Love Birds
27-march-2010
I felt as if the wait for this day was worth. For the very first time you
touched my waist. I can still remember every single moment...
The next day, by two in the afternoon, I was there in her
house, sitting with her mother across the table.
“Hey, when did you come.” Akshada asked, stepping out of
her room.
“Ten minute before. Just waiting for you to come.”
“Oh, I thought you would be late.” She smiled.
“Have I ever happened late by a minute? No way.” I
reminded her.
…I looked at you and again hated you for wearing the same dress. It's
really made me feel uncomfortable. Black T-shirt always helped you to look
killer as it reveals your perfect muscles and somehow I feel a bit possessive…
Finally, she settled in the front seat of car. I just looked at her
and smiled and then turned on the ignition key. The gentle
humming of the engine filled the air.
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It's been more than ten minutes since I took her out from her
home but still we hadn't started our actual conversation. Actually I
was thinking about Bablu to whom, today I had entrusted the
responsibility of gym. Would he be executing his duty well or not
was the only question that was running in my mind and I was a bit
cautious as I knew him well.
“Why don't you ever seem in a good mood?” she suddenly
broke the silence.
I just looked at her and forced a smile. I couldn't ever be in a
good mood because of obvious reason. There were lots of unsettled
things in my life to deal with.
“I never have any good reason.” I said, still focusing on
the road.
...a girl was there because she wanted to have best time with you but
your Silent attitude literally killed me in those moments…
“You know, sometimes I feel you are quite boring.” She voiced
complaining.
“Really?” I asked still focusing on the road.
“Look, you have brought me to have some fun with you and
here we are sitting quietly in the atmosphere of deadly silence.” She
replied a bit annoyed.
I turned on the stereo. A soothing music hummed in.
“Enjoy it; it will make your mood better.” I promoted.
…for a second I literally thought to slit your throat as well as mine too.
How can you be such a moron? But you Mr. Imperfect, you always seemed
lost into a self created illusionary world. I wondered did you ever care about
someone else's feelings. Sometimes I wished I could read your mind and
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then I suddenly tremble in fear by realizing the fact that how would I react if
I didn't find me there...
“You are literally boring.” She said with a slight disgust look.
"Are you sure?"
"Yup." She persisted.
“Hey I am not.” I said, intently looking at her.
“Yes, you are.”
"Are you super sure that I am boring?" once more I repeated,
planning something in my mind.
"Yeah."
"Just think once more. I don't think I am?” and it was the
moment when I finally made up my mind to give her one more
memorable moment of her life.
"Uh-huh, you are." she smiled smugly.
I just pulled a wonderful smile on my face. Soon she realized
that I was driving on the narrow road. She just looked around and
rolled down the window. Her eyes hung across on green pastures
and trees all along the road. A gang of monkey was jumping across
branches jostling at something. In the field, yellow sunflowers
littered the earth. The cold gust of breeze gently whipped through
her hair.
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She watched as the scenery started to pass by slowly, until the car
came to a stop. She stretched her arms wider feeling the freshness of
surroundings. The wind was tender to rejuvenate her mind. I
looked down at her and pulled a very soft smile.
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She looked around. The surrounding was enticing. Her eyes
wandered across the flowers and green grasses. She breathed in the
crisp, clean scented air. The wind picked up a few curls of her hair
and it stuck in her face almost blocking her eye-vision. Irritatingly
she swept them away.
“Life is not only meant to plunge in the world of study or
watch some TV programs or read some gossips about different
celebrities. There are much more interesting things in life to
explore. As you always say that you love to have a real romance with
nature, so today I have brought you here.”
She had a casual glance of me and put a brilliant reply, “But
same thing also applies to you. You never come out of the world of
your gym. Fitness training, personal training, corporate training,
personal coach, cardio, push ups, weightlifting and blah blah
blah.” She slightly teased me.
I really liked her way of countering me.
“That's why I have come here along with you, so I will also
have some moment of fun and apply the same principle of life over
me.” I teased her philosophically.
“Oh, so sweet then,” she smirked.
“Welcome, my sweetest friend.” I pulled a smile.
...and once more you hurt me by calling me just a friend. Couldn't you
be a bit romantic to your answers? Hmmmmm…but any way I was so
enthralled. How could you ever plan this?...
