create a more positive future” (453). King (1994) further emphasizes that Black students need a curriculum that “emphasizes the need for a transformative process to change both the educational system and the society which supports it” (31). She adds that these students need to be “actively engaged in the creative process of change” 24 by being taught “to critically analyze their history, lives, and education”, thus “empower[ing] them to make changes in their condition” (King, 1994, 38). Entrenched in culturally relevant pedagogy is the use of personal experience by both teacher and student to make connections – connections to each other and the subject matter. Gloria Ladsen-Billings (1992) used a case study to shed light on ways that culturally relevant pedagogy had a positive impact in the classroom. Additionally, in her book Dreamkeepers (1994), she outlines the basics of culturally relevant teaching which focus on what culturally relevant teachers do. She states that teachers with culturally relevant practices have high selfesteem and a high regard for others. They view themselves as professionals and strongly identify with their craft. She further states that these teachers view themselves as part of the community; they view teaching as giving something back to the community, and they encourage students to do the same. She asserts that teachers utilizing culturally relevant practices help students make connections between their community, national, and global identities. Two final tenets that Ladsen-Billings outlines are that teachers really believe that all students can succeed and that teachers view teaching as “pulling knowledge out” – like “mining” (p 34). Culturally relevant teaching helps students to move past the “blaming the victim” mentality and search for the structural and symbolic foundations of inequity and justice (Ladsen-Billings as cited in The Skin That We Speak p 111). The tenets of culturally responsive pedagogy according to Jacqueline Jordan Irvine (2002) are very similar to those outlined by both Gay and Ladsen-Billings. Irvine suggests that teachers should: (1) have an attitude of respect toward cultural differences, a belief that all students are capable of learning, and a sense of self-efficacy; (2) know the cultural resources that their students bring to class and be aware of the culture of the classroom; (3) implement an 25 enriched curriculum for all students; (4) build bridges between the instructional content, materials, and methods, and the cultural background of their students; and (5) be aware of cultural differences when evaluating students (p. 2). Indeed, in order to be a practitioner of culturally relevant pedagogy, “teachers must e prepared to engage in a rigorous and oftentimes painful reflection process about what it means to teach” (Howard, 2003, 198). This is equally true whether one is teaching students who come from similar or different racial and cultural backgrounds than one’s own. Irvine also outlines instructional strategies for Black teachers’ success in the classroom. These include cooperative learning, values and character education, performance, high involvement and active learning, use of community language and dialect, and maintaining discipline (p 41). She asserts that the instructional practices of Black teachers have a great deal to offer researchers and school policy makers as they attempt to find solutions to help AfricanAmerican students be successful in schools. Foster (1993) concurs, stating that “an appropriate pedagogy for Black students cannot be limited only to academics, but must deal with political, social, and economic circumstances of children’s lives and communities” (in Guiffrida, 2005, 717). Only in this way, she posits, can Black students be enabled to “challenge the status quo” (Foster, 1993, 118). My identity as a teacher has been shaped by a confluence of factors and theories. As a Black woman, my educational experiences and opportunities have been directly influenced by the historical shifts in this country’s thinking about education for Blacks in general. As a student, I have developed an understanding of the world in concert with my own experiences using Black Feminist Theory as a guideline from which to work. Wanting to utilize all of myself and my diverse experiences to inform and empower my students, I have framed my identity as a teacher 26 around the tenets of Culturally Relevant Pedagogy. As a researcher, I have learned that in order to embody the classroom identity which I envision for myself, I must understand and embrace each of these elements and reflect on how they impact my praxis with students. Doing this kind of reflective work clarifies my vision of myself, and illuminates a path for me as an educator and scholar: I become more fully myself and the teacher I want to be. Reflexive Practice Reflection on one’s own perceptions, beliefs, experiences, and practices is core activity for all teachers – pre-service and in-service, in schools and universities. Outwardly challenging ideas that one holds dear is not always particularly comfortable, but as a practice serves to affirm as well as to confront existing positions. (Walkington 2005) One way to build from our histories is through the practice of self-reflection. While reflective practice is important to the development of all professionals, it is particularly necessary for teachers, and it is absolutely imperative for practitioners of teacher research. Hobson (2001) notes: “This kind of work [teacher research] is personally grounded in a teacher’s own experience and is expressed in his or her own voice. Reflection is a process of making sense of one’s experience and telling the story of one’s journey” (8). If we are to become more effective teachers, we need to become more reflective teachers. Webb (1996) states that we need to articulate our theories of learning, critically examine them, and replace those parts that do not work. Tite (1986) reminds us that the act of reflecting is a fundamental part of a teacher’s work because reflection allows us to learn from our pedagogical practices. Citing the work of Schon (1983) and Grant and Zeichner (1984), Hobson (2001) adds that “reflection leads to better action” (9) and “the reflective teacher is a more effective teacher” (9). Reflecting on our own performances is one form of feedback that allows us to continually challenge our classroom behavior so that teaching is enhanced and developed. 27 Irvine (2002) claims that teachers will not be effective in the classroom unless they first confront their own worldviews, racism and biases, and learn about students’ cultures and perceptions and how they view the world. Schon (1987) describes this as “reflection in action” – an art that good teachers display daily. He adds that it doesn’t only take the form of words, it is internalized and helps teachers become better at what they do. Beattie (2002) concludes that self-reflection is a “holistic and narrative pedagogy” in which practices in the classroom are focused on enabling teachers to find their voices in relation to the theory and practice of teaching. Reflective practice begins with critical reflection in which you question and examine your own passionately held ideas about your teaching. In addition, examining your own positive and negative learning experiences can help you understand why you gravitate toward certain ways of doing things and avoid others (Brookfield 1995). Reflecting on your own performance as a teacher is one form of feedback. Keeping a reflective diary about your experience as a teacher helps you to reflect and learn from experience. McGill & Brockbank (1998) maintain that consciously engaging in reflective practice enables the teacher to learn from and therefore potentially enhance their practice Reflexive Culturally Relevant Pedagogy As I studied the contemporary scholarship related to reflexive praxis and culturally relevant pedagogy, and examined each within the contexts of my experiences as both teacher and student, I began to see them less as distinct paradigms for classroom practice with Black students, and more as dual sides of a single concept, which, when embraced in its wholeness, could be all the more powerful. For this reason, I have coined the term ‘reflexive culturally relevant pedagogy’ to describe the joining of these theories into one practice. This term 28 represents the central tenets of both reflexivity (i.e. – regular reflection on lessons and their success in reaching students) and culturally relevant pedagogy (i.e. – designing lessons with goal of reaching students and empowering them as agents in their own learning). Examining my work for evidence of reflexive culturally relevant pedagogy became a touchstone of my research. I hypothesized that the marriage of these theories as a unified concept would be helpful in addressing some of the unique challenges faced by Black girls in the American public school system, and in urban schools in particular. Moreover, it would help me to decipher my own challenges as a Black, middleclass, feminist teacher teaching marginalized Black girls. RCRP allowed me to acknowledge, examine, and undo any preconceptions about race, poverty, and academic abilities that I held about my students which could have interfered with my teaching them successfully. 29 CHAPTER THREE: METHODS As an intern completing my M.Ed., one of my assignments was to compile a portfolio presentation of my teaching experiences. This assignment required me to create, implement, and reflect on lessons I’d taught during my internship year. I called my portfolio “A Work in Progress” because that was, and is, how I see myself. It helped me to think about myself as a teacher and about how I needed to constantly change in order to meet the needs of my students. I asked myself, “How can I be an effective teacher?” “How can I be an example for my students?” “What do I have in common with the students I want to teach and how can I teach them effectively?” These questions laid the foundation for a career in reflective practice, and as I began my doctoral studies, they paved the way for my research inquiries. This study allows the teacher to be researcher from both an insider’s and an outsider’s perspective. This study is in no way typified by traditional research methods; instead, it embraces an alternative perspective shaped by tenets of feminist research as well as identified best practices from the school of qualitative research. When teachers conduct research, one important aspect to be considered is self-reflection, and I have been mindful of this both while conducting and analyzing this research. Every facet of this study has been chosen and/or designed to facilitate and encourage such self-reflection. The school where I chose to conduct my research is a prime example of this conscious decision making. On the one hand, it is a neighborhood school, and is therefore similar to schools I attended in my youth because it draws from the community in which it resides. On the other hand, however, it is a low-performing school, and is characterized, not by the ethic of caring and engagement I recall from my own elementary schools, but by a marked sense of isolation and despair. Research Site This study took place at Beaumont School, an inner-city public school. Beaumont enrolls students from pre-kindergarten to eighth grade and there is a large transient population. The school was chosen not because it is exemplary and not because it has managed to avoid the problems of other schools with large minority populations, but rather because it is “typical” of 30 other urban schools. In these schools both well-meaning teachers and staff often struggle with ways to help their students overcome the problems that they bring with them from the larger society that will not vanish when they leave school. Beaumont is a neighborhood school. The neighborhood that surrounds the school is predominantly Black, as are most of the students. There are 413 students enrolled. Of the 413, there are 198 females and 215 males. Beaumont has 406 Black students, 1 White student, and 6 multi-racial students. The teaching staff consists of 60% White teachers and 40% Black teachers. Both the principal and the assistant principal are Black women. The school’s mission statement asserts that Beaumont is “a community of learners, families, teachers, and advocates who work together to create successful and productive citizens through individual, academic and social achievement. Beaumont provides a safe environment in which there is mutual respect and pride in our school, thereby producing a prosperous community of young responsible learners.” Gaining Access I worked at Beaumont for two years as part of my graduate assistantship. I tutored students in grades five through eight. My assistantship was funded by a program called GEAR UP (Gaining Early Awareness and Readiness for Undergraduate Programming) that aims to expose students to colleges and careers with the expectation that they will graduate from high school and go on to college. GEAR UP concentrates primarily on the academic subjects of math and science. These are the two areas where students often fail to excel on state mandated proficiency exams. 31 During my first year at Beaumont, I had several conversations with the principal about teaching at the school. This could not be negotiated due to my schedule. I did, however, broach the subject of working with some of the students at Beaumont as part of my dissertation research. The principal thought that this was a great idea and over the course of the next several months approached the school’s board of education about this proposal. The school board members were briefed about my role as a tutor through the GEAR UP Program. They were also given a copy of my research project. The Participants Participants were selected via purposeful sampling, a research technique in which “the researcher selects research subjects from a population according to preset criteria – eg: sex, geographic location, age, place of residence” (education.massey.ac.nz/wellington_online/bedu6205/course/205dictqual.htm, 2007). I worked exclusively with ten eighth grade female students at Beaumont who were chosen by their English teacher, according to their perceived likelihood of benefit from the project. I was not involved in the selection the process, and was given no knowledge of the girls’ academic or social backgrounds prior to beginning the study. All of the girls were Black because there were no White females in the eighth grade at Beaumont. The participants spent one and one-half hours each day with me for ten consecutive weeks during the school year. I worked with the girls in a single small discussion group. Utilizing a small group format provided several advantages, including: - group members had time to listen and reflect on their own experiences, - each meeting presented the possibility that one member’s comments could trigger another member’s thoughts or memories, and 32 - I was able to hear contrasting viewpoints when group members disagreed about a particular topic. Additionally, there is some research that suggests that students of color are more comfortable working in small groups than participating in individual interviews, and that group discussion therefore better represents students’ real world dialogue and experience (Bangura, cited in Guiffrida 2005). The primary disadvantages posed by using a small group format for research are that “it is sometimes difficult to prevent one . . .group member from dominating, and thus shaping, the entire conversation. Additionally, some participants may be uncomfortable sharing personal information in a group format” (Guiffrida 2005). I counteracted these disadvantages by empowering the participants. They designed the rules and operational format for our group meetings, and these rules included the caveat that no one would be pressured to speak against her will, and that personal information shared within the group remained strictly within the group. As our sessions continued and the girls gained trust in me and one another, their sharing visibly increased and I became increasingly confident that this potential obstacle had been surmounted. . During the workshop, each study participant was protected by the guidelines set forth by the University’s Institutional Review Board. The girls, along with their parents or guardians, signed a waiver acknowledging that they (the girls) were not obligated to participate, they could withdraw at any time, that there would be no repercussions should they decide to discontinue participation, and that their class grade would in no way be affected should they cease to participate. Additionally, each girl was assured anonymity. They are referred to by pseudonyms only. No compensation was given to the participants. At the conclusion of the ten weeks, I remained at the school in the capacity of tutor as outlined by my graduate assistantship with the GEAR UP Program. In this way the girls 33 continued to interact with me. To facilitate a smooth transition, the girls terminated their work with me at the end of a quarter (10 weeks). Their debriefing included journal writing about the experience and a lesson centering on the topic of beginnings and endings. We also had a small celebration during their lunchtime to acknowledge their accomplishments and commemorate our work together. No other debriefing took place because I continued to work at the school as a mentor through GEAR UP. The Work During the ten-week workgroup study, the rules and format for our meetings were determined by the girls themselves, with my guidance in matters of instructional time and content. We began with what Bogdan and Biklen (1998, cited in Guiffrida 2005) have called “guided conversations,” in which I broached ideas and students shaped them. The use of openended questions was key to this process because such questions allowed the girls to elaborate on their thoughts and feelings, and helped me to gain insight into their potential needs, and by extension, ways that this research might benefit them. Once the group was established, members were given a story each week to read as a group (see Appendix A). The day after reading the story, we held a formal critical literature review governed by the students’ self-selected rules. The rules mandated that all workgroup participants would be addressed by last name only (i.e. Miss Smith, Miss Jones), and that anyone wishing to contribute to the discussion must first raise her hand and be recognized (see Appendix B). These rules insured that everyone felt respected and that everyone’s opinion was valued and given equal weight and attention. I started each discussion group by posing an open-ended question about the story, and the girls then answered the question and began posing questions of their own. Occasionally, guests were invited to participate