We moved in the narrow lanes, enjoying the real beauty of
nature. Next to us was a picnic spot with an amazing water park.
She saw a group of boys seated in a big circle and were chatting
openly over some weird topic and laughing like mad. She looked
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down at the streams flowing in a rapid motion. It seemed fairly
mysterious. People were hooting and jostling at each other along
the shore. Youngsters were splashing water. Loud music was
enthralling the ambience, music was loud enough to make her
ears ache. A group of youngsters was running across the shore,
half naked youngsters, throwing their colleagues into the stream
and hooting.
She sat on the shore, looking at the miserable streams of
water. I joined her pointing my finger at those crazy youngsters
and described their natures and whom they were going to throw
the next.
“Wow,” she almost chirped after seeing a couple trying to
drown each other.
“Do you like it.” I asked. My hand gently tapped her shoulder.
“You know,” She heaved a huge breath, “you can enjoy your
life in a better way when you get the company of someone whom
you adore the most. Just look at those wonderful couples, how
lovely and adorable they are.”
“Yeah, that's the miracle of love Akshada. When you fall
in love with someone, then the whole world appears to you
quite different.”
I said still observing them.
...what a cute line you had told Mr. Philosopher but I was afraid, would
you ever apply those all philosophies in real life?...
“What do you think about the man who will hold my hand?”
She asked a bit teasingly.
I looked into her dazzling eyes and softly touched her cheek.
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“You know he will be the most amazing person in this world
who will hold your hand and I am sure that he will keep you happy
forever. He would be the man of your dream whom you will adore
the most. Whenever you close your eyes you will get his reflection.”
I sweetly said.
...and your wording literally made me smile. You were there you
moron and you were the most amazing…
“Do you think will I ever get the man of my dream Ayaan?”
she asked. Her voice was so intent.
“Yeah, I am sure, you will.”
“Thanks.”
“Just be true to yourself. Life will show you countless miracles.”
“Yeah, I will.” She forced a smile.
“Come on, let's have some fun.” I prompted.
“Yeah, sure.” She said.
And before she could think anything, I lifted her up by
gripping around her waist. She was so amused at my behaviour but
I was sure she loved it.
...I felt your touch around my waist. I closed my eyes and thought
about you and you know what-you were caring and cruel at the same time…
“Hey, what are you doing? Please put me down, I will fall.”
She reluctantly begged.
But I knew what I all needed to do.
“Do not worry, my friend,” I gently relaxed her, “It will be
amazing fun and trust me; I won't ever let you fall.”
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“Really?”
“Hmm”
“How long will you protect me this way?” she asked, still
feeling my grip around her waist.
“As long as I will breathe on this earth.”
“I trust you.” Her voice was intent.
“So?” I just smiled looking into her eyes.
“So what?” she said.
"Ready to have the real adventure of water?" I inquired.
And before she could say anything, I threw her into the
stream. She struggled a bit and tried to grab me. I again picked her
and forced to draw in the water. The water was warm and she felt
awesome.
"Don't just stand there,” I warned.
“I am a bit scared.”
“Why?”
“I don't know?”
“Don't be scared. I am with you nah. I will always protect
you.” I approached close and comforted her.
"Okay, now, hold your breath and drown yourself as long as
you can.” I instructed.
“No,” she slightly resisted.
“Do it, it will be so much fun.”
“No, first you demonstrate it.”
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I smiled and drowned myself in the water. And it was the
moment which she utilized. She became a bit naughty and tried
to push my head under water but I couldn't bulge by her force
and it made both of us break into laughter. My eyes glanced back
up at her,
"Now it's your turn.”
She held her breath and took a deep breath. I held her hand
and we both moved to the waterfall. Standing under the current,
she felt the weird sensation as the water fell over her body.
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Her dress was completely soaked. The droplets of water seemed like
pearls on her face. She ran her hand through her hair, pulling her
hair clip back. Now her hair was loose, falling over her shoulder. I
looked over at her bright face and smiled. Moisten air was touching
her face. Her light make up had almost disappeared and her skin
radiated with its natural glow. Under the fancy light of shower, she
was looking so breathtaking; her eyes were soft and intent and her
hair was touching her waist, making a wavy structure.
“Am I really that boring?” I teased her.
"Huh?" she puckered her nose.
“Honestly, am I that bad?” I repeated.
She shrugged, "Of course not”
I smiled once again looking at her face, "it's not me; it's you
who were saying so?"
“Oh!” She smiled at my witticism.
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I took out my mobile and clicked a couple of snaps of her in
different pose. I looked at her eyes and they were looking beautiful.
I kept the focus of the camera over them.
...I loved to strike a pose for you. My eyes silently tried to
communicate with you but you didn't signal me back...
One more hour passed by. Now we moved to the wet grass.
The ground felt soft and bouncy and she walked barefoot. I was
carrying her sandals in one hand, while my other one was linked
with hers. All around us the birds whistled in happy tune. The
sweet scent of the lilies filled our nostrils. We moved to the last edge
of the Water Park still holding hands.
....Ah! How fascinating your touch was over my hand. Honestly it
caressed me and stimulated my mind. I didn't ever want my hand to be
outgripped. You may hold my hand for a while, but you hold my heart
forever. I felt as if by holding my hand you were going to entrust everything
to me. I am drawn to your soul in a way which I have never experienced
before....
The scenario in front of us was so breathtaking. Lots of swans
were swimming in the water, gathered in different groups and
trying to chase each other. A beautiful pair of swan was entangling
their necks as if they wanted to feel the closeness. People were
taking snaps and hooting and cheering at their activities.
“You know what people usually speak about these swans.” I
asked, looking at the beautiful birds.
“No”
‘'Swans are usually referred as the bird of love, the bird that is
always spotted together. How important lesson it teaches us? If we
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love someone, we should always stand by the side of our partners.
Try to understand their feeling, and get ready to make any
sacrifice.” I said philosophically.
…Mr. Philosopher I really loved the way you were preaching. Every
single word of yours was touching the very core of my heart. Your smile
always enforces my canvass of desire to expand wild...
“Hey, where are you lost?” I asked when I found her
deliberating over something seriously.
She didn't' reply and just looked at my face. Her face was
shimmering.
“Just close your eyes.” I requested.
“What?”
“Close your eyes, my dear friend.”
“But why?”
“Just close nah, and please don't ask why.” I said in a very
affectionate tone.
...Your soft wording acted over me as if you were commanding me
with an ultimate authority. The real authority which I always wanted to
entrust you. Slowly I closed my eyes. There was a nagging silence in the
surrounding. I could hear the sound of water stream. My soaked dress
raised a weird sensation in my body when cold wind stung me. I could hear
the voice of a laughing couple who were walking on the edge...
“Now you can open your eyes.” I gently said, removing her
hand from her eyes.
She opened her eyes. And it was the moment when she
completely became astounded. I knew that this was going to make
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her so happy. A pair of swan was entangling their necks and making
the famous heart shape just next to us.
“Oh god, how beautiful it looks like!” she almost exclaimed.
“That's why we always call them the love bird.” I said,
pointing finger at the shape of heart which the couple swans were
forming.
She saw a young couple was feeding something to those
swans. Group of swans were rushing, jostling, dancing and
sometimes making their famous heart shape by entangling their
necks all around.
“Lovely couple,” I said, looking at the couple who were
feeding the swans.
She looked at them and smiled.
“But you know what?” she intervened me.
“What?”
“They don't love each other. They are just passing time.” She said.
“How can you say?” I asked being a bit startled.
“Look at the way of their hand holding. It's telling the true
story.” She casually said.
I was literally astounded over her wording as I couldn't
understand what she all wanted to tell. Her gaze imitated mine and
she pulled a pleasant smile.
“Look at the way of their intertwining of fingers.”She said,
“No proper grip over hand, no proper placement of thumb, they
are reluctantly holding their hand. Firm gripping and proper
position of finger reflect the intimacy which is lacking in their
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relation.” She said, trying to explain the way how a true couple
hold their hands.
“They don't love each other. They are just passing time. Love
means true dedication; you need to have a passion to give
everything selflessly to your partner. No hidden secrets, no lies, no
mistrust.” She philosophically said.
She took my mobile and checked the snaps I had clicked. Her
eyes wandered across the different images.