and contribute. In each session, the focus of discussion was making connections 34 between the literature and the girls’ own lived experiences, thereby applying the tenets of culturally relevant pedagogy within the context of our critical literature review. Data Collection Data was collected from multiple sources. My pedagogical practices were documented through lesson plans, field notes, and a collection of student work. Other artifacts included memos, observer comments, a research log, school documents, and classroom reading materials. Field notes were written during class. These helped me keep track of the setting, any interactions that took place, and the day’s events. At the end of each class session, field notes were expanded to capture an in-depth detail of what occurred in the classroom. In addition to field notes, I kept a research log. In the log, I documented any perceived connections between my pedagogy, my identities, and culturally relevant pedagogy. Student work, lesson plans, classroom reading materials, and both audio and video recordings of group meetings were all used to analyze my application of the tenets of culturally relevant pedagogy. Feminist Research Methodology While this research is informed by Black feminist theory – research from a Black woman’s perspective, I acknowledge that feminist research methodology must be considered. Fine (1992) and Mirza (1995) believe that feminist research places girls’ experiences and those of women at the very core of inquiry. They also create contexts for reflecting on inequalities that lead to action and change. Moreover, they state that feminist research methodology takes into account the researcher’s subjectivity. The students in this study are invited to utilize self-expression and reflection (based on their own experiences). As Fennema (1998) writes: “Females must have a hand in identification of the questions; females’ life experiences become critical, so that the world can be interpreted 35 from a female perspective. So we see subjects as co-investigators, women reporting their own experiences, and women as the main subjects under investigation helping to interpret results.” Valuing and privileging my students’ experiences and identities as learners allowed me to get an in-depth look at their personal experiences and their lives. Qualitative Research Practice According to Creswell (1994) and Merriam (1998), qualitative research examines how people make sense of their lives and their experiences. It emphasizes the importance of interactions between people and the meaning made from those interactions by the participants. Qualitative research also allows the inclusion of the researcher with the research participants, and accepts that there will be subjectivity on the part of the researcher. My choice to work with students in a school setting, and to interrogate my teaching practices as well as their learning made qualitative research an ideal fit for this project. It was important that these African American girls’ points of view, experiences, and perceptions be expressed and understood, without falling victim to a researcher’s need for quantification and generalization. A qualitative approach allowed me to honor both the girls’ experiences and my own by utilizing a rich and wide array of data collected across the many contexts of our lives and learning. Martin (2003) points out that such a diversity of data sources, particularly when working with underrepresented students, “will help us reformulate our understanding of both [their] failure and success.” Teacher as Researcher Teacher research is not uncommon, particularly when schools are progressive and student achievement is high. Most teacher/researcher studies are qualitative and include tools like field notes, analysis of lesson plans, audio or video taped recordings, outside observations by colleagues, and student record keeping in a natural research setting (Baumann 1996). These 36 studies are attempts to illuminate pedagogical acts by researching experience. The aim of the teacher/researcher is to make visible the knowledge that teachers implicitly employ (Posch 1992) and embodies the complex, relational, and constantly negotiated risk between teacher and student. Lytle & Cochran-Smith (1992) state this knowledge is such that teachers build from their own histories and intellectual interests. That process comes easiest to those of us who not only teach but also believe that there is an aspect of our vocation that is sacred; who believe that our mission is to share the intellectual and the spiritual growth of our students, not merely to share information. Ritchie et al (2007) write that “Teacher research is a voluntary but systematic means of gathering data, observing, and surveying students for results that can be used to improve you own – and your colleagues’ – teaching” (42). Emily van Zee (2006) adds that “teachers who conduct research in the context of their own teaching practices can contribute to knowledge about reform-based instruction” (30). Hobson (2001) concurs, stating that, “One of the fundamental benefits of doing teacher research is the opportunity it affords us for perceiving our world a little more freshly. One of the purposes of the research process is to render the familiar a little strange. We want both things at once, to be close to the matter at hand, but also to develop the perspective that comes from a degree of distance” (8). The purpose, then, of teacher research is threefold: 1) to investigate one’s own praxis to determine strengths and areas for improvement, 2) to improve instruction and learning for students, and 3) to contribute to the professional learning community so that others may benefit from one’s work. As Ritchie et al (2007) writes, “Teacher research gives me ownership of my professional growth. Because TR involves reflecting upon one’s practice, it allows me to analyze and improve my teaching all year long” (42). 37 Self-Reflection Reflection on one’s own perceptions, beliefs, experiences, and practices is core activity for all teachers – pre-service and in-service, in schools and universities. Outwardly challenging ideas that one holds dear is not always particularly comfortable, but as a practice serves to affirm as well as to confront existing positions. (Walkington, 2005, 59) One way to build from our histories is through the practice of self-reflection. While reflective practice is important to the development of all professionals, it is particularly necessary for teachers, and it is absolutely imperative for practitioners of teacher research. Hobson (2001) notes: “This kind of work [teacher research] is personally grounded in a teacher’s own experience and is expressed in his or her own voice. Reflection is a process of making sense of one’s experience and telling the story of one’s journey” (8). If we are to become more effective teachers, we need to become more reflective teachers. Webb (1996) states that we need to articulate our theories of learning, critically examine them, and replace those parts that do not work. Tite (1986) reminds us that the act of reflecting is a fundamental part of a teacher’s work because reflection allows us to learn from our pedagogical practices. Citing the work of Schon (1983) and Grant and Zeichner (1984), Hobson (2001) adds that “reflection leads to better action” (9) and “the reflective teacher is a more effective teacher” (9). When teachers reflect on their practice it is identical to ethnographic fieldwork in which written accounts are viewed as texts in which the anthropologist is the principal protagonist (Maynard, 2002). Reflecting on our own performances is one form of feedback that allows us to continually challenge our classroom behavior so that teaching is enhanced and developed. Irvine (2002) claims that teachers will not be effective in the classroom unless they first confront their own worldviews, racism and biases, and learn about students’ cultures and perceptions and how they view the world. Schon (1987) describes this as “reflection in action” – an art that good teachers display daily. He adds that it doesn’t only take the form of words, it is 38 internalized and helps teachers become better at what they do. Beattie (2002) concludes that self-reflection is a “holistic and narrative pedagogy” in which practices in the classroom are focused on enabling teachers to find their voices in relation to the theory and practice of teaching. Reflective practice begins with critical reflection in which you question and examine your own passionately held ideas about your teaching. In addition, examining your own positive and negative learning experiences can help you understand why you gravitate toward certain ways of doing things and avoid others (Brookfield 1995). Reflecting on your own performance as a teacher is one form of feedback. Keeping a reflective diary about your experience as a teacher helps you to reflect and learn from experience. McGill & Brockbank (1998) maintain that consciously engaging in reflective practice enables the teacher to learn from and therefore potentially enhance their practice. This research will incorporate methodologies that are ethnographic and participatory. Spradley (1979) reminds us of the impetus for utilizing life history in ethnographic research. He further states that when life history information is gathered, it requires the researcher to do so over time with high levels of rapport with the subjects. When gathering this kind of data, the focus is on the meanings that the participants place on their life experiences expressed in their own language. Ken Plummer (2002) goes on to say that life stories reveal historical shifts in culture. “They tell of the concern of their time and place. They bridge personal history with personal biography.” I have chosen ethnography to privilege the voice of the subject – my voice. This strategy, which anthropologists refer to as emphasizing the emic of “native” perspective, requires that the opinions expressed by those natives be distinguishable from the voice of the researcher (Clifford 39 and Marcus 1986). Ethnography in education is viewed as research based on participant observation and/or permanent recordings of everyday life in a naturally occurring setting (Delamont and Atkinson 1995). It requires the researcher to use direct observation and to be immersed in the field situation (Spindler 1982). Coffey (1996) points out that in educational ethnographic research, researchers are implicated as experts in their field because of their experience as students. This in turn lends authenticity and authority. Action Research and Participatory Research Popularized in the early 1950s by a group of professors at Columbia Teachers College, action research is the practice of combining action, which is concerned with improving practice and creating conditions for social change, and research, which attempts to create valid knowledge about practice (Anderson et al, 1998, 12). According to Argyris and Schon (1991), the goals and methods of action research include the following: Action research takes its cues – its questions, puzzles, and problems – from the percepts of practitioners within particular, local practice contexts. It bounds episodes of research according to the boundaries of the local context. It builds descriptions and theories within the practice context itself, and tests them there through intervention experiments – that is, though experiments that bear the double burden of testing hypotheses and effecting some (putatively) desired change in the situation (86). It has come under scrutiny for being too ‘soft’, but action research as a method has a rich history, “seeded in human rights activism, social reform movements like civil rights, women’s movements, [and] peace and environmental movements” (Stout, 2006, 195). Since the 1970s, it has evolved and proliferated into “participatory action research, feminist action research, community-based action research, and of particular interest, classroom action research” (Stout, 2006, 195, emphasis mine). 40 Noffke & Stevenson (1995) state that all participatory research must benefit the subjects of the research in some direct way. In this instance, the subjects of the research benefit by using the information that is gained through the research as a means of better understanding and controlling their world. Participatory research has its origins in research performed by the members of one culture on another and so is informed by issues of colonialism and postcolonialism. As Freire (1993) has argued, participatory research was originally designed to resist the intellectual colonialism of western social research into the third world development process. Participatory research developed a methodology for involving disenfranchised people as researchers in pursuit of answers to the questions of their daily struggle and survival. Participatory research is a means of putting research capabilities in the hands of deprived and disenfranchised people so that they can identify themselves as knowing actors; defining their reality, shaping their new identity, naming their history, and transforming their lives for themselves (Horton and Friere 1990). Brydon-Miller (2001) identifies three basic guidelines for participatory research: 1. 2. 3. The research focuses on communities and populations which have traditionally been exploited or oppressed. Participatory research works to address both the specific concerns of the community as well as the fundamental causes of the oppression with the goal of achieving positive social change. Participatory research is at once a process of research, education, and action to which all participants contribute their unique skills and knowledge and through which all participants learn and are transformed. (p. 80). Anderson et al (1994) add that in participatory research, “theory and practice are integrated . . . [and] research and action (including education itself) become a single process” (17). Participatory research embraces both feminist and post-colonial theory, and espouses a 41 wide range of methodologies, including qualitative analysis, observation, story-telling, and ethnography. In this study, I have chosen to employ a fusion of action research and participatory research. By borrowing from both research practices, I have been able to fashion a study that works from a feminist and a Freirean perspective, relying on the most relevant and applicable methods of both research methodologies to investigate my research questions. Because action research “tends to concentrate on an individual or group level of analysis of problems” (Anderson et al, 1994, 17), it provided the perfect platform for examining my student workgroup. However, while I was interested in examining ways to improve teaching practices in the workgroup (a particular emphasis of action research), I was also “concerned with equity/selfreliance/oppression problems” (Anderson et al, 1994, 17), a hallmark of participatory research. Creating this hybrid structure allowed me to fashion a workable and practical model for teacher research, without compromising the integrity of my praxis for student empowerment in the workgroup. Research Process The research questions were addressed using qualitative research methods. According to Jackson (2005), “qualitative methods . . . afford [the researcher] . . . the opportunity to explore participant behavior and expand [his/her] understanding of the interactions that exist within the research context as well as [one’s] own subjective positioning within the project” (87). One hallmark of qualitative research methodology is the variety of artifacts that can be collected, providing a valuable breadth and depth of data for analysis. This variety is of critical importance in qualitative research, as it “give[s] credence to the contextual nature within which both 42 researchers and their research phenomena abide, and to the fact that both are . . . shaped by and embody passions and values that are expressed variably in time and place” (Patton, 2002). In the course of my research, I collected and/or maintained: student work, my reflective journal, daily agendas, lesson plans, observation logs, and taped classroom discussions. At the conclusion of the study, these were sorted and coded according to similar emergent themes and categorized by research question. Although qualitative research allows for and encourages a diversity of data collection sources and methods, educational research tells me that routine is of critical importance in teaching, especially when working with at-risk/underperforming students. For this reason, although the content of lessons varied daily, I instituted a daily agenda for students to follow, thereby giving them the security of the routine, while still allowing for a multiplicity of learning styles and corresponding activities. The first day the girls and I met, they were given a syllabus in the form of a calendar which detailed activities and assignments we would be working on in class and their due dates. The agenda and the syllabus/calendar were both flexible enough to be changed or adapted to meet student needs and to allow students an opportunity to be engaged during class time. A typical day in our classroom began with students entering the room and taking a seat. Seats were not assigned; students sat wherever they wanted to sit. Once seated, the girls followed our daily agenda (see Appendix C), which was posted in the front of the room, attached to the chalkboard. Our classroom was relatively mobile due to the school’s lack of classroom space. The agendas were written on large post-it-note paper that could be easily removed and transferred, when necessary. Our first three weeks were spent in a third grade classroom where the desks were too small. The teacher who ‘owned’ the room served as a frequent and disruptive 43 visitor, which occasionally created a strain in our small learning community. We were eventually moved into a more appropriate and less disruptive setting, and the remaining seven weeks were spent in a classroom where the desks were large enough for eighth grade students. The girls would follow the first two items on the agenda which told them to take out materials and what materials to take out. Materials included loose-leaf paper, pen or pencil, a copy of the story for the critical literature review, drafts of papers in progress, a copy of the group novel we were reading, or journals. The rest of the agenda might consist of a mini-lesson on some aspect of reading or writing, independent and/or group reading and writing activities, or our critical literature review. The entire agenda was explained to students before they started on any assigned task. This took from five to fifteen minutes daily, leaving the majority of class time to work. I designed classroom lessons with a multitude of factors in mind. I was always concerned about student learning and achievement: at the end of each lesson, the girls needed to demonstrate acquisition of new or improved knowledge and/or skills. I was further interested in how classroom work could be used to support and encourage the development of adolescent Black girls’ identity. Finally, I was passionately committed to the tenets of culturally relevant pedagogy, and sought it in both the reading materials I selected and the writing tasks I assigned to empower my students as learners and as human beings. Consequently, classroom lessons were implemented with an eye towards each of these factors, resulting in a wide diversity of strategies and approaches which aimed to address curricular requirements, learning style preferences, and individual educational needs. 