…I loved the way you had clicked me in different poses. I loved the way
you nicely framed the beauty of nature. I loved everything being clicked by
you- From those beautiful swans to sunflowers to different couples walking
around the park. In fact I love you Mr. Perfect. I goddamn love you…
A strand of her hair slowly fell over her forehead again. My
finger moved quickly, yet tenderly, across her skin; to keep the
strands of hair away from her eyes.
… for a moment you made my heart pace race uncontrollably. I loved
the way your finger roamed across my cheek. In fact it was an angelic
touch. Your ravishing look once again made my breath caught in my throat.
A tinge of blush found its way to my cheeks. I was getting blush for you idiot...
“So?” finally, I said breaking the invisible silence that existed
there for a couple of moments.
“So what?” She asked.
“How do you feel after being here.”
“It's amazing. I really loved this day. I can't tell you how happy
I am. Every moment was just enthralling.” She said, trying to dry
her hair.
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“I always want to make you happy. Your happiness means a lot
to me. You know, sometimes I feel, perhaps I would have faded out
if you people hadn't' come into my life and helped me. You all are
just like angels who made me what I am. No matter how hard will I
try, but I won't ever be able to repay a bit of what you and your
family have done to me.” My tone was serious.
“There is nothing like that Ayaan.” She came close and
kept her hand over my shoulder, “you are such a good person
and how we can't think to help such a sweet person like you.
And today, whatever you are is due to your hard work and not
because of our help.”
“Akshada, I accept your humility wholeheartedly, but I also
have to accept the reality. What hard work would have paid me if
Karthik hadn't help me that day? I would have ended by doing
some odd jobs or smuggling some illegal stuff. I would have never
got the life which I have been having now. My world would have
already ended that fateful day, but it's you all people who again
brought the smile to my life.”
“Ayaan, protecting humanity should be our ultimate goal. We
should always come forward to help whoever need us. Even in
terms of helping people, you are doing such an astonishing work
and I know your selfless dedication will definitely change the life of
many. Money and materialistic success don't determine how good
as a person you are. It is determined by that different traits exist
within us.”
“You know Akshada, I always wonder if ever in life I get an
opportunity to repay a bit of what all you have offered to me, then I
would consider myself very fortunate.”
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“Ayaan there is nothing like that. And if you really want to
repay a bit of gratitude, then please do me a favor.” She said. Her
voice was a bit flippant.
“What?” I asked surprised.
“First stop treating me this way. It hurts.”
I just didn't say anything.
“And drive me to home. I am really shivering a bit.” She said.
I really liked the way she changed the topic skillfully.
“Okay,” I said and finally we came out of the water park.
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As usual Bablu was having fun in the gym. His gaze was chasing a
hot girl who was running on a treadmill and he just went to her.
“Hello, I am Com Truise” he waved his hand.
The girl looked at him panting but didn't reply. He also
started to run on another treadmill which was kept just beside her.
“I want to talk to you.” He again approached her.
Once more girl looked at him. Bablu's eyes scanned her
exquisite beauty. His eyes lingered around her curves which
brought smile on his face.
“I really want to talk to you.” Once more he tried to pull her
attention, but the girl didn't pay any head to him and it irritated
him a bit.
“Hey look, what a beautiful bird there outside?”
She swiveled her neck back to look at the bird. In between he
skillfully increased the reading of her treadmill and girl couldn't
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maintain her pace and fell. Everyone in gym started to laugh. Girl
angrily looked at him and went out.
As I entered in the gym, I found her going out. I tried to
inquire why she was leaving so early but she didn't prefer to talk to
me. Later on I got to know the whole scenario.
“What the hell are you doing?” I just asked a bit angrily.
“The girl was really hot bro.”
“But this is our work. We are not here to develop crushes for girls.”
“Every girl in this gym has a crush on you, so why you would
bother, but in my case, the problem is genuine as you know, no one
likes me. Even after imitating all styles of Mr. Truise, I am still
single. And you can't take my congenital right to try on everyone
away to me.” He said sniggering.
I didn't reply anything as I knew he was not going to mend his
habit. Girls were always his never ending fantasy. I knew it very well.
After workouts with a few clients at night, I went to the
orphanage and shared space with children.
….It's two at midnight and here I am still writing the feeling of my
heart. It's not that I'm slow at writing. It's just whenever I write a line about
you, I start feeling it for hours and hours…