44 Student Attrition in the Study Prior to the commencement of classes, the girls were informed that they would be participating in a research study, that their participation was voluntary, and that they could end their participation at any time without incurring punitive consequences. Two and a half weeks into the study, Jackee, Mesha, and Kendra chose to terminate their participation, opting instead to return to their traditional, mixed-gender classes. They expressed dissatisfaction with learning in an all-female environment and stated that they wanted to learn with boys, too. Interestingly, in week nine of the study, two of the three girls sought me out and asked for permission to rejoin the group. Unfortunately, at that point it was too late to reintroduce them to the group without compromising the learning experiences of the rest of the class. However, the experiences of Jackee, Mesha, and Kendra up to the time of their departure are also included as a vital part of this study. 45 CHAPTER FOUR: ANALYSIS This day was horrendous! My students can’t stay on task for more than 40 minutes. I attempted to have individual conferences about their narrative papers. Most were way off. I have to come up with a better plan to keep them all working and all completing work. Perhaps I can take the next paper one paragraph at a time (but what about the accelerated students . . .)? Perhaps making writing time only part of the day’s class would help. I dread collecting drafts from some of them. . . . I need more help to give more students individual attention and there are only seven of them! From reflective journal, 9/9/02 When I began this work, I had ambitious and clearly articulated research goals; I planned to use my own search for identity and empowerment in academic settings to help the girls in my study find identity and empowerment in school, thereby increasing their academic success and achievement. Having studied the tenets of Black Feminist Theory and the paradigms advocated by culturally relevant pedagogy, I knew that a blending of these models would be best suited to the achievement of my proposed outcomes. I entered the study fully committed to helping my students be successful by utilizing the best elements of my own experiences and my knowledge of evidenced-based best classroom practices. Looking back at the reflective journal I kept during this study, I realize that I also entered the study with a second set of goals and expectations. I expected, deep down, that the girls would come to class excited about having a new academic experience. I thought that they would be glad to work in the kind of classroom community advocated by culturally relevant pedagogy. And I thought, in my heart of hearts, that they would be grateful to have an opportunity to openly discuss their issues and concerns in our group, secure in the knowledge that they were supported and appreciated by a Black woman who understood, at least in part, their experiences and struggles. I neglected to take into account, however, that each girl in the study entered our 46 classroom with an agenda of her own, and that that agenda was in no way connected to or informed by my own. This disconnect between teacher and student expectations surrounding an educational experience is a common occurrence. As is evidenced in the journal excerpt at the beginning of this chapter, such a disconnect can create stress, anxiety, frustration, and disappointment for both the teacher and students. It is all too easy to look at students’ lack of engagement and disruptive behavior as solely a student issue; children are blamed and the teacher has an easy ‘out.’ Reflective practice, however, enables the teacher to discern what elements of her own identity – her expectations, preconceptions, and personal desires – play a role in the discontent and frustration being acted out in the classroom. This awareness then allows the reflective classroom practitioner the opportunity to make revisions to her praxis. After reviewing my journals and experiences, I determined that my own research goals were getting in the way of my implementation of culturally relevant pedagogy with my students. I narrowed the scope of my research, and in doing so I lightened the burden of expectation placed on my students. Paradoxically, this limiting of the research to focus more closely on the students’ needs and expectations is exactly the kind of evolving praxis and revision advocated so strongly by proponents of culturally relevant pedagogy. By changing the parameters of my work, I actually strengthened the quality of my investigation and the integrity of my findings. Participant Profiles Each of the ten student participants was a Black girl in the eighth grade. They constituted approximately half of the girls in Beaumont’s eighth grade class. While they were chosen for a variety of reasons (as outlined in chapter three), one of the biggest factors was that their lives and backgrounds were similar to mine. All but one of the girls were being raised in a household 47 where there was a strong maternal influence. Black mothers’ influence on their daughters is far reaching. Black daughters learn that they have an expectation to work, that they must succeed in education to be self-sufficient, and that they bear the responsibility for upholding the family (Joseph 1981). An assumption here is that a mothers’ influence on her daughter will affect the way that she views the world and also views herself within the world. The daughters’ lived experiences will, in turn, be shaped by her mothers’ influence. Not surprisingly, the study participants’ lived experiences became evident during the classroom lessons. Some of them were more outspoken than others depending on the particular lesson being taught. Their responses were bold and detailed when they were passionate about the subject matter. Once students were selected for participation in the project, I was able to begin gathering data from and about each girl. I completed a profile of each student which enabled me to further refine my instructional strategies to better meet their individualized needs. The initial portion of the profile was gathered by talking to the student, other teachers, the principals, and viewing school records. The second portion is the student’s own words. Each participant profile is outlined below. The findings of this research are presented as eleven case studies profiling the backgrounds, participation, achievements and changes of the student participants and myself. Each profile consists of direct quotations and researcher interpretations based on the literature outlined in chapter two. Candace Candace is a thirteen year old whose family recently moved to the city from California. She is a good student academically. Candace has two younger siblings who also attend the same school. She watches out for them. She and her siblings live with their mother and mother’s 48 friend (male). Since the beginning of this research, Candace’s family has moved from the community where the school is located to another part of town. Her mother has allowed her and her siblings to remain at Beaumont until the end of the term. Because Candace is new to Beaumont, she is just getting to know other students and where she fits in. She is very attracted to the attention that she gets from the boys. This is how Candace describes herself: I am caring, free, tall, stout, strong, willing, and kind of chunky. When I look in the mirror I like what I see. My outside looks may not be charming and you may not like what you see, but what’s on the inside is all that matters. Look past my clothes, skin, face, and you just might see the real me. Candace is eager to learn and school work is relatively easy for her. Her assignments are done well and on time. She participates and gives good feedback. On Fridays, we have our critical literature discussions. One Friday, we discussed the story “Lather and Nothing Else” and we had a guest from the community join us. Early on, I acted as the facilitator by asking questions to students and getting their response. Towards the end, this discussion follows: Bennyce: Thank you. Thinking about this story, what keeps us from doing the wrong thing or retaliating? Jenae: Your conscience. Think about consequences. Candace: Your conscience, or another person, like the counselor at school. They might tell you something that gives you a reality check. Nicole: I think that it is your heart that keeps you from doing something wrong. Like these two girls were about to fight, she said that her hands were telling her to hit her, but her heart was telling her not to. Candace: I think that it is probably a number of different things that keep you from doing bad things. Like she said, your conscience, or a counselor, your inside, anything, you might go read a book or something to keep you from being bad. It depends on what works best for you. It might work best for you to talk to somebody, or just think about it, or go take a shower. Ms. Watson: Last night I had a situation that I had to handle, and I didn’t handle it the way that I am used to handling situations. I try not to let people irritate me to the point where I lose control with them, and I said something to this woman that I have never said before. She called me some terrible names. First of all she was trespassing on my property and we had said something to her 49 before, so she was aware. And when she decided to do it last night, she had her head down and just kept walking. I told her that we had asked her not to cut through our yard. She said that she had to go over here, and she gave me all the explanations as to why she should be able to cut through our yard. I told her that we would appreciate it if she would just walk around, and I tried to stop her in time before she had gone further. Then she makes the statement, don’t you ever come up behind me like that again. And I said, wait a minute, you are the one that is breaking the law, you are on my land without my permission, and you are going to tell me not to come up behind you, I don’t think so. So I said that I could let the dog loose, and that would create a whole another problem, and then we called each other names. I yelled out “your momma”, and I have never said that because it doesn’t get your point across, but she just aggravated me to no end. So I said the next time I will call the police. You don’t want to go that route. You want people to respect you. But I allowed myself to get angry and say some things. There is a right way to do things. There are easier ways and we just have to find them. Candace: May I ask what stopped you from hitting her? Ms. Watson: As she said, and you said, you use conscience and she uses heart. The heart that we normally talks about, only pumps blood, but the thing that we use to make decisions are our conscience and our minds. And you never know, I may need this lady, or she may need me one day. Those are the things that keep me in check. I am active in my church and I work a lot with young people, and I don’t want my reputation ruined because I stooped to that level. I ended up following her last night to see where she lived so that the next time I would summons her through the police. The Lord dropped it in my heart that I would apologize when I found her. Because calling her names was not in my nature. I had to remember who I was and who I represent. Candace: So your story is pretty much like this one, like you said, your reputation was what you thought about, and thought about what might happen after the actions like he did. Nicole: I was hoping that you would say that in your heart I am not that way. Ms. Watson: But it is my heart, these are where all of my emotions come from. It all starts up here. But when bible or a book talks about the heart, they are talking about the very center, the brain. This controls every muscle in your mind. Bennyce: Do you have other questions for each other? Candace: Ms. Grant, what stopped you and your family from doing things to that little girl? Nicole: Because what I do reflects on my mom, and I have to think about everything else, like consequences. Bennyce: Closing thoughts? Ms. Watson: I think what happened last night happened for a reason. It may have been to share with you all, or to make me more aware of my responsibility to the Lord and to young people. Can’t be an example if don’t live what you teach and preach. Sometimes must be reminded. My husband said that I really think that the Lord is just testing us and trying us. And there are certain things in our life that to see how we are going to react to it. My objective is that the life that I live, that I will be a shining example. Not that I am perfect, but I want someone to see Christ in my life, that they would inquire or they will take those qualities and start using them themselves. And last night had any of you seen me, I would have been ashamed. Candace: I agree with you about the part – we read a story about a girl named Abigail, and her parents told her not to drink, but her father was an alcoholic, so I think that it is good that you live what you preach, because more than likely, do what your parents do instead of what they say. When I was six, my mom told me not to say bad words, and I told her that when she gets mad at 50 dad, she says bad words. So I had to sit and think about it for a while, all of that came up, and I believe every since then, that you should do what you tell other people to do, especially if it is an older person, because going to look up with them, and do what they do more than what they say to do. Jenae: I agree, b/c I have four brothers and sisters, and my younger sister is always looking up to me. And when I spend the night at a friend’s house or something, she starts crying because she wants to go with me, because she looks up to me. Candace: Have three younger sisters, and they want to do everything that I do. I showed them my grades, and they say that they want to get As too. Nicole: My little cousin is the same way. She is bad until she gets around me. She said a bad word, and I asked her why she said that, and she said that she said it because I did. I told her that she didn’t need to say everything that I say. And she got upset and started asking me if I still liked her. Ms. Watson: We don’t realize how many people are watching us, and it is a big responsibility to live up to someone else’s expectation, but I do know that the Lord is able to help us do the right thing. We tend to do things with our friends that if our parents weren’t around wouldn’t do. I had seven siblings, and when my brothers got away from our parents they did some things that we would never have done around our parents. One of my brothers who has passed away, I tried to curse, and my brother told me that I couldn’t do that because people that curse do not have enough vocabulary to express themselves, and that is something that is always that has stayed in my mind. I have always tried to increase my vocabulary to that I could use words to express myself without being derogative. Candace: You said about your brothers and sisters doing different things. I was telling my mother about how some of the students in our classroom don’t want to learn or don’t get it. She blamed the parents for it. And I said, wait a minute, they don’t want to do it inside their heart. And it seems like all they wanted to do was play. But I want to do it for myself, because my mom tells me to go out and do my best, and regardless of what she had told me, I wanted to do it for myself. I am quite sure that their parents don’t tell them to go to school and act up. Ms. Watson: That is why this session is good, b/c it motivates you within your peer group to excel or to achieve. I don’t think anyone that goes into the profession to teach, that they want anymore than have their children achieve. When you come with the attitude, your parents may not know what you know, or be as smart as you are, or have the opportunities that you did, they don’t tell their children to get locked up, or sell drugs, or get in trouble. Every parent would like to look at their child and hear good things about them. I used to tell my children, just do the best that you can. If a C is the best that you can do, then I will praise you for that. Candace: I am not saying that parent involvement is not important, because it is. If she hadn’t told me to do right, then I probably never would. I think that it helps you to have other people teach you to do good. I think about acting up, but I know that my mother is counting on me to do the best that I can, and do good. And I made a promise to her, and myself to do that. So I think that it is good to have someone else involved. For example, I know that Star plays volleyball. Say she lost a game, she has her aunt to talk to her and tell her that she can keep trying. But if she went home alone and didn’t have anybody there to talk to, she might just give up and stop playing. I think parent involvement is good, and you have to want to do it for yourself to get there. Bennyce: Okay, I think that we will end our discussion there. First thing, please thank Ms. Watson for joining us today. I just want to tell you all in front of her how truly brilliant, awesome, smart, remarkable, and wonderful you are Nicole, Star, Jessica, Candice, Jenae. You all are remarkable, all that I ask is that you come in here. Keep it up. I hope that some of your parents, 51 relatives, and friends can come in and join us at some point too, because everyone needs to see how wonderful you are. Class Transcript: Class 7/09/2002 Geneva Gay (2000), in her book Culturally Responsive Teaching, tells us that culturally responsive teaching is validating and affirming. It builds bridges between home and school experiences as well as between academic abstractions and lived sociocultural realities. The exchange between Candace and our guest is a clear example of how this process should work. Candace offers advice to our guest by highlighting her personal (lived) experiences and asking additional questions (critical thinking). Black students are bombarded by negative images of self; the classroom is one place where teachers can play a role in breaking down those stereotypical and maligning images. However, students must be an active part of the change process; they will only be empowered if they can critically analyze their lives (King, 1994, 38). Candace’s ability to critically view Ms. Watson’s situation is evidence that she is taking an active role in the change process. The use of critical literature review in the classroom provides a forum for this exchange. Jacqueline Jordan Irvine (2002) notes several strategies that Black teachers need to incorporate into their classrooms for student success. They include cooperative education, values and character education, performance, high involvement and active learning, use of community dialect and language, and discipline (pp. 41-45). The critical literature review (CLR) was a formal discussion where students acknowledged each other by raising hands and calling each other by last names (i.e. Ms. Brown or Miss Johnson). They also respected the opinions of other students, though they did not have to agree with them. Prior to the first CLR, the students and I came up with “rules we could all live with.” Using the critical literature review method in class incorporated each of the strategies outlined by Irvine. For students there was active learning 52 and participation, use of community language, and performance. Inviting guests captured the cooperative education component. The stories themselves taught a lesson of some sort (character education) and the discussion was an extension of that concept. Discipline was maintained through the formality of the approach. It allowed for all students’ voices to be heard. Candace was able to speak out and offer advice based on her life experiences. She benefited greatly from this experience. She became more self-confident and her school work improved also. While she was always a good student, she was pushed beyond her limits in our class, and began to excel in new ways. DaRhonda DaRhonda lives with her mother and an older brother who has multiple sclerosis. Her mother works during the day. DaRhonda is a follower and has gotten into trouble trying to be part of the “in crowd”. Her grades are average. She has grown up in the neighborhood and attended Beaumont from kindergarten through eighth grade. She is thirteen years old. She describes herself in this way: I am a young, Black teenager. I am a smart eighth grader at Beaumont. I can sing and dance. I am pretty, dark, strong, bold, sexy, and goofy. I am always in trouble. I don’t like some children. I am respectful, clean, neat, and outgoing. I’m wild and crazy. I’m not nasty, hateful, or stupid. I’m loving, fun to be with, and a good friend. I’m ghetto, thirteen years old, and love to eat. DaRhonda was somewhat disruptive when we started. When other students were participating in off task behavior, DaRhonda participated as well. The difference was that when she participated, she did so for their approval. The very same students she sought to emulate often made fun of her. 53 DaRhonda’s writing was not on grade level. This became evident in her first writing assignment – the narrative paper. I explained to the students that writing a narrative was writing a story, and that stories generally include dialogue. I taught them how to write the story and how to write dialogue using mini-lessons with many examples to follow (See Appendix D). DaRhonda wrote her narrative paper and failed to follow the examples for writing dialogue in her first draft. I had a conference with her and pointed out her mistakes, while also pointing out that her paper had many terrific elements, including great content, good story development, strong characters, and effective use of humor. She proceeded with draft two. I was so sure she’d gotten it! During her second conference, much to my dismay, I discovered that she’d rewritten the SAME paper. She had not “gotten it” at all! I sat down and conferred with her again. I told her that her paper still wasn’t right; she was furious. I emphasized to her that her paper was one of the best in the class; it was just her technique that was wrong. We once again looked at the samples. I worked with her to show her exactly what I wanted and finally she really did get it. Her finished paper was much better, and we both felt a sense of pride and accomplishment. (See Appendix E) Gay (2000) states that culturally responsive teaching is both validating and affirming. DaRhonda sought validation from her peers. She needed to be accepted by them and participated in behaviors that got their attention. All too often, students seek validation from their peers because they don’t get it otherwise. In the classroom, my challenge was to get DaRhonda to believe in herself and her work. This was a challenge because she did not like to be critiqued. At the end of our second conference, she slammed her paper down and verbalized her displeasure with the writing assignment. Again, I affirmed and validated her writing and gave 54 her concrete examples of what was expected. Eventually, my use of praise and encouragement motivated her to try again. Gay (2000)) further points out that culturally responsive teachers use multiple instructional strategies that are connected to different learning styles. DaRhonda and her classmates were given writing samples, read from a text that contained dialogue which was followed by a discussion, and participated in a hands-on exercise prior to beginning the narrative paper. None of these methodologies were successful with DaRhonda. It wasn’t until our second conference, where we discussed her paper in depth, that she began to put the pieces together. DaRhonda still wanted to give up. Opting out of the assignment in this way, while resulting in a failing grade for the class project, would also be seen as an act of rebellion and thereby gain DaRhonda the acceptance of her peer group. In her mind, giving up made sense because it had a tangible benefit. My challenge, then, was to help her see the benefits of completing the narrative paper as more significant than the benefits of quitting. When DaRhonda began to feel validated through her work and personally, she no longer needed to be accepted by those students that she had sought approval from. At first look, DaRhonda could not see that she was capable of writing a good paper. All she heard was that “it wasn’t right.” Ladson-Billings (1994) states, “When students are treated as competent they are likely to demonstrate competence.” DaRhonda was definitely competent and capable. During that second conference, it was as if the light bulb went off and she had an “aha” moment. Culturally relevant teaching methods incorporate strategies that allow students to see that they are capable of learning. I would not let DaRhonda “quit” the task of writing the narrative paper. When she wanted to give up, I gently nudged her in the opposite direction, first with positive reinforcement and then by highlighting the good features of her paper. She completed the 55 assignment and her narrative was one of the best in the class. Teachers who integrate culturally relevant teaching strategies set high expectations for their students and do not allow their students to fall short of their established goals. Jackee Jackee is a fourteen year old student who is a loner. Her grades are below average and she is frequently absent. Jackee lives with her mother and siblings. She has attended Beaumont since third grade. Jackee views herself in this way: I am nice, quiet, and funny. I like to make people laugh. I am fourteen years old. My favorite subject is math. I like music and money. Jackee is frequently absent. She doesn’t contribute during CLR unless prompted, and she finally began writing her narrative just before she decided to leave the group. I think that Jackee could have benefited from this class. In my reflections, I found that I had written very little about her. All too often, students fade into the background and are forgotten. Like Jackee, they aren’t disruptive, so they don’t attract much adult attention. When they are also frequently absent, they get bogged down with makeup work and never seem to be able to get ahead. This leads to feelings of frustration and a further sense of alienation from the class community. Lacking any deep connection with the class, the teacher, or the learning process, students like Jackee are absent, even when they’re physically present in school. Their eventual, almost inevitable, physical departure from school is therefore barely noticed and rarely commented on. In spite of Jackee’s departure from the group, I learned much about myself as a teacher from her. On the first day of the class, I introduced myself and told the girls about me and my interests. In turn, I asked them to introduce themselves and tell me what they were interested in reading about. Jackee’s reply was, “I am interested in violence.” I had not realized this until I was reviewing my transcribed materials. Those few words said so much about what might have 56 been going on in Jackee’s life. Perhaps if I could have suggested some age appropriate materials for her to read, she would have remained a part of the group. Lisa Delpit (2002) says, “We must make children feel welcomed and invited by allowing their interests, culture, and history into the classroom” (p. 48). I opened the door by finding out Jackee’s interests, but never invited her in by providing the necessary tools and materials. An alternate view of this situation is from the perspective that Jackee made the comment to get attention. If that was the case, it did not work because I had a few other students who detracted from Jackee’s cry for attention. She was quiet and faded into the background. I’ve learned that some students’ inability to speak, their very voicelessness is, in fact, a cry for help. It is my responsibility to pay attention to the silent messages, as well as the loud, glaring ones. Jenae Jenae is a thirteen year old who is new to Beaumont this year. She lives in the neighborhood with her parents and younger siblings. She attended a charter school until this year. She is an excellent student academically. She, like Candace, is trying to see where she fits in at Beaumont. For the most part, Jenae is quiet and soft spoken. Here are her words to describe herself: I am a thirteen year old student at Beaumont. I am an African native and a little Irish. I am smart, pretty, and cute. I like to sing and dance. I like some boys. I enjoy cooking and baking. I am a funny person. I love to laugh and watch television. I like hanging out and talking on the phone. I grew up in (the neighborhood) so I am sort of ghetto. I am young, a lady, talented, and proud. Highly motivated and diligent are two terms that describe Jenae well. She applies 100% of herself to everything we do in the group, and she is a frequent and positive participant in CLR sessions. She never misses class. Jenae is also a positive leader; she takes direction well and 57 helps others to do the same. Her writing, already strong when she began the program, continued to improve as she was given more frequent opportunities for practice and increasing amounts of constructive feedback and critique. Jenae came to the class as ‘the complete package’ – every teacher’s dream student. Yet something was still missing. Ladson-Billings (1994) proposes that effective teaching involves both in-depth knowledge of the student and the subject matter and that real education not only informs students, but extends their thinking and abilities as well. As I reflected on my interactions with Jenae and performance in class, it occurred to me that I knew nothing about Jenae except that she was a good student. Good is a subjective term. Jenae did do very good work, but she had never been pushed to do great work. The work that she did in my class pushed her a lot. It had not been part of her past curricula to speak out and form her own opinions or to give a speech. Lisa Delpit (2002), in her book The Skin That We Speak, says that teachers must reconnect students to their own brilliance and gain their trust so that they will learn from us. I pushed Jenae and supported her for taking small steps. It took no time at all for her to emerge as a leader in our group. Perry et al (2003) believe that African American students will achieve in school environments that have a leveling culture of achievement that extends to all its members and a strong sense of group membership, where the expectation that everyone achieves is explicit and regularly communicated. Jenae achieved and excelled because she was pushed by me, with underlying support from me and others in the group. Jessica Jessica is a fourteen year old student. She is quiet and shy. Her grades are average. Jessica has an individual education plan for her academic success. She lives with her mother and 58 two younger siblings. After the death of her grandmother (when she was six years old), her family split apart. This is who she says she is: I am strong, pretty, and kind. I am a singer. I am who I think I am. I am somebody that everybody needs to know about. I am a woman. I am fourteen years old and ghetto all the way. I love to eat food. I am special. Jessica is very shy in class unless she has a reason to speak up. When we first started the CLR process, she began to speak out. As the class continued, she opened up even more and often surprised me and her classmates with her comments. Jessica’s writing skills are weak and significantly below grade level. This can be attributed in part to the limitations outlined in her Individual Education Plan (IEP). While her writing did improve marginally over the course of our time together, it was her speaking ability that really blossomed. The improvement in quality of her oral contributions was so significant that it sometimes caught even me off guard, providing a delightful surprise in one CLR discussion after another. Jacqueline Jordan Irvine (2002) suggests that culturally responsive pedagogy includes building bridges between the instructional content, materials, and methods and the cultural background of the students. She also outlines instructional strategies for Black teachers’ success in the classroom. Among those strategies are cooperative learning and values and character education. Each of the short stories that was used in the CLR process took into account those strategies. By using carefully selected short stories, I was able to build a bridge between home/community and school. For Jessica, this connection gave her the opportunity and forum to exercise her voice with confidence and without fear. Julena Julena is thirteen and has attended several schools in the district. She lives with her mother and younger siblings. Since the beginning of the school year, she and her family have 59 moved into a temporary housing facility. She has frequent absenteeism and her grades are average. Julena is quiet and observant. She describes herself as follows: I am smart, nice, generous, and special. I am in love with guys. I am a Taurus. I’m neat and clean. I am smart and a music fanatic. I don’t like to talk to most people. I love animals more than anything in the world. My favorite hobbies are listening to music and going shopping. I like riding bikes and making scrapbooks. I am easygoing. I hate little kids and disrespectful kids. I am a Girl Scout. Beginning the first week of class I noticed that Julena was absent quite a bit. One week, she missed three days and began to fall behind in her work. At the start of week three, I talked with Julena about her absences. I addressed the issue, asking her what was going on, and if there was anything I could do to help. At that time, all she said was, “I’ll work on it” and “Everything is okay.” Her absences decreased and her classroom participation improved. It wasn’t until week four of the study that I got some insight into what Julena was dealing with at home. During one class period that week, the girls and I were having a discussion about things of interest to them. We talked about nothing in particular and the dialogue was unstructured. Julena spoke up and told me that she had recently moved. When I asked her where she had moved, she replied, “We moved to the Armada.” My immediate response was, “Great! Now that you moved closer to me, maybe I’ll see you more often.” She smiled. Sometimes it’s what we don’t say that is most important. In this instance, what I didn’t say was, “Child, be careful!” or “Oh my God, not that place!” The Armada is as close to homelessness as one can get. But here, Julena trusted me enough to share this information, secure in the belief that I wouldn’t judge her or her family. We had a rule in class that said, “Whatever happens in class stays in class” (the exception being anything that was an immediate danger to life or health). That rule gave students, like Julena, the freedom to talk about a number of issues from racism to politics to 60 gender issues. Julena needed to know that she was in a safe space to talk, voice her concerns without fear of repercussion, and to be nurtured and accepted. Historically, schools for Blacks were places of resistance and offered students a safety net in the community to voice concerns. These safe places, as Sondra O’Neale (1986) are especially essential for young Black women: These spaces are no only safe – they form prime locations for resisting objectification as the Other. In these spaces Black women observe the feminine images of the ‘larger’ culture, realize that these models are at best unsuitable and at worst destructive to them, and go about the business of fashioning themselves after the prevalent, historical black female role models in their own community (139). Diana Beth Waters (2004) contends that Black women and girls often use the public educational system to resist oppression and achieve. Julena, whether consciously or not, used our classroom to express herself and her concerns. She was a child coping with circumstances beyond her control – poverty, welfare, and homelessness. Her weapon of choice, to fight back, became her voice. Weiler (1988) notes that Black girls frequently use school as a tool to fight against oppressive forces like racism, and for upward mobility. Julena began to use school as the forum to display her weapon. Her attendance improved a great deal, she never missed a class when we had critical literature discussions, and she voiced her opinion more frequently during those discussions. Students like Julena need to feel accepted, safe, and cared for. Black feminist theory advocates the use of dialogue to show connectedness and the ethic of caring (talking with the heart). These are skills that require some work on the part of the teacher. Anyone can carry on a conversation, especially from a place of power and control. True connectedness is having a student like Julena feel safe enough to tell you that her family just moved to the local hotel for people who have no place else to live. True connectedness is responding with, “Great! Now that 61 you moved closer to me, maybe I’ll see you more often.” True connectedness is saying without using words, “I’ll be checking on you to make sure you’re okay.” This talking from the heart is a component that many public school classrooms are missing. The ethic of caring suggests that personal expressiveness, emotions, and empathy are central to the knowledge validation process (Collins 2000). There are three components that are essential to this theme: emphasis placed on individual uniqueness, the appropriateness of emotions in dialogue, and developing the capacity for empathy (Collins, 2000, 263). My interaction with Julena demonstrated the ethic of caring. I placed myself in her shoes and imagined how difficult it might be for me. She did not need my sympathy; she needed my genuine understanding and support, and that’s what she received. Kendra Kendra is a thirteen year old girl. She is Mesha’s best friend. Kendra, along with her siblings (older sister and younger brother), live with their grandmother. Their mother abandoned them due to her own drug use and abuse. Kendra is a below average student and has been at Beaumont since kindergarten. She sees herself like this: I am cute, smart, talkative and fun. I like boys a lot. I play basketball and cheer. I like to dance and sing. My favorite class is Ms. Bogan’s class. When I grow up I want to be happy and rich. Kendra was greatly influenced by Mesha. On our first day of class, the two of them talked to each other during the entire session while I gave classroom instruction. I tried to stop them by calling their names, but to no avail. I talked; they talked. When I stopped talking, they stopped talking. This continued for the rest of that class period. So that this did not happen again, I made a few changes. I thought, “I am smarter than 8th grade girls.” I rearranged their seats so that they were all facing me in a semi-circle, instead of allowing them to face each 62 other. I also got color-coded folders and gave them choices of colors – hoping that the two of them would not pick the same color. There were five different colors and two folders in each color. The colors determined who the girls would work with in class. It gave them choices in the learning process, while it also allowed me to separate Kendra and Mesha. Kendra came to the group with an “I don’t want to be here and you can’t tell me anything” attitude! It was obvious that this setting was not for her, or so I thought. At the end of week two, we began our critical literature review (CLR). We had already talked about the process and agreed on rules for participation. The first step was to read a story. Each of the girls had their own copy of the story. I chose to read a story called “Abigail.” It was about a tenth grader whose family sent her to a home for unwed teen mothers when she got pregnant. The setting was the 1960s. As I began to read the story, several other students were off task and talking or adding inappropriate comments. Kendra yelled to them, “Shut up so I can hear the story!” During the reading, I asked several questions to the students for content and clarity. Kendra spoke up often to contribute. This was new for her. After class, I pulled her aside and thanked her for her participation. I also told her that she had really good insight and to keep it up. She smiled, said thank you, and went to lunch. I found out later that Kendra could relate to that story because it was about a young woman who had gotten pregnant in the 10th grade. Her older sister had a baby in high school. Kendra quit our class mid-way through the next week. She later asked me if she could return. I declined her request because by then we were already into the 9th week of our 10-week session, and I was only there for one term. One of the things that I did right with Kendra was acknowledge her without embarrassing her in front of her peers. She might have reacted differently in front of them. I also found a 63 connection with her by using that story. If I could do things differently, I would have approached her individually, as I had before, and asked her not to quit. I would have told her how much she contributed to the class, and how much she could have gotten out of it. She is one of the girls who could have benefited most from individualized attention. Making connections, or the notion of connectedness, is a significant theme among Black feminist scholars. Collins (2000) states that it should be used as the conceptual lens to link home/community and school. For Kendra, the link became evident through the story “Abigail”. When the story was read, her behavior changed immediately and she participated in the CLR process. I chose that story not knowing about Kendra’s sister, but thinking that each of the girls could find some relevance. Collins (2000, p.257) further states that Black feminists use lived experiences as criteria for credibility. Kendra’s experience with the pregnancy of her sister became the vehicle through which I could reach her. While the story we read took place in the past, teen pregnancy is still a relevant issue today, particularly in the neighborhoods surrounding Beaumont. My selection of this story stemmed from my knowledge of the communities my students lived in, and my desire to provide them with reading material they could relate to. Though it hit especially close to home for Kendra, each of the other girls knew someone, or knew of someone, they could connect to the story. Mesha Mesha lives with her mother and has attended Beaumont since she was in kindergarten. She is fourteen years old. Mesha is a leader and is often followed by Kendra. She is frequently absent and her grades are reflective of this. She is a below average student academically and is frequently off-task in the classroom. Mesha is, however, also a very smart and engaged student 64 when she chooses to be. Mesha describes herself as follows: I am cute and fun. I like to read and talk on the phone. I like to hang with my friends. My boyfriend is Chaz. I like singing and dancing. I am unsure about Mesha’s ability to write or read because she never did either in class. She spent most of her time trying to make my life miserable (or so I felt). I responded to her off task behaviors by ignoring them and focusing on the students who were completing tasks. I thought I would silence her by ignoring her. This did not work. I often wished for her to be absent from class because when she was in attendance, her behavior was invariably disruptive. She was also influential on a few other students. Roughly three weeks into the program, she withdrew from our group. When she made the choice to leave, I have to say, I was relieved. Upon reflection, I realize Mesha could have benefited a lot by being a part of our group. She could have received more individualized attention; she could have learned more; and she could have seen how her change in behavior could have a positive impact on the rest of her peers. This was a missed opportunity to talk to a young lady who, in my opinion, was in desperate need of mentoring, of someone to care about her academic success, and someone who could make a positive impact on her life. If I could do it over again, I would spend more time with her. I would find out what her strengths are, and attempt to incorporate those into our classroom. I had the things that she liked, but I never got the opportunity to pull them into our classroom activities because she was not there long enough, and when she was there I spent so much time trying to keep her on task that there was no time left for her individual instruction. Black feminist thought emphasizes connectedness. But how do you make connections when most of your time is spent trying to make students stay on task? The reality is that connection 65 with all students may not occur, but as educators, we must acknowledge that we need to offer the tools to allow learning to take place for all students, despite their best and most concerted efforts to avoid it. Mesha obviously felt safe with her inappropriate behavior in the classroom. She saw how her behavior impacted me and her classmates, and enjoyed that power. She got approval from classmates through their laughter, which made me angry, thus further validating her position of dominance in the group. Through my experiences with Mesha I learned that typically, when students are off-task, it is because there is something missing. That missing piece could be attention, affection, inability to read or write, or any number of other things. I never found out which of these applied to Mesha because I was too busy trying to ignore her. By ignoring Mesha and her misbehavior, I unwittingly replicated what often happens to students of color. Ignoring students equates to silencing them, as opposed to teaching them. Friere (1972) wrote about a ‘culture of silence’ where the voice of the oppressed is silenced by the voice of the dominant. Yet Mesha had a great deal to say. Gitlin et al (1992) tell us that when a person is silenced for a long time, their silence is not manifested through an absence of voice, but through a lack of acceptable voice. I allowed Mesha’s lack of acceptable voice to become the driving force in our group; she was in control of my classroom. Finally, I’ve had to acknowledge that power is very different from empowering. Mesha had the power and she used it to her advantage. In our small group, she asserted control over at least two other students, Kendra and DaRhonda. They followed her lead. When she did not want to work, she convinced them not to work as well by starting inappropriate, off-task conversations and sometimes activities. (Student becoming disruptive and cheerleading in class) 66 Bennyce: Ladies, this is not cheerleading practice or gym class. Mesha, although you’re an excellent cheerleader, this is not the time or place to showcase your skills. Right now, we are focusing on pre-writing. Perhaps you can write about cheerleading as your story. You need to get started on your pre-writing. If you need to move someplace that is more comfortable, please feel free to do so. Your question was – you get a week to get pre-writing. When you come in tomorrow, we will be working on something else. So if you don’t get it done today, then that is okay, that is why it is called a writing workshop. People are always going to be in different places and that is okay. What do you do when you get it done? Class Transcript, Class 2, 09/04/02 Similarly, when she didn’t attend school, she was able to convince her friends to join her. When she was absent, at least one of them (Kendra or DaRhonda) was absent, too. Kunjufu (2002) writes that “Many teachers think that they are the leaders of the class, but they fail to realize that their students are taking cues from their peer leader. Once a student leader is sold on academic achievement, the rest of the class will come along” (114). Unfortunately, I was never able to ‘sell’ Mesha on academic achievement; she didn’t see the “payoff” (Kunjufu, 2002, 101) in education, and refused to buy into the academic community. As a result, her leadership abilities were used in resistance to, rather than in support of, classroom and academic goals. Collins (2000) states that Black teachers have a responsibility to protect students from the maligning images that are so prevalent in our society. We must empower students to resist oppressive forces through dialogue. Because I didn’t get to the root of Mesha’s behavior problems, she became a victim once again. I chose to silence her in order to take back my power in the classroom. So often this same image is played out in classrooms across the country where Black students become voiceless and silenced. Mesha chose to leave the study in our second week, so there was never an opportunity for growth or change. Had she stayed, I might have had the opportunity to get to the root of the problem. Was it her reading or writing? Was it her lack of attention? Culturally responsive teachers use a wide variety of instructional strategies that 67 allow them to teach students with varied learning styles. Would Mesha have learned more from a hands-on approach? Was it me and my approach to teaching? Janice Hale (2001) offers this model for educating Black students: A model of classroom instruction for African American students should diminish the use of xeroxed work sheets, workbooks, textbooks, and a skill and drill orientation. Emphasis should be placed on hands-on activities, projects, interrelated learning experiences, field trips, speakers, and classroom visitors. The intent is to create a learning environment that complements the culture of the African American community and stimulates higher order thinking and creativity among African American children (p 122). This model of culturally relevant teaching provides students with an opportunity to participate in a community-centered, creative learning environment – an environment that students like Mesha need to support and nurture them through the educational system. This environment also holds students accountable for learning and participating thereby making them important stakeholders in the process as well. Nicole Nicole lives with her mother and younger sister. She is thirteen years old. She has attended Beaumont since kindergarten. Her grades are outstanding. She is an exemplary student both academically and socially. When asked to describe herself, this is what she had to say: I am an eighth grade African American student. I am intelligent. I like the colors green, red, and blue. I enjoy reading and math classes. I am unknown, energetic, kind, and lively. Nicole is a good student who makes frequent contributions to our CLR discussions. She only missed one day of class, and that was for a school-sponsored field trip. Nicole is a true leader in group sessions; she is willing to share both her own experiences and her personal insights during the CLR process. 68 Nicole is truly in her element when she is given the opportunity to speak. This was noted during the CLR sessions and during the poetry unit. Each student had to write, memorize, and recite a poem. Janice Hale (1982) equates the use of oral activities in the classroom with the tradition of the Black preacher in the pulpit. She says, “Black culture gives rise to highly charismatic and stylistic uses of language. The oratory and homiletics of the Black preacher are examples of charismatic language in Black culture.” (p. xiii). Incorporating classroom activities that allow my students to express themselves orally also allows them to showcase their ability to use language stylistically. Hale (1992) goes on to say that it is imperative that Black professionals identify the intelligences found especially in Black children and support the pursuit of these strengths. “I Had a Dream” – Nicole I had a dream yesterday that everyone looked the same but wore nametags. Everyone got along – no racism, sexism or anything of that nature. Everyone had the same everything. Our skin was black with bright orange eyes and purple hair. If life was like that, everything would be okay. I had a dream yesterday. (09/30/02) Nicole is highly motivated and therefore easy to teach. When teachers have classrooms full of students like Nicole, our task becomes simple. But since this is not a reality in most classrooms, we often teach to the middle. The most intelligent students and the students with the most difficulty suffer. Ladson-Billings (1994) believes that teachers of culturally relevant 69 pedagogy provide their students with intellectual challenges and teach to the highest standards as opposed to the lowest common denominator. Nicole thrived because she was continually pushed to her limits and challenged. When students are bored in the classroom, it becomes difficult to keep them on task. When students are challenged, they don’t have time to be bored. Incorporating culturally relevant pedagogical practices into the school’s curriculum allowed me to teach all students, particularly Nicole, based upon her strengths. Starr Starr is thirteen and lives with her aunt. Her mother died during her seventh grade year. She has attended Beaumont since kindergarten. She is an above average student who frequents the neighborhood library. She is aware of and has read many of the most popular books for young teens. Here is how she describes herself: I am a shining star. I am a multi-talented young lady. I am in love with boys. I am a friendly, sweet, fun-loving girl. I am the girl in every boy’s dream. I am the girl who most likely cares about her education. I am the girl who would like to have a lot going for her. I am the girl who likes kids. I am the female that makes everyone want to say good morning or good night. I am a daddy’s girl and a mother’s best friend. I am (best friend’s name) best friend in the whole wide world. I am (sister’s name) sister and (mother’s name) daughter. I am God’s child. I am (aunt’s name) favorite niece and (father’s name) daughter. I am tall, brown-skinned, beautiful, intelligent, friendly, and very spontaneous. Starr and I had an instant connection through our love of literature. When I chose a class novel, Starr would go to the library, check it out, and finish it before our next class if she hadn’t already read it. Starr is often criticized by her classmates for speaking up. She always has 70 something to say and never minds anybody knowing it. She doesn’t back down when her opinions differ from others. She thrives on praise, works hard, and is her own person. Black women teachers often become “othermothers” to students (Collins, 2000). Teachers who serve as othermothers to their students focus on believing in their students, demanding their best work, and disciplining them for their own good (Irvine, 2000). I praised Starr when she did not back down from her fellow students by voicing her own opinions. She in turn challenged me to find young adult literature that she had not already read. Such was the case for our last group novel. During the eighth week of class we started reading a book called Silent to the Bone. We got to the part of the book just before the climax and as we discussed it, Starr began to ask questions of her classmates about one of the main characters. She was using her ability to view literature through a critical lens in order to figure things out. Her questioning revealed that she was making the process work for her. This is the point of using culturally relevant pedagogy in the classroom – so students begin to ask their own questions and think critically – a scaffolding process. Ladson-Billings (1994) tells us that when teachers provide instructional scaffolding, students can move from what they know to what they need to know. Instructional scaffolding allows students to reach higher levels of understanding and master tasks that would otherwise be too difficult. The notion of scaffolding is embedded in Black feminist thought and culturally relevant pedagogy. Each talks about linking an individual’s experiences and ideas and building bridges between home and school. The experiences are a starting point for learning and the bridging means taking those experiences and bringing them into the classroom as a valued part of a lesson or student work. Starr taught me the importance of using a culturally relevant 71 pedagogical perspective in the classroom. This method worked well for her especially in our reading lessons. Starr also made me look at myself through the eyes of the ‘fictive kin’ or othermother persona that is so needed and missing from the Black community today. As an othermother figure, I garnered respect, admiration, and authority without being authoritative. Patricia Hill Collins (2000) explains it this way, “…the ‘mothering the mind’ relationship can develop between African-American female teachers and their female students. It is unlike a mentoring relationship in that it goes beyond just providing students with technical or academic skills” (p 191). Like the mother-daughter relationship, ‘mothering the mind’ among Black women seeks to move toward a shared sisterhood that binds African-American women as community othermothers (Wade-Gayles 1996 in Collins 2000 p 191). Because Starr had recently lost her mother, she invited and allowed me to step into that role for her during our class sessions. The larger lesson here is that there are and will be students who are without a mother figure. This could be due to death, incarceration, drug abuse, neglect or any number of other reasons. Students need to feel honored, respected, trusted, and secure – this sometimes stretches beyond the boundaries of a classroom teacher’s role, and into the realm of family bonds through othermothering and fictive kin relationships. The Teacher’s Perspective As a teacher, my aim was to teach using a culturally relevant pedagogy. I taught using a variety of teaching methods and strategies that connected with varying learning styles (Gay 2000). I always had an agenda on the board. The agenda told the girls what we would be covering in class. It also gave them some choices so that the students who were farther along did not have to wait for others to catch up. I used mini-lessons which were short lessons with 72 examples for students to follow. This gave the girls more time to work on assignments. Other strategies included collaborative exercises like peer conferences and student- teacher conferences for checking work. Additionally, our critical literature review (CLR) was a collaborative exercise where students learned from each other. Peter Murrell, Jr (2002) writes in African Centered Pedagogy that accomplished teachers of African American children create an intellectual and cultural environment that stimulates learning. They understand and appreciate African American culture, history, and language and continue to study and learn more. Accomplished teachers of African American students understand the distinction between training and educating and choose the latter. Their desire is to produce academically sound, compassionate, Afrocentric students who cope successfully in a Eurocentric society. They stress raising expectations and increasing time on task (cited in Kunjufu, 2002, p 70). Using the tenets of culturally relevant pedagogy (CRP) does not make you a culturally relevant teacher. There is a great deal more involved. Skills do not equal success. I thought that employing the tenets in class would be enough. Gloria Ladson-Billings (1994) outlines eight factors that make a culturally relevant teacher. They are 1) high self-esteem and high regard for others; 2) view self as a professional and strongly identify with craft; 3) view self as part of the community; 4) view teaching as giving something back to the community; 5) helps students make connections between community, national, and global identities; 6) believes that all students can succeed; 7) teaching is like mining (extracting knowledge); and 8) helps students move past the “blaming the victim mentality.” Figure 4.1 illustrates these tenets and the ways in which I interpreted and incorporated them into my classroom practice. 73 Figure 4.1 Gloria Ladson-Billings’ – Specific Classroom Examples of Factors that make a Culturally Relevant Culturally Relevant Teaching Teacher High self-esteem and high regard for others Compliments in front of guests and during conferences. Constant reinforcement of the fact that they are smart. View self as a professional and strongly identify with craft Always prepared for class. Used class time wisely. Checked in with other teachers about students and student work. View self as part of the community While I did not live in community, I attended church in community. Met with librarian in community. Took students to radio station in community to broadcast school lunch menu for one week. View teaching as giving something back to the community Invited community person and parents into classroom to participate in critical literature review process. Helps students make connections between community, national, and global identities Used literature from local author as well as literature that took place in other countries. Reading literature was followed by discussions. Believes that all students can succeed Used multiple teaching strategies to teach. Varied lessons to include reading, writing, speaking, and listening. Mini-lessons to allow more work time. Teaching is like mining (extracting knowledge) Scaffolding process. Built upon what students already knew. Helps students move past the “blaming the victim mentality” Open discussions. Built trust. Never put students down or demeaned them. Set high expectations and helped students achieve them. I believe that I met my goal as a teacher of culturally relevant pedagogy. However, employing culturally relevant instructional strategies in a classroom of Black, eighth-grade girls was very challenging. The girls were not used to structure and order. They were used to chaos and not being held accountable for learning. Seven of the ten girls adjusted to this style of learning. Three girls either could not adjust or chose not to adjust. In the end, it was the seven 74 girls who benefited most. They were empowered to be free and open critical thinkers. This sort of empowerment is advocated by Black feminist theory. As a Black feminist I was charged with incorporating lived experiences into daily classroom lessons, using dialogue to show connectedness, having a genuine care for my students (ethic of caring), taking personal responsibility for my students’ achievement, and using knowledge to empower students. The first two were easily incorporated into lessons. The latter three were a bit more difficult to achieve and demonstrate. The ethic of caring or caring with the heart goes beyond normal teacher expectations. As a Black teacher of Black girls, this caring from the heart meant listening to my students and getting a deeper understanding of who they were – often by hearing what was not said aloud. Students and people in general often ‘hint at’ who they are and what they need. The seven girls who participated in this research from beginning to end took something from the class that they needed; someone to listen, someone to care, someone who was genuinely interested in them, someone to set high expectations; and someone to give them the freedom to use their voices. Inhabiting the dual roles of teacher and student, I realized that I didn’t have all of the answers and I didn’t have to have them. My girls respected the fact that I let them create their own understanding and do some of their own problem solving. They were the producers of knowledge. The girls were active participants in their own learning through critical literature review, peer conferences, and other course lessons. Additionally, as a student I consider myself a work in progress. I have a deeper understanding of the concept that change is dynamic (Collins 2000). No two students are alike and no two classes are alike, so they should not be treated as such. Approaching students as a work in progress means that I am still learning. It also means accepting the fact that I will not 75 necessarily reach all students, nor empower all students. It means that I may have to work harder to reach and empower some students. In either case, I must reflect on the work that I do in the classroom in order to improve. Reflecting allows me to take an introspective look at the work I am trying to accomplish, and whether or not my methods are useful or counterproductive to accomplishing it. Finally, as a researcher seeking to improve my teaching I looked at what other researchers had done. Reflexive culturally relevant pedagogy (RCRP) is a useful term that reflects the necessary elements of best classroom practice. It is not enough to embrace the components of culturally relevant teaching, and it is not enough to isolate reflexivity. By combining the two, I had to look at myself and the positions that I held about teaching Black eighth grade girls in a community school setting. I had to look at all of the things about myself that stood in the way of effective teaching. I had to really examine my values and beliefs and see how they detracted from my ability to reach the girls and teach them Generalizations of Research Outcomes The utilization of culturally relevant pedagogy in public school classrooms is an effective way to create a culture of classroom community, which in turn acts as both a catalyst to and a support of student learning and achievement. Over the course of our time together, the girls participating in the study began to view themselves less as individuals in opposition to our classroom group, and more as individuals intact on their own, but able to contribute to and interact meaningfully with the community created in our class. As their sense of self solidified, and their trust in our community increased, their willingness to work hard and well grew and their academic work improved. This growth and improvement was not limited to the walls of our classroom; it spread and was recognized at other levels of the school building. The principal of 76 the school even commented on the girls’ increased maturity and poise, and chose to feature them on a school radio program. Limitations/Failures When selecting any research approach, other approaches are, by virtue of that choice, excluded. I chose to create and analyze my research from a qualitative perspective. By default, therefore, quantitative applications were not utilized. Therefore, while I can point to significant anecdotal data to support my claims that the students in my study experienced increased academic success and improved as writers and learners, I do not have the benefit of statistical analysis to add to that anecdotal evidence. Given the size of my sample group, however, this is not a significant limitation. Statistics compiled on a group of only 10 students would not be considered particularly convincing; anecdotal data, however, particularly when transmitted in the students’ own words, makes a powerful contribution to the body of research literature on students’ lived experiences in public school classrooms. Similarly, my choice to analyze the data collected through the combined lenses of culturally relevant pedagogy and Black Feminist Theory precluded the utilization of other forms of analysis and theories of interpretation. Though the composition of my research group (all Black females) made Black Feminist Theory a particularly appropriate choice, I am cognizant of the fact that other theories (i.e. – critical education theory, critical race theory) could also have been applied. Further, had my study group not been homogenous, other theories might even have proved more useful in interpreting the results of my research. 77 CHAPTER FIVE: APPLICATION Bennyce I am a forty-one year old student, feminist, teacher, and researcher. I am a strong Black woman who was raised primarily by two strong Black women, my mother and maternal grandmother. They taught me to have a strong sense of self and to overcome obstacles. I am also the torch that leads the way for the young Black women who follow me. When I was a grade school student, school was never very difficult for me. I was not a straight “A” student nor was I an “F” student. I was somewhere in the middle. When my teachers engaged me, I performed well. When I was not engaged in the classroom, I struggled. Being able to engage my students in the process of education is my immediate goal. As a Black feminist and teacher, I am obliged to take an active role in the educational success of Black children. It is not enough to have the skill without utilizing the skill where it is most needed. I want to work in a public school system with Black children, and poor children, and children who have been relegated to the margins of society through the media and stereotypes and research. I was that child. I want to help children believe in themselves when no one else believes in them. I am a researcher looking for answers. The overarching question is: How do I successfully educate Black students? This is a question that plagues many researchers interested in the plight of those students who have been maligned or miseducated in educational systems across the country. Time and time again as I worked through the process of developing a reflexive approach to culturally relevant pedagogy, an approach that would eventually evolve into the entirely new teaching methodology I’ve christened RCRP, I was brought back to my own memories of my 78 school experiences and the ways that those experiences shaped the teacher and scholar I’ve become. When I started this research, it was with the lofty, and laudable, goal of reaching out to children who’d been lost, left behind, or abandoned by the educational system. I wanted to draw them into my sphere of learning and influence their lives in a positive way. I learned, however, that to truly reach children, ‘lost’ and otherwise, it is imperative first to reach oneself, and then to move into the spheres of the children you are hoping to reach, rather than trying to bring those children to you. As I worked to develop a model of teaching practice that embodied the best of all my studies, and as I made mistakes and sought to learn from them, I realized that while I had read many wonderful theories, I’d seen very little on how to practically integrate those theories into practice. Wake Up Call My first day with the girls was a disaster. They had been told by their English teacher that they would no longer be in her English class but would be taught by me for the term. This was accompanied by loud groans and a barrage of questions. “Why do we have to go?” Why can’t we be in class with the boys?” “Are we being punished?” “Where are we going?” I had been given a small classroom that was not being used during the time that our class met in another part of the school building. When I say small – that is an understatement. The classroom was set up for third grade students and my students – my girls as they came to be known, were eighth graders. We walked into the room and more complaints and questions erupted. I tried to explain them away as best as I could so that I could get to the lessons which I had prepared. This was not quite what some of the girls had in mind in this quaint space that was given to us for the purpose of educating young, Black, female, eighth grade minds. 79 The room had three separate spaces. As we walked in the door, there was a teacher’s desk piled high with books and papers. Then there was the area where the students’ desks were located. There were about twelve square desks that could be opened by lifting the top to store items. They were turned inward so that students faced each other as opposed to facing the teacher at the front of the room. This was a bad idea. Having students face each other encouraged off-task behavior – like talking to each other instead of listening. The third area was the most intriguing – even for eighth graders. It was a group of tables that contained games, puzzles, and books (for third graders). This space immediately caught the attention of my eighth graders. Why didn’t I see this before? Why didn’t I prepare for the girls’ reactions to this space? It took the first five minutes of that class to get them into the third grade desks only to be followed by another ten minutes of question answering and moaning and complaining. “Why are these desks so small?” asked Kendra. “This is the only space available”, I replied. “Why are we in here?” asked Jackee. “Because your teacher picked you!” I answered. When I thought I had finally gotten them settled, I pointed their attention toward the board where I had neatly placed an agenda. My agenda was written on a piece of post-it note paper that was designed for presentations, but that could also be removed without the hassle of having to erase it from a chalk board or dry erase board. The first agenda item told the girls what an agenda was and how to use it (see Appendix C). I explained to them that they could expect to see one daily and that the agenda is where they should look to find out what materials they would need and what lessons we would cover that day. This was the lesson that I taught to those students who were listening. 80 This is when I discovered that having desks face each other is not a good idea. It is not conducive to nor does it contribute to an effective learning environment. Several girls thought that me talking meant that they should talk too. And they did! When I talked, they talked. When I stopped talking, they stopped talking. Finally, I stopped, paused, took a deep breath and in my frustration spouted these words: “I am not here to yell at you, to scream at you, or to blast you out! I am here to teach you and that is exactly what I am going to do! Even as eighth graders, you make choices and your choices come with consequences. There will either be a reward or a punishment! You choose!” Their behavior, as a whole, became a little better and I was able to get through the rest of the lesson. I couldn’t help but think about the cliché, “one bad apple don’t spoil the whole bunch.” I thought to myself, what about two or three? I had been given ten girls to teach and two or three could ruin the experience for the rest. I couldn’t let that happen. I also echoed the girls’ question – why are we being punished – but I wondered, was it them or me suffering punishment here? I closed that first session by giving them journals to write in. Their first journal prompt was: What do you expect to learn in this class? As they wrote, I did also. What did I expect to get from this class? Moreover, what could I do to make the learning experience better for them and inevitably for me? As I began to write I was consumed with thoughts like: why am I here? What could I possibly expect to accomplish? How could (and for all intents and purposes) why would any teacher ever come back here? Why would she want to teach these young Black girls? I walked into the classroom on the first day poised for success. I was armed with several college degrees, dressed as a professional should be, and equipped with perfect grammatical skills and a wealth of knowledge to disseminate. I had my agenda, materials for my students, 81 and lofty ideas as to what I was going to do for them. I walked into the classroom believing that I could teach these students based on the fact that ‘they were me’. They were Black, they were girls, and they attended school in the neighborhood where they were raised. More importantly, I had something to offer them. I was the catalyst to get them out of the ghetto; to make them successful; to help them be ‘somebody’. What I found was that these girls were much smarter than I thought I was. Nobody can humble you like a child can. These girls had lived through hardship and disappointment and not just any person could come in and change who they were. It would take a lot of work. I was the one who would be taught many lessons. . When I walked into that classroom the first day poised for success, I forgot to look in the mirror. I wasn’t poised for teaching Black eighth grade girls; I was poised for failure. I entered that classroom with an air of superiority and those girls knew it. I couldn’t hide it from them. I entered that classroom with an “I have something you need and I am going to give it to you” attitude. That approach did not work. I had to be humbled by some really smart, Black, eighth grade girls who had a lesson to teach me. What I learned from this experience is that I did possess the tools to teach them, but my approach was all wrong. In looking back at my daily journal writings, I discovered that I was part of the problem. I was listening to them with my ears but not with my heart. When I read my journals from the first week, I wanted to blame them for their behavior. As I thought about it, I realized that they were misbehaving because I had disrupted their daily routine. I had taken them out of their comfort zones. It was then that I looked at myself for solutions. Making Progress Around week four my girls were finally settling in. We had a few bumps, but all teachers get those as students test the waters and use their newfound voices. By this time Mesha, Jackee, 82 and Kendra had had enough of our class and decided to return to their mixed gender classroom. I continued to teach the remaining girls and establish routines with them. One activity that was constant was our weekly critical literature review (CLR). Once a week (usually on Thursdays) we would read a short story aloud. Sometimes I would read to the girls and sometimes they would take turns and read to each other. On Fridays we would have a formal discussion about the story. The desks were arranged in a circle and the only items on each desk would be a copy of the story and a name card with (Ms.) and the students’ last name. The girls acknowledged each other by last name and raised their hands to be recognized. This particular week, we read a story entitled “Adjo Means Goodbye” by Carrie Allen Young. The story is about a young Black girl whose parents move to an affluent suburb that is predominately White. The daughter becomes best friends with another student who is White and they spend a great deal of time at each other’s houses until other White parents protest the friendship by not allowing their children to come to the birthday party of the White girl. The friendship takes a back seat due to the racist attitudes of the other parents. On this particular CLR Friday we had a guest (Ms. Auciello) participate. Ms. Auciello was a teacher at the school who did not have a class during the time that we met. She had been briefed about the process and given a copy of the story to read ahead of time. Ms. Auciello came in and took a seat. There were no assigned seats for our discussions. My girls sat wherever they felt comfortable. “Who can give us a summary of the story?” I asked. Several students raised their hands. “Okay Ms. Jones (Starr), tell us what this story is about.” 83 “Well, it’s about a Black girl and a White girl who become friends until the White girl had a birthday party and the White parents wouldn’t let their kids go to it,” said Ms. Jones. Several other hands were waving frantically. “Ms. Jones,” said Starr. There were two girls with the same last name Jones (Starr and Nicole). “It was a story about racism and how parents’ attitudes affect their children,” said the other Ms. Jones (Nicole) and our discussion had begun. My role was as a facilitator and Ms. Auciello followed my lead. She raised her hand and was called on by Ms. Jones (Nicole). “Ms. Auciello.” “Why do parents teach their children to be prejudiced?” asked Ms. Auciello. Again several hands went up. “Ms. McSayles.” (Jenae) “I think parents teach their kids to be prejudiced because that’s what their parents taught them. Ms. McNeal.” (DaRhonda) “I think children are prejudiced because they be scared,” said Ms. McNeal. Our discussion continued on until I brought it to a close with a final question: “What can you do to fight prejudice?” Each student and our guest answered the question. As the discussion came to a close, Ms. Auciello raised her hand again. “I have to say, this is the first time that I have seen you girls in this setting and I am very impressed. You all had a lot to say!” “My girls are brilliant!” I told her. “I tell them that all the time when it is just us, but this is the first time that someone else has gotten a chance to see exactly what I’ve been saying. I hope you will come back again sometime, Ms. Auciello.” “I will, and thanks again!” she said. “You girls keep up the good work!” 84 The girls smiled as Ms. Auciello left and we continued with the lesson. At the end of every class, I began to make little notes to myself in a journal. They might read: invite guests again – opportunity to brag on girls, or shorten lesson – too much free time. Mostly my notes consisted of comments to myself about how a particular lesson turned out and what I might do to change my approach to teaching. I found that the more reflexive I was, the more grounded I became and in turn the more genuine I was able to be with my students. One such entry reads: I prepared the girls for guests by suggesting to them that we would invite their parents to participate in a Critical Literature Review (CLR). They thought this was a great idea. When Ms. Auciello came to participate in the CLR process, she added a great deal to the discussion. Additionally, she represented the community participation that Irvine (2002) and Gay (2000) talk about. Inviting guests into our classroom community gave me the opportunity to demonstrate genuine praise. In what other ways can I get the girls to see how phenomenal they really are? How can I show them off without overdoing it and maintaining realism and authenticity? Am I giving them what they need? Am I an othermother and do they feel safe in my classroom space? I think the answer to these questions is as follows: The girls “stepped up” their game in class. They rose to the occasion when Ms. Auciello came to class. My praising them was obviously genuine because I also praised them in the absence of guests. I often told them how smart, brilliant, and wonderful they were. My persona as an othermother was both enabled and enhanced by the girls’ perception of safety in the classroom community we created together. Safety takes many forms; and in this school, our classroom became one such place. It’s not always safe for a young, Black child to be smart or to exhibit those characteristics in school. In 85 our classroom, intellectual excellence was the rule rather than the exception. It was okay to be smart and to demonstrate that in the presence of others. RCRP is Born By the time week eight of a ten-week term came, everybody knew Ms. Hamilton and Ms. Hamilton’s girls including the Principal, Ms. Ware. One morning, as I entered the school, Ms. Ware motioned for me to come into her office. “Have a seat, Ms. Hamilton,” she said. “How are things going?” “Fine!” I replied. “My girls are great!” I asserted confidently. I was a little concerned as to why she called me into her office. “So I’ve heard,” she said quickly. “So I’ve heard. I guess you’re wondering why I called you in.” “Yes!’ I replied half excited, half anxious. “I was wondering if you and your girls would like to be on the radio.” “Sure!” I said. “Doing what?” “I got a call from WCIN radio station and they want to invite some students from Beaumont to record the lunch menu and I thought of you and your girls.” “That’s terrific!” I replied, happy to know that we weren’t in any trouble. “We would love to!” She gave me the contact information and I bounced out of her office like I was walking on air. 86 I picked up the girls, as usual, and walked them down to our classroom (we had finally been given a classroom that was more suitable for eighth graders). I could hardly contain my excitement. “Guess what?” I asked them with a hint that I had a secret and I couldn’t wait to share it. “What?” they said in unison. “You all have been chosen to be on the radio!” “When?” asked Starr. “What station?” asked DaRhonda. This was followed by more questions like, “who picked us” and “why did we get picked?” “I’ll tell you when we get to the classroom,” I said. I was trying to regain some control in the hallway. There were other classes going on. When we got to our classroom, I explained to my girls that their principal, Ms. Ware, had approached me and suggested that “my girls” would be perfect to record the weekly lunch menu for the entire public school system. My girls! The sound of that resonated through me. It wasn’t just me that called them by that title. Other people (like Ms. Ware) acknowledged them by that title as well. That seemed so far away from week one – day one; so far from questioning my ability to teach and be effective. So far from ten, young, Black eighth grade girls wondering why they had been chosen to be separated from their classmates. What made the difference? Was it incorporating a culturally relevant pedagogical (CRP) philosophy or being self-reflexive? 87 I think it was a combination of the two. The tenets of CRP are wonderfully outlined in the research publications of Patricia Hill Collins and Jacqueline Jordan Irvine. However, being self reflexive made me stop pointing fingers at other factors to explain away why Black children, and as is the case here, Black girls are failing. I had to turn the mirror on me. I had to look at who I am and how that contributed to my success as a classroom teacher. It was not enough to acknowledge all of the intricate parts that made up the whole of me. I had to figure out how those intricate parts detracted from me being able to teach my girls. I had to pick myself apart. The first journal that I had my students write asked them what they expected to learn from our class. I, too, responded to that journal prompt. Little did I know then that that journal prompt would make me examine more than what I expected to learn. It made me look at what I expected to learn about myself in the process. At the end of each class session with my girls, I would write. I would write about how the class made me feel that day, and about how I felt when I was a student in school. What was it that my favorite teachers did to make school so much fun, so exciting for me? Was it their enthusiasm? Their genuine concern for my well-being? These are things that cannot be taught or constructed in CRP. These are things that only come from a deep soul searching and personal commitment to becoming an agent of change in the classroom. RCRP forced me to do that – to look at myself, analyze my character, and create in myself the kind of teacher I would want to have in the classroom. Making RCRP Your Own In this chapter, I hope to offer the reader some guidelines for the successful implementation of Reflexive Culturally Relevant Pedagogy. In doing so, I realize that I’m creating something of a paradox – true RCRP will be as varied and look as different as the 88 spectrum of practitioners implementing it. However, I believe that while the appearances of application may differ, the actual practices involved in application are not so dissonant. The following guidelines are just that – guidelines; like a compass, they can be applied to whatever map you choose to follow. They are also interconnected; it is impossible, for example to encourage truth-telling and authenticity without also applying them to self-knowledge and the explicit revelation of personal identity. Know Who You Are The heart of education is discovery; new concepts, new ideas, new stories about the world. Perhaps the greatest discoveries, however, are the discoveries learners make about themselves. As a teacher, I constantly looked for ways to help my students to relate to our curriculum; in order to do that, I asked them to think about who they were and then to figure out how they were connected to what we were studying. Education programs focus on one small part of this when they teach pre-service teachers about metacognition – knowing how you learn. This is important, but insufficient. Students need to know how they learn and who they are as learners. Perhaps they learn best through stories (the how), but the reason that works for them is that they were raised by a grandmother who told tales while she taught them to cook or stitch a button (the who). While some students, perhaps even many students, are able to succeed with only knowledge of the how, knowledge of both is a pathway not just to learning, but to empowerment. And, as with so many things in teaching, this pathway can’t be taught without being modeled. As teachers, it is imperative that we know exactly who we are when we walk into a classroom. When I entered my classroom of eighth grade girls, I knew I was a strong Black woman who’d been mothered and mentored by strong Black women and who had a lot to teach 89 and to offer, especially to young Black girls. Had I been unaware of those influences on my identity, I would not have been able to reflect on and identify the preconceived goals and expectations that caused my first days in the classroom to be so stressful and failure-filled. Without the awareness that came from that reflection, I would never have been able to connect with my girls and we would not have been able to create a learning community together. Before entering a classroom, it is absolutely necessary to think about the person you are, not just as a teacher, but as a member of the human race. What influences have shaped and molded your beliefs and ideals? What experiences have harmed and helped you? Who has mentored you? What are your goals as a teacher? Everyone will answer these questions differently, but every set of answers is important. Reflecting on questions such of these, and just as importantly, reflecting on the answers to these questions, is the best possible preparation for successful interactions with students. Knowing who you are enables you to be authentic in the classroom, and when students sense that authenticity (and they do sense it whenever it’s truly present), they begin to feel safe enough to explore and express themselves. Create a Safe Space It is a touchstone of almost every entry-level teacher-education class – Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs; and the foundation of Maslow’s hierarchy is a sense of safety (Slavin, 2005). While it’s true that Maslow was primarily writing about one’s need for a sense of physical safety, the importance of a sense of intellectual and interpersonal safety cannot be overemphasized. True learning, and the willingness to embark on a journey of discovery, requires that learners are open in order to be receptive to new thoughts and ideas. Openness cannot be achieved in a space that feels threatening, hostile or unsafe. It is the prime directive of 90 the classroom teacher to establish a sense of safety and security for all students, regardless of their background, personalities, or interest level in the teacher’s class. One of the first steps to creating that sense of safety is the teacher’s own willingness to open herself up before her students. By being willing to take the first step in revealing some of her authentic self, the teacher communicates in both word and deed that in this space, everyone is safe to be themselves, to say what is on their minds, to learn what their hearts are seeking, to be brave and daring in the pursuit of learning and discovery. One caveat – it is easy to confuse being open with the over-sharing that has been the stuff of recent news stories about teachers who party with their students, teachers who treat their students as confidantes rather than as the children that they are. Being open with students does not mean venting your feelings or sharing all your personal business with the children in your class. Rather, it is a willingness to own confusion, to admit to mistakes, to share personal successes and missteps on the path to learning. Teachers who are genuinely, and appropriately, open with their students understand that by offering themselves up as transparent examples of learners, they are giving their students the profound gift of a model of learning to follow, to emulate, and, when necessary, to resist. In this way, the journey of learning becomes less a course fraught with danger and more a well-lit path to follow. Listen In Order to Learn It is an old and time honored saying in the community of Black grandmothers: “God gave you two ears and one mouth for a reason.” While the saying may be amusing to modern ears, it is no less relevant, especially in the case of teachers who wish to truly reach their students. It is an all-too-easy thing to do – to be the voice of authority in the front of the classroom, pouring words into children’s ears from the lectern on high. Easy and right, as my mother used to say, are not, 91 however, the same thing. The teacher who genuinely wants to connect with students in a way that feels safe and is empowering for them must be willing to close her mouth and become the student of her students. She must be willing to listen to their words, and to listen beyond their words. Black Feminist Theory advocates “listening with the heart” (Collins, 2000). This suggests that one must listen not only to what is said, but to the feelings behind what is said; that what is not verbalized is just as important, and perhaps more important, than the words that are spoken; that empathy must walk hand in hand with simple linguistic understanding. In my experience with the eighth grade girls at Beaumont, reflection made it imminently clear with whom I had used my heart to listen, and sadly, with whom I had not. The girls who remained in the study continually affirmed, in their spoken words and their classroom actions, that they felt validated, appreciated and understood in our classroom community. The three girls who withdrew from the program, however, did not share that experience. Although I made inroads with both Jackee and Kendra, I was unable to establish sufficient connections to keep them in the program. With Mesha, I’m afraid that her behavior and my need to keep the group together and functional prevented me from hearing what her actions were screaming to be understood. Only in retrospect, with the clarity of hindsight and the balm of time passed, was I able to identify, and own, my failure to truly listen to the girls we left behind. While such learning is small comfort after the fact, it is useful for future practice by myself and other teachers wishing to avoid the same mistake. Risk Versus Reward In any human interaction there is the potential for risk, and the possibility of reward. Teachers often focus on their own risks in the classroom: the risk of missing the performance bar 92 on high stakes exams, the risk of alienating or offending a child, the risk of arousing the ire of parents or administrators through either classroom content or teaching style. We often speak of the rewards of our profession in terms of ‘aha’ moments for students, of high test scores, of thank you notes from parents or former students for a job well done. We forget, however, that there are risks and rewards for our students in the classroom. It takes a great deal of courage for students to analyze their risk and reward potential and decide in favor of the classroom community. Students who prioritize education risk alienation from their peer group, distancing themselves from family members, and changing themselves in unforeseen and sometimes frightening ways. All this risk, in the face of rewards that are often almost completely intangible: the satisfaction of a task well performed, the inner glow of new knowledge acquired, the feeling of fulfillment that comes with applying what one has learned to one’s life. These intrinsic rewards are often difficult to communicate with schoolchildren. This is why the aforementioned teacher qualities – honesty, authenticity and genuine two-way communication are so important. With these traits as the foundation of a teacher’s relationships with her students, those students are more likely to believe her when she tells them about the intrinsic, invaluable rewards of learning. In my group of eighth graders, I struggled to communicate these rewards in a way that made sense to my girls, and in a way that demonstrated their higher value when compared to the rewards of peer support alone. DaRhonda, for example, really struggled with the conflict between acceptance from her peers and affirmation from me. In the end, because I was honest with her, because I listened to her with my ears and my heart, because I affirmed her worth, intelligence, and value, she was able to choose the struggle of learning over the easier path to popularity with her peers. When her peer group left the group, DaRhonda stayed and achieved 93 success after success, courageously challenging her own and others’ preconceptions of both her personality and her abilities. Integrating RCRP in Classroom Practice There is a lot of focus in teacher preparation programs on methods and techniques, sometimes called “skill and drill,” for communicating content to students. Proponents of standardized testing would have us believe that only measurable outcomes connected to formal assessment are valuable indicators of learning (Kohn, 2000; Kozol, 2004). This, however, neglects to take into account the importance of more affective learning indicators. These socalled ‘soft skills’ are absolutely necessary for the meaningful acquisition and retention of knowledge. Students who are unable to value their learning and progress are unlikely to pursue additional learning. They will not be driven towards scholarship, and their innate curiosity will be crushed by the minutiae of the day-to-day requirements, rather than inspired by the potential for discovery. In practical terms, they will not be motivated to strive for success academically, and will be unlikely to pursue exceptionality in their career fields once they’ve left our classrooms. It is important to remember that, as teachers, we are the preparers of tomorrow’s doctors, attorneys, and politicians. I want tomorrow’s doctors to be curious and to advance medicine beyond the boundaries that contain today. If that is my goal, then I must empower my students, who may become those future doctors, by encouraging them to embrace the discovery of new learning and to be fearless in the pursuit of knowledge. Of course there are tests to be passed and set skills to be mastered, but this need not be done at the expense of exploration and adventure in the classroom. 94 CHAPTER SIX: CONCLUSIONS I feel like I have so much work to do. I make an opening and take ten steps back. Reading, writing, speaking and listening are all skills that eighth graders should have mastered. Sometimes it’s like teaching first graders. What has happened to our school system? What can I give to the girls that they haven’t gotten? I can give them tools – like confidence, affirmation, and self-awareness. The rest is up to them. What they do with the tools can make the difference in where they end up. Lesson: Find resources that allow me to give my girls everything possible. In the process – give also to self. From reflective journal, 9/24/02 Reflexive Culturally Relevant Pedagogy as a Model for Teaching and Learning with Black Students When a certain segment of society is victimized, it often becomes easy to continue in that tradition. As teachers, we sometimes fall prey to this with our students. In the classroom, teachers often ask “What’s wrong with that student?” instead of asking “What could I have done differently with that student?” When we begin to ask ourselves questions as teachers, then we begin to be open to other possibilities, to explore more creative methods of teaching, and to change our expectations of outcomes for students. Black students are no exceptions to this rule; they are often marginalized and set up as victims. In turn, they are marginalized and treated as victims in the classroom. Reflexive Culturally Relevant Pedagogy (RCRP) encourages teachers to examine their teaching methods and to evaluate them in terms of meeting students’ needs, and, where they fall short, to revise them accordingly. It allows to teachers to be more creative, driving them down alternative avenues to guide their students to increased learning, and consequently to increased success in meeting state and district academic standards. Pre-service teachers must be taught to look at their own teaching skills, utilizing a journal or some other reflective media, so that they can adapt themselves and their skills to their 95 students’ needs. Teachers recognize the importance of journaling for students; it is imperative that we not exempt ourselves from this necessary and valuable practice. Pre-service teachers, if trained to do this as regularly as they write lesson plans, will be stronger, more creative, and therefore more effective teachers. More effective teachers in turn produce more successful students. The documentation of both successes and failures means that failures are less likely to be repeated, and successes are more likely to be multiplied. Suggested Uses for Research There are three key components to the successful implementation of reflexive culturally relevant pedagogy in the classroom. They are: 1. Identify and implement techniques to support personal (teacher) reflexivity; 2. Identify and implement strategies supporting students’ reflexivity; and 3. Identify ways to incorporate RCRP in the classroom. The importance of self-reflection on the part of the teacher seeking to create a reflexive and culturally relevant pedagogy in his/her classroom cannot be overstated. The editors of New Skills for New Schools (1997) note that self-reflection “helps teachers process what they are learning and make the experiences personally meaningful. Self-reflection is also useful for addressing cultural differences . . . [and] uncover[ing] any negative feelings and assumptions they might have which may inhibit [their work]” (http://www.ed.gov/pubs/NewSkills/chptr4.html). They observe that techniques for selfreflection are many and varied, and that while journal writing is a common staple of selfreflective practice, such practice includes any task “that ask[s] teachers to think about their own family backgrounds, their assumptions about other families, and their attitudes for working with families. The goal [then] is for prospective teachers to consider how their own perspectives will influence their work . . .” According to Jeffrey (2004), teacher diaries can be referred to as 96 “agents for change by laying the foundation for professional development.” Bailey (2001) recommends that teaching experiences be “documented through regular, candid entries in a personal journal and then analyzed for recurring patterns or salient events” (215). This rereading of a teacher’s reflective journal is a critical element of the reflective process – while there are certainly a myriad of benefits to expunging a full teaching day into the compliant and cooperative embrace of a blank page, such a purge will not lead to professional improvement unless it is reviewed and analyzed by the teacher who wrote it. It is in this analysis that teachers learn about themselves; their hidden agendas and expectations, their emotional attachments and disengagements, and their perceptions of their own, and their students’ successes and failures. Reflexivity on the part of the teacher, while necessary, is not sufficient for the full implementation of RCRP. It is vitally important to create a classroom environment and learning structure that supports students’ personal reflexivity. According to Allen and Farnsworth (1993), reflexivity promotes self-awareness, scholarly accountability, and recognition of a range of human truths, and helps students learn to observe and locate themselves as knowers. The practice of reflexivity, then, gives students an opportunity to use their personal experiences as a lens through which to view and critique what passes as accepted knowledge on a subject, and to make sense of and filter their own personal experiences in light of that accepted knowledge. Sinacore, et al (1999) suggest several strategies for supporting student reflexivity. These include: - selecting course content and materials that “reflect the diversity of lived experience” and “facilitate the integration of scholarly knowledge” (268); modeling personal reflexivity by openly acknowledging and explaining the thought processes involved in planning a course and selecting course readings; inviting speakers from traditionally marginalized groups to share their experiences with students in class; facilitating class discussions in which students can “share their understanding of readings and use personal experiences to reveal points of congruency and contradiction with course materials” (268); 97 - designing assignments which “encourage awareness of self and others while respecting the importance of academic scholarship” (269); and implementing a grading system that is mindful of the need for balance between traditional grading values (i.e. – correct answers, an accurate final product) and the goals and values of a reflexive classroom (i.e. – the process is valuable, not just the finished product). In 1933, John Dewey wrote that true learning can occur only through reflecting on experiences. If the goal of education is, in fact, truly learning, then the importance, indeed, the necessity, of a classroom built on reflexive practice by both teacher and students cannot be overestimated. The idea of implementing a pedagogical approach emphasizing both reflexivity and cultural relevance may seem overwhelming. It can be achieved, however, without unduly overburdening the teacher committed to its practice. Two central pillars in structuring an RCRP classroom are: 1) selecting course materials that are relevant to students’ lives and experiences, and 2) structuring opportunities for reflection into assignments and daily routines. When looking for relevant course materials, consider the age, race, and gender of the students in class. It is sometimes helpful to look to local authors for materials, as their work is often especially relevant (ex. – Sharon Draper in Cincinnati, Walter Dean Myers in New York’s Harlem, Christopher Paul Curtis in Detroit). Bringing in guest speakers from the community, and actively involving parents in classroom activities are other ways to increase the cultural relevance of classroom learning. As the relevance of learning increases, so does the opportunity for students to practice reflection. Obviously, students can, and should, be encouraged to write reflectively and to complete assignments connecting their own experiences to classroom content. Additionally, however, there are a multitude of benefits to be gained from having students reflect on the how of their learning, guiding them, through carefully designed discussion and assignments, to a place of metacognition. In this way, they are being both reflective and culturally relevant because 98 they are focusing on their own experiences and ways of learning, inclusive of their culture and background. Students can learn a lot from themselves. They can also learn a lot from each other, and the RCRP classroom respects and honors that by providing opportunities for students to work together in order to facilitate the acquisition of skills and knowledge. In addition, the practitioner of RCRP acknowledges that students know what kind of classroom protocols and procedures they need in order to be successful, and consequently gives them a voice in designing class rules and procedures, while providing a structure to encourage student feedback while guiding student learning. Creating an RCRP classroom does not involve a redesign of curriculum; it simply involves a shift in thinking about the curriculum and different instructional choices in presenting it. Suggestions/Implications for Further Research As the parameters of this study were limited to a small sample of Black adolescent girls, there are several readily apparent ways to extend and expand this study. First, it would be useful to work with a larger sample of Black girls. Assuming the data gathered in a larger group with similar research subjects is resonant with the results of my own study, the sample could be expanded to include first both Black and White girls, and then to include both Black and White girls and boys. Extending the time frame of the research from one quarter to a full semester, or a full year, would also yield valuable insight into both the feasibility of implementing reflexive culturally relevant pedagogy on an ongoing basis, and into the long-range academic effects (as evidenced by student work samples, quarterly and semester grades, and annual standardized test scores) and social/behavioral changes (i.e. – student attendance, behavioral issues – detentions, suspensions, etc., and class participation). Again, assuming that the data continue to support the use of RCRP, I recommend broadening the scope of the study to include students from schools in 99 different neighborhood and from different socioeconomic backgrounds. This will demonstrate that this research is both internally and externally valid. Good research is only as good, really, as its application. Consequently, I recommend the formation of a mixed-gender, mixed-race cohort of teachers to implement RCRP in their classrooms and to analyze the results of that implementation together over an extended period of time. The data gleaned from that analysis can then be used to create the foundation of a course designed for pre-service teachers in the theory, uses, implementation, and benefits of reflexive culturally relevant pedagogy. As more teachers are trained in the use of RCRP, more students will experience both the personal empowerment and the academic success that often accompany it. Conclusion To acknowledge privilege is the first step in making it available for wider use. Each one of us is blessed in some particular way, whether we recognize our blessings or not. And each one of us, somewhere in our lives must clear a space within that blessing where she can call upon whatever resources are available to her in the name of something that must be done. If one Black woman I do not know gains hope from my story, then it has been worth the difficulty of telling (Lorde 1988). In many ways, this dissertation is an homage to privilege. Without the privilege of a strong mother committed to my success in school, I might never have seen the value of education. Without the privilege of attending good schools, with caring and invested teachers, I might never have become interested in teaching as a profession. Without the privilege of my own engaged and supported intellect, I would have been unable to complete my bachelor’s degree, or to glimpse the opportunities available in graduate school. Yearning toward those higher ed opportunities, it was the privilege of my professional career that allowed me the time and 100 funding necessary to pursue an M.Ed., and then to complete the research and classroom requirements for this Ed.D. Privilege, then, is really the story of my life. I have enjoyed living in privilege. 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Students will acknowledge each other formally (i.e. Ms. Jones, Ms. Swain, etc). You will decide who speaks next by calling on another student with a raised hand or by calling on a classmate who you want to hear from that doesn’t have their hand raised. You must participate because this is part of your grade! It is okay to disagree with one of your classmates! 110 Appendix C Sample Agenda 9/5/02 1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. Take out materials. Materials: pen/cil, journal, folder, looseleaf paper M.L.: Attributes of a Critical Thinker M.L.: Procedures for Critical Literature Review (CLR) Reading Workshop Story web Read story Writing Workshop Journal #2: Who are you? Tell me all about yourself. Use complete sentences. List your attributes. Work on Narrative pre-write (PW) – work to completion Begin Narrative Draft One (D1) 111 Appendix D 112 113 114 Appendix E 115 116 117 118 119 120 121 